Here i am for a-long-long-one-time entry... Yup am currently in camp.. this week has been slack ha.. morning just completed a killer fast march.. Yup fast march always kill me.. i can last long but not fast.. short legs just a disadvantage ar!!! Mayb my new year resolution should be going for leg extension haha... *anyone willing to sponsor me?!?! And yup, with this weakness, it actually affects me or post a factor to me if i'm able to go to Guards and go thru the conversion course.. as they have lotsa fast march.. And in here already i've difficulties keeping up.. super lousy!!! Morning had bunk inspection by my CPT.. lucky my room was cleaned and smelling good ha.. if not sure kanna fire...

Okie.. now mayb many of u might think that, why am i so free to blog.. i also duno the answer.. this few weeks have been like tat.. waiting for lunch and dinner sorta thing.. mayb preparing for ROC, that's why... i wonder if my SISPEC friends and instructors have returned... This time going ROC but a different part and different place.. duno will it be tougher.. but i bet it'll be... cause more load to carry this time round, due to the F***king weather... nonetheless, i just hope i can endure thru man.. tough time dun last tough man do!!! Ai zai ar!!! I'll be leaving one day b4 shurong.. again cannot send her... and the nxt time i see her probably is after my commission... so we are like gonna fight our own world in diff country and wishing one another the best of everything again.. And of coz b4 her leaving, we planned to go play tat bungy over at clark quay again.. this time is the swinging pendulum one haha... i hope i dun get any blood shot eyes this time round...

Tmr we'll be heading to Khatib camp to learn to call for arty fire and den we'll head for PAINT BALL!!! YEAH is the damn first time i play.. i hope it'll be a great experience.. and i hope i dun lead my team to die in bad shape, as i'm appointed the i/c alrt.. and damn, i'm gonna command my instructors and PC... Feel honour??? No, i feel sux... stress level is there man, though we aim to not have any rank barriers.. but damn is hard lah.. But watever, just hope tmr is FUNNN!!! BOUNTY HUNTERS ALL THE WAY!!!!

Just gonna have a short entry, rushing for time to book in again.. sigh... this coming week is 7 days field camp.. after this will be preparing for ROC again... just hope i survive alrt.. Tues will be IPPT.. need to not only maintain gold but obtain best points for all station. Socs on Sat did not do pretty well. Though it was my best timing so far, but i still did not hit my aim which is 0700 or less.. as usual PC wants me to be faster den Meng Yean, so i guess, i've gotto run again... his expectation is high, but i guess is all for my own good.. and with all this pushing mayb i can make history for myself too ha. Whatever, i just dun wanna let the competition btw me and meng yean to affect me and her in any way.. i just want to give my best short in the 6 mths.. i should not always think that i cant and just let chances and time slip away. have enuff of regrets already. Now i just pray to god to continue to give me the strong mental... coz i guess, i always lost to myself because of my weak mental. so let me endure thru like how you do. Tough time dun last tough man do. So let me be the tough man lord!!!

I need to run.... camp sweet camp=)

enuff is enuff'.. get on with your life...

Is sunday again.. today didnt go to join scdf for db training.. very tired and my arms are aching.. super lousy alrt.. yst just went to did some climbing with Jel at asia.. but i think i cmi already, need to work my fitness back.. yst jel and i try to do pull up, do till we wanna die also cant pull ha.. so i guess if there's sat book out shld go climb...

As usual later gotto book in again...every week rather then experience-ing monday blues, i'll suffer from sunday blues ha and this week is clearing SOC week.. last week was very physical demanding.. we like being trained to become PTI or sort... running everyday.. it reminds me on my sispec days.. especially Foxtrot.. where we just run every single day 2 or 3 times.. but at least we're rewarded with nights out and i have great companions... Not that the ppl here are not nice... but we're still in the start of knowing one another.. nonetheless, i just hope i can continue my performance.. must not let sispec down and also myself... must reach my goal of commissioning..

The upcoming two weeks will be 84mm, soc and ippt test.. i just really hope and wish and pray that i can score well man.. clear it with my best timing and best ability.. really dun wanna re-test sia!!!*pray hard!!! And my first field camp is gonna be coming up... is like a good 4 days... i just hope i can endure and excel thru alrt.. gonna be exercise dump-in and some platoon battle procedure... And my Mr "Nice" PC is getting me to be the MG gunner.. tat's it for me man.. heavy weapon.. den soon to come, i should be put to carry 84mm... so i really gotto pray and train more now.. pray and train hard that i can pass through those tough days and finish real strong!!! so god bless me:/

But my PC and section instructor are really nice.. they really push u all the way..so i hope i dun let them down too.. i noe they trying to push me to get the best pt.. i mean who dun wan that title.. i just hope i can beat my super fit also the BEST PT of ocs squad mate alrt.. Weiyi had gone to New Zealand, and i noe her training there is gonna be a 1000 times or 10 000 times worst den me.. the load that she's taking gonna be tons heavier than me too... so i should not complaint.. and she's really my motivation.. cause during tough times, i think of her, i kinda able to push myself further.. so i'm really lucky to have such a zai senior ar!!!

so for now, my this week goal:
To stay focus in completing my course (soc test, 84mm, physical training), take things one step at a time, i shall finish strong...

She can't see the way your eyes
Light up when you smile
She'll never notice how you stop and stare
Whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wantin' you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible

There's a fire inside of you
That can't help much I'm through
She's never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we're invisible
I just wanna look in your eyes
And make you realize

Welcome 2008!!! Happy New Year to everybody!!!
New year, new wishes and new hopes... as usual health is always important then followed by wealth... This new year, of cause wish to run faster, more endurance and become fitter and stronger (physical and mental) And of coz i must pass out of OCS and afterwhich get my motorbike!!! Just now nearly gotten into a bad dispute with my dad.. now he changes his mind of allowing me to get a bike!!! But i think i'll get anyhow... i know everyone would say, is for my own good and safety.. but oweing a bike is my dream man... at least let me own before i officially pass with a car license and able to afford a car...nvm.. perhaps after my commission, i'll start begging him or get some sense into him in allowing me to buy my bike!!! If not i guess, i'm gonna do it the underground way again ha