Alrt.. firstly have to sincerely apologise to Cap Aud for ps-ing her over at JB and nearly made her lost as well as making her walk the whole afternoon-evening and wasting the cab fares and transport fees.. Realli sorry... Hope the cheap dinner did help to repay my guilt a little!!!! aiya.. all thanks to the bloody network.. duno why did not auto-roam for me.. idiot!!! Again.. i'm realli SORRY!!!

Benjamin send this link to me-->http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryCTIigaloQ clip on (Can ) Father-son bond of Dick and Rick Hoyt...it is indeed inspiring as well as touching.. It brought tears to my eyes when i was watching it last night.. from the clip you can realli see how great is a father's love to the son... N the clip reminded me on the tues episode of Criminal Minds.. it was abt a mother who was imprisoned for 15 yrs and in the end prosecuted for the crime she did not commit juz to protect and free her son from being his father's victim.. she was forced to disowned her son too.. sigh All becoz of her psychotic husband.. her husband actually have a workshop tat used to torture people whom he abducted.. and he well deserved to be executed by high power treatment.. Okie.. and i conclude tat any parents love for their child can be so powerful and great. The extra miles they go just to protect their offsprings or to bring the best for them.. i bet is not easy..And i'm truely greatful and blessed to have both my parents by my side as well as a fit and healthy body to carry out sports or activities that i like..

Oh yay.. saw the poster for deathnote.. is gonna be screening on 19 Oct.. cant wait alrt.. thats my fav manga.. and now is gonna be in theater YESSSS!! CSI miami is coming back on tues night too.. Yippe yay!!!

I think i need a change in the bloody blog skin.. is giving me hell lots of pro!!! Darn!!!

Okie dokie.. today is like an exercising day for me.. good good.. went muay thai and being trained by shijie and jimmy.. and is good..at least i've improved my kicks in terms of accuracy and strength.. and thanks jimmy for taking ur time and patience to train me in my punches.. hope to see ya ard again... And i muz realli say, ur body is damn flexi.. cannot take it.. ha

Anyhow, need to train harder.. coz everyone seems to be so good.. so yupp muz jia you and go down for training faithfully.. Alrt.. after muay thai, met up with Aud for nite jogging(yup 2 loners jogging in da nite ha).. was cool..anyway ran to puggol park from her place (seng kang actually, ha)... is realli quiet and breezy over there.. it can be a little scary and creepy too i guess esp when ya alone.. coz too quiet haha.. Anyhow, saw a handful of faithful runners training and running in the nite.. not bad not bad.. Oh and the cafe at puggol park have nice ambience.. play nice love songs and a totally ideal place for couples or even frens to chill out.. nice i muz say.. Oh, Aud and i will like saying mayb puggol park lake or izzt river can convert for the use of wakeboarding activities.. and i think if so, it'll be damn cool.. coz u get to not only see wakeboarder hunks but also the babes lol... but overall i like their stunts.. i hope one day i can take up tat sports too hee.. (yup.. sugamama and sugapapa.. give me the money$!$!)
P.S. Anyway, anyone interested in the waterfeast wakeboarding event this coming Sat?!?! i feel like going to watch their stunts...

And Yay.. i finally trimmed my hair.. no more helmet hair hee.. feel duper light now too yea, with fewer strands of hair above my head haha... oh, and the salon i went for is called Hairy.. overall the service and cutting skills is not bad.. except.. they realli cut very slow.. i think worst den just4hair.. i was like going to leak any moment.. but luckily my bladder is strong=x.. So juz take my advice.. if you are going to try out tat salon.. go empty ur bucket first if not dun drink so much water.. Oh and the waiting time is kinda long too.. get urself some entertainment.. They are lotsa FHM mags over there ha.. but i guess.. i'm too young for it lol..

Sigh.. guess things are like getting out of hand lately.. Now seeing u online can even make me feeling darn nervous.. i dun realli noe wats wrong with me... perhaps something wrong with my brain nerves? izzt starting to malfunction due to overeating or izzt a warning sign telling me to go for a heart check-up... irregular beating and aching... damn.. mayb i'm juz gonna die soon!!! Arrgh Anyhow.. thanks Sok for the song u sent me as well as the mv u told me to view over at youtube->http://youtube.com/watch?v=qikM4O7Ekbs(here's the url, anyone interested can juz view it, i hope u do..) Eh wat can i say after watching it.. i think the lyrics speaks it all.. some words are better left unsaid i guess...

