Is sunday again.. today didnt go to join scdf for db training.. very tired and my arms are aching.. super lousy alrt.. yst just went to did some climbing with Jel at asia.. but i think i cmi already, need to work my fitness back.. yst jel and i try to do pull up, do till we wanna die also cant pull ha.. so i guess if there's sat book out shld go climb...

As usual later gotto book in again...every week rather then experience-ing monday blues, i'll suffer from sunday blues ha and this week is clearing SOC week.. last week was very physical demanding.. we like being trained to become PTI or sort... running everyday.. it reminds me on my sispec days.. especially Foxtrot.. where we just run every single day 2 or 3 times.. but at least we're rewarded with nights out and i have great companions... Not that the ppl here are not nice... but we're still in the start of knowing one another.. nonetheless, i just hope i can continue my performance.. must not let sispec down and also myself... must reach my goal of commissioning..

The upcoming two weeks will be 84mm, soc and ippt test.. i just really hope and wish and pray that i can score well man.. clear it with my best timing and best ability.. really dun wanna re-test sia!!!*pray hard!!! And my first field camp is gonna be coming up... is like a good 4 days... i just hope i can endure and excel thru alrt.. gonna be exercise dump-in and some platoon battle procedure... And my Mr "Nice" PC is getting me to be the MG gunner.. tat's it for me man.. heavy weapon.. den soon to come, i should be put to carry 84mm... so i really gotto pray and train more now.. pray and train hard that i can pass through those tough days and finish real strong!!! so god bless me:/

But my PC and section instructor are really nice.. they really push u all the way..so i hope i dun let them down too.. i noe they trying to push me to get the best pt.. i mean who dun wan that title.. i just hope i can beat my super fit also the BEST PT of ocs squad mate alrt.. Weiyi had gone to New Zealand, and i noe her training there is gonna be a 1000 times or 10 000 times worst den me.. the load that she's taking gonna be tons heavier than me too... so i should not complaint.. and she's really my motivation.. cause during tough times, i think of her, i kinda able to push myself further.. so i'm really lucky to have such a zai senior ar!!!

so for now, my this week goal:
To stay focus in completing my course (soc test, 84mm, physical training), take things one step at a time, i shall finish strong...

She can't see the way your eyes
Light up when you smile
She'll never notice how you stop and stare
Whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wantin' you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible

There's a fire inside of you
That can't help much I'm through
She's never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we're invisible
I just wanna look in your eyes
And make you realize