I hope you find whatever you've been lookin' for.
But if you ever lose your way, I'll be right here for you.
I promise.

Alrt.. after training for weeks... still didnt manage to make it to the finals... was realli upsetting.. coz only missed by an aching timing of 0.01s... Arrgh... realli super shitty.. anyhow.. juz hope Albert (13th council) of the tamp or izzt the pasir ris GRC team did well today!!! Jia you--Hmmm although didnt get into the finals.. but i can say that our team realli improved a lot a lot already as compared to the first June regetta race.. this time, we'll not 1 boat length behind from the rest of the boat.. but in fact we'll all neck to neck.. it was realli a close and a tough fight yea.. Now gonna train harder for the upcoming regetta race in NOV 11 and 12, esp in the maintainence part.. think we are all good in our 10-30 already but in da middle we all lost the energy and strength.. so realli need to train harder for that... Cannot let our coach down again.. gotto realli win sth back for him!!! Go PUGGOL CENTRAL!!! Oh to Su... thanks for the Muffins u made!! is realli tasty ha.. and is realli nice to have good bakers in the team, coz every week after training you get to eat nice bake cakes and bread haha, all thanks to Penguin(Amran) too!!!

Thanks Weiyi, Jel and those ex-councils who'll there on fri-sat night in helping out in the photo scanning session... Sorry didnt help/do much... Thanks Yvonne for taking the trouble to loop over my place to pass me my helmet tat i left at skool...

For now juz hope TAS book production can go on smoothly.. and that i'll train harder for all my upcoming events and races... Gambatte!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YI QIAN!!!

Now and then I confess you cross my mind
Now and then I guess I have a little too much time
Now and then I've changed my way of thinking
I know you'll be better off with him
I know i'll never cross your mind
I know you'll never feel the same way as i do
But still, i'm stupidly holding out for you

Recent recalls:
1) Received result slips... i've a drop in GPA of 0.098 as compared to last sem.. Sigh.. I've got myself a C+ but is realli a blessing tat i passed... Really Thank god for that...

2) Went Mustafa on Fri with Captain Aud.. have a nice dinner and great fun.. we're thinking of holding a retro party haha... Look out for it Dragon teammates!!!
Anyway we are supposed to look for running shoes.. in the end it turn out to be trying out ah pek clothings haha

Duno wat she's trying to do lol...

Haha.. Captain Aud in da TOOT outfit and Toot look...

3) Celebrate Sok's birthday but is a pity we did not have a group photo or sth... we shall meet up soon, PEEPS!!!

4) Yisan and I gotten a remarkable and unbelievable 2nd place for the GRC vertical challenge lol... didnt expected it at all alrt.. it was supposed to be fun climb.. in the end we are in for the grand finals on 29 OCT in the hope to win 1000 bucks... and we are gonna train hard rite?

5) Spot the future Rick on da train hm on Sun after training lol

Rick's predicted 10 years later looks
*Rick our dragon boat teammate, sorry dun have his current photo but he's 15 this year lol

6) Went with Captain Aud to Runners' Lab today.. love their shoes, shirts over there.. (Big Lung i bet u'll love the place too.. sells a lot of stuff for triathlon hee) Aud and i both love the pajamas of the "life if good" brand but dun have our sizes..*pout.. its darn cute alrt.. sadded and yay i finally brought a new running shoes.. Aud faster go buy too yea.. den we can wear the same hee=)

Past Past Past recalls:

-->Hey!!! Can you see me!!!! *wave wave
*Photo Taken like weeks ago.. finally uploaded it ha.. Okie.. i look damn mini in da middle of da stadium...

Singapore's Future National Dragon Boaters!!!

Row Row Row da Boat...


Competition time!!!


Ok Shurong wants to be a high-class farmer...
(take note.. her farmer hat is rip curl branded ha)

Ok..shurong decided to become a fashion icon of da week...
(take note of the guy in da pic.. he's warning us not to take photos in da shop)


Nice aint it... quiet and serene

The people-less training ground

On our way to Suntec.. saw this CAUTION sign juz lying on the ground so XP and I decided to be helpful and bring it back to its original upright position ha...
Now let us show u the proper way/steps:

Step 1


Step 2


Step 3
Yay we did it haha (teamwork do wonders!)


Proud to see the Caution sign up again lol

>>>>>>>>Just when you have so much time to waste..u write...<<<<<<<<
Is it too little for me to do anything or is it all just too late to wish it will happen
Have my chances come and gone or
Liking you is just too wrong
I dont even know what's expected of me...

So what im getting my daily dosage of laughters and fun
Dont you know when night falls, everything falls back into place
While next morning again, I have to pretend
I wish all the emptiness would end
Though I know that you're still single
But girl, I'm scared
Sometimes i feel that I'm almost paralyzed
Paralyzed and overwhelm by the emotions that's growing inside
When I start to take a look around me
and I see you everywhere and anywhere

So long, still I wonder why
So long, and my river runs dry
But still I don't know where to go, what to do
Life must go on
Though things may not have the ending or closure that you wanted the most
But still I wish I had known what you feel about me

I may say the words that you may not feel right
But you are really special to me
I wish to give you everything
But I guess it wasn't enough
I dont want to get you twisted
I dont wish to see you living in the moment counting all the sins

But so much so... does it really matter when I say:
I dream of your face
I want take your hand and hold you in my arms

But then again sometimes you just make me wanna hide the fact that damn 'it's you, I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye and let it go
girl I swear i tried,
I tried a million times to get you off my mind
its not that easy no
dont you know how hard it is for me
The more i see them...
they make me believe that we could get together

I really wish I could have just one day where I can finally tell you how special you are to me...

To me,
you are a sunshine
i like watching you..
but you are hard to reach..
too high...
maybe i'll keep on trying..and wait..
till maybe one day you come close...
would you?
would you give us a chance?

Okie dokie.. send Moses (my TASIC 16 PTI and 30TH Council President) off to UK for his further studies... Gonna miss him i guess.. though seldom tok or meet up.. but yea.. i realli do respect him as my PTI, President as well as my BIOTECHNOLOGY senior haha Study hard and all da best to u over there, dude... See you after 2 years... Will i see u coming back with two person also lol...

Anyhow.. is nice to see most 30th Councils who went to send him off today.. its been really long since most of us see one another yea... I dun wish to be like today.. a gathering only when someone is leaving ha... Hope we can all meet up soon or have a 30th councils gathering!!!*looking forward... wave to welfare officers haha

Hmmm juz wondering if i ever have a chance like momo to go overseas to study... but i guess if able to, of coz i wan to get into a local Uni first... coz is realli hard to leave ur pals and family and juz simply go aboard for like 2 years or so.. I duno.. think perhaps i'll juz die over there and return in body pack lol... And thinking of my bmt in Tekong is like enuff to kill me already.. though it may be simply a short 3 mths training... darn...think i'll suffer terrible home-sick over there.. but my dad and bro assured me tat, i'll have got no energy and strength to suffer from any home-sickness...and for their oh-sound-so-sweet comment, i think the bmt life is gonna be quite freaking XIONG and TIRING!!! Nvm.. Aizhi can do it!!! Ai-zai ar!!!

Damn... today ate like a monster again... have my turkey double bacon over at the airport.. am still not satisfied..reach home still have mee-gorang.. sinful sinful... Mama.. pls stop feeding me.. if not i think my BMI gonna be over expected range when the nxt time round i take it yea... Guess i have got to start eating plain porriage everyday from now ha...*control diet!!!

Oh and seriously.. i think i realli need to trim my bloody thick hair...but... come again.. my fringe is like damn bloody short.. thanks to tat Aunty who cut my hair previously.. wat a cool recommendation.. have ur fringe cut off... =( And believe it or not.. my hair is so thick tat i cant even feel da darn bloody 20 cent coin when Big Lung (duno when) slot it into my hair.. God... i dun wanna look like a bush man... and pls fringe.. if u can ever hear me say... pls faster grow long.. so i can go for a nice haircut and look a little better den wat i'm now ha...total shit-tation...

I wanna be the wind that fills your sail
Be the hand that lifts your veil
Be the moon that moves your tides
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheel that never rusts
Be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more,
so much more
I wanna be more than just your man
I wanna be your everything

When will i stop dreaming... wake me up when last September ends....

Okie.. today is a good day for me overall hee... First round pass my 3.01 and promote to 3.02...no repeats... YAY haha Okie.. i shadnt be so ya-ya.. coz the other upcoming levels and courses will be damn tough for me.. N i noe by then i sure have to repeat.. Nvm.. Aizhi shall not think so much.. juz stay focus and go...

And i'm realli greatful to Kerk and Aud for sharing with me their experiences when they'll taking riding and driving pract... and their words of encouragement.. U guys realli bring me to a greater height.. dun kan cheong.. slow and steady win the race... Yea.. the tortise spirit...way to go!!!

Aud: Ability is what you're capable of doing.
Motivation determines what you do.
Attitude determines how well you do it.
THANKS!!!

Hmmm today 3.01 only 4 ppl.. so mayb lucky lucky all passed haha.. usually if a lot of ppl sure only a few passers.. Anyhow today pract was super fun.. ride across narrow plank and u muz maintain low speed and u muz keep ur balance on tat plank for more den 7 seconds.. my best record is only 7.80s haha Den did the course for manoeuvring thru slalom course without touching the pylons and boundaries in less den 6 secs..and i muz say it is realli tough.. 100x TOUGHER den the narrow plank.. coz if u not realli steady.. u can see ur pylons starts to take flight...but once u get the hand of it and technique is damn fun lah haha Initally, tot i cant pass lah.. though i think i did not bad today=), coz i was caught speeding by another instructor.. and he actually reported my no. tag to my instructor-in-charge thru walkie-talkie.... and he was darn piss when he saw me return for my practise.. so i was like shit lah...But heng.. he's not tat kind of petty guy... and he says if wanna speed check for instructors first haha.. so yea.. nxt time i shall be caution when i speed.. learn to check for eyes.. =x

Today after pract rush for muay thai training.. cab all the way from bbdc.. cost me like 12.50.. darn.. damn broke already... i think i'm gonna live a life of a cow.. eat grass from tmr... shijie wants to see me for training.. she's been complainting tat i didnt train much lately.. so did Victor..and i realli didnt lah haha.. skipped and pon so many lessons... Is realli time i muz get back to my training again.. anyhow realli glad to see the shifu, and other old-bies and some new-bies too.. lucky still can skipped if not darn throw face infront of those newbies=p

Thanks to the guy(i duno wats his name though i pretended i noe ha) help me to take pac and train me today(shijie was supposed to help me take pac and train me though, coz she promised to ha but she's busy training..nvm.. so there come this guy ha)..Anyway, i realli learn a lot from him.. and is cool to train with him.. dun feel realli tired.. coz he teach me lotsa stuff... and juz realise he's kinda nice lah.. coz first time saw him tot he's quite cocky.. but not bad.. his technique is good.. i hope i can fight like him someday... Okie.. Aizhi needs to be a regular for muay thai training!!!

After training chiong hm to watch Kim San Soon.. though have already watched it once.. but is always nice to see Henry haha and the jokes Kim San Soon makes out of herself and Zhen Xian.. the show is juz duper nice lah.. N i'm a happy kid coz mama brought my fav korean cup cup noodles...and yea.. i ate like a monster or izzt a hungry ghost.. anyhow daisy hi-low milk brighten my nite haha.. Oh.. saw Nirana today.. hope to bump into her again soon.. Everybody has changed?? and why i'm still da same?

YI LU SUN FENG MR PRESIDENT MOSES!!!
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Everybody's looking for true love.
Some wait their whole life,
And it never comes around.
So should I not hold back now and just let it out,
On all that you ever need to know: Can you put your hand in mine?

Letting go may be an excuse, an escape... but wat more can i do... learn it the hard way...

Alrty.. today was actually a bad day for me.. coz i failed my 2.02 pract.. yup am not ashame to say it out loud anymore... Think i'm used to re-taking at every stage... Nvm.. i'll be zai soon haha... (self-consolation) But i cant deny today both instructors are realli good lah.. detailed and patience.. mayb i juz didnt perform well or am not at my top-most condition..mayb i juz being too eager to pass today's pract den cannot focus very much...

But anyhow, been rather distracted lately too duno why.. dazing like everywhere almost everytime esp when i'm alone.. is like i'm getting senile soon... Eeew better not.. am still too young to be senile.. hmm or mayb my brain is developing a brain tumour from the mercury or colour paper i eat when i was young?!?!? Ok.. i'm being cynical now haha i think i better not think so much.. if not wat Sok says may come true or will come true... Sok says"I'll get into a depression if i think too much" ha

Nonetheless, thank you Sok for taking ur precious slacking time out yst to meet up and listen to my problems.. so to ensure that i dun get into a depression and get involve in some life or death matter haha Thanks a lot... I realli feel much better when i spill my troubles to you.. Coz i think i bottle too much already.. my neck not enuff storage haha(too short cannot be blame, so have to vomit out so u can help me store a little.. since ur neck's longer haha)

Okie.. today supposed to go muay thai after pract.. but didnt went again.. :( think i'm like dying soon lah.. all my kicks and punches sure siao liao...my stamina too.. *sian face... but i didnt slack today.. meet up with Captain Audrey to run.. Ran from Sengkang to Hougang haha.. Okie, though is rather short distance but not bad.. at least i dun feel so sinful as to stay hm and slack and watch tv or playing comp games.. Alrt.. after reach hougang mall our destination.. i ate like a pig... coz got Basar malam!!! haha i love TAIWAN XIANG CANG and RAMILY BURGERS!!!.. come to think of it.. mayb i'm the recarnation of a pig of my previous life.. Hmmm or maybe an elephant, a sausage dog, a Hippo... duno... or juz mayb any animal that realli eats a lot.. haiz.. with the huge eating capacity i have, i duno when i can have the abs, lean muscles and build like audrey.... *Aizhi needs to control her eating!!!

Thanks to Audrey and Kerk today too... taking their time out to listen to this old dude here nagging and winding abt how pity and bitter her bike pract session will haha Thanks guys for showing me some understanding and sympathy.. i realli appreciate it.. sorry to taking up so much so much time of u guys lah.. feeling super bad now ha... I wont let u guys down.. will listen to u all.. endure, persevere, patience.. dun rush... I think u guys built some confidence in me.. the tips and re-assurance.. i realli realli appreciate it very very much.. I love you all hee=)

During the msn chat with sissy.. he suddenly ask me wats overeat.. and send me the definition:
Overeating- It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power. Hmmm so maybe my recent distraction and brain malfunctioning is due to overeating.. so i better better control how much i eat... damn.. i'm screwed!!!

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
but
Aizhi is learning to let go and move on...

Okie.. today is a slacking day for me again.. suppose to be helping out at mei see's company but she hired sissy instead coz evening got appointment... sorry mei see... suppose to spend my noon job hunting but in the end turning down job offers and having movie marathon haha

Papa is nice.. brought lotsa new dvds back.. watch snakes on the plane(very thrilling and the movie realli succeed in making me scare of snakes now..gee), now and forever(very sad story... think pal will love it... i'll pass it to u soon when i get to see ya...), the break up(ha watch it again.. coz i juz cant get over the jennifer fever) and too fast too furious(wat can i say.. car racing is always cool.. but iF they have got jessica alba casting in it.. it would be PERFECT!)... so overall nice nice nice... enjoy my noon haha..

Aunt is nice to buy all the delicious food up for me and ah ma... and tats why i dun like to stay home.. coz i'll be fed by them till i become a PIG!!! And i duno why.. they juz love to see me eating.. sigh... okie.. they dote me and pamper me i noe.. but i think i dun deserve that kind of treatment.. coz if so.. i feel like i'll nv grow up.. coz ppl are always there to take care of me.. and i feel useless..And i think my behaviour at hm is always very bad... especially towards my Aunt today, though she brought nice food up for me.. she trys to tok to me.. but u noe.. when i'm watching shows i dun like to be distracted.. so i juz tried to ignore her as well as her conversation.. damn.. i'm feeling realli guilty now... Ah ma is hospitalise again.. sigh.. juz hope she's gonna be fine.. i should learn to care more for the others.. esp my family members.. not to take them for granted...

Okie.. today finally go for a run.. thank god that today is a SUNNY day.. yay... but i feel damn weak alrt.. onli ran from my place to puggol park.. i'm like dead tired already.. and it juz feels like its beem so darn long since i put on my running shoes to run.. i realli need to run more often now.. so lord pls bless each evening to not POUR please... thanks=) Hmmm and i tink i realli need to mantain my weight lah.. my body feel so heavy alrt even though i still shit regularly damnation-- mayb i need to build up the strength of my knees... haiya.. AIZHI NEED TO KEEP FIT!!!! AND LEARN TO BE NICE=)

Here to wish XIAO PANG TO HAVE A GREAT TRIP TO INDIA.. MAKE SURE U COOK GOOD CURRY AFTER THE VISIT HA DUN BUSY FLIRTING AND DATING THOSE INDIAN BABES.. WE'LL MISS YA BUT NOT AS MUCH AS LAWRENCE DOES HAHA=)

Ever spend ya time thinking,
How tides control the sea
How infinite is space
How little things can slip out of your hand
How often people change

How to avoid defeat
And who decides your fate
Why everything will dissolve into sand
Where truth and fiction meet
Why things don't always turn out as you planned or should i say nothing ever turns out as you planned

So dont ask me why i dont speak the truth or express my love to you.. Cause there's just so much going on.. and i dont think i am strong to handle and fix a broken heart...

Alrt.. been living a pig life lately... weathers been bad for exercising.. rain almost the entire day.. realli mood spoiling... Now.. i feel like a duper weak person.. dun even think i can run already... body like so heavy and legs so weak.. Arrrrgghhhh Better not rain tmr.. so i can RUN RUN RUN...

Okie... lately realli not my day.. or should i say.. this week is a bad week for me... things juz not going my way...but i duno izzt a blessing in disguise?!?! coz my other plans turn out to be quite good ha
1st - re-do media for FYP twice... tues get a chance to finally tok to dr koh abt our fyp progression...but our damn plant take 4-6mths to grow.. arrrgh.. can u ever believe it.. and we onli like have 9 mths for FYP...god save us!!!

2nd - Wed supposed to hav training due to the bloody heavy rain, no training... went eating instead.. how sinful.. *damnation Oh.. and i still cant find my tofu man... sad

3rd - supposed to go for bike 2.02 pract but blur fren book wrong date... went to watch the break-up instead how great ha...

4th - The person whom Maggie and i called for job employment say wanted to call us but didnt... feel so cheated...

Alrt.. till now still cant stop thinking of Jennifer Aniston hot body.. though onli get to see her naked backview.. i'm content i guess lol... I bet the break-up sure made her the fantasy of every guy in this earth...or is she already the fantasy of all guys ha... watever.. she's sure my fantasy!!! Awww...

Without hesitation.. taking on Jennifer Aniston side

Aye.. she's juz so gorgeous... girl of my dream, it is...


Now i realli dun understand how can a guy like BRAD PITT give her up like tat.. total bastard and idiot!!!

Besides the great main and supporting casts..the break-up is definitely a funny, heart-wrenching and entertaining romantic comedy, realli worth watching.. though the ending was a little unexpected ha... Vince Vaughn's character and definitely make me feel like i'm looking in a mirror or should i say he sure makes the other dudes out there feel the same way too... he's like the reflection of our self centered, heck care, take ur love one's for granted and dress like a pig behaviour...

Signed up for standard chartered run already.. and now realli gotto train real hard for it so to make sure i wont die after 10KM... damn... I need to clock distance and timing soon... checked my real run timing.. kinda bad.. didnt manage to complete it b4 1hr *disappointing [Aizhi need to train hard!!!]

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
But first, will you give me the chance to...

everyday just passed by asking myself,
do you see me?
do you feel me?
do you miss me?
do you like me?
If only loving someone and saying i love you was easy..
should i stay or should i just go... ...