Thursday, September 29, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 15:28
Something wrong with my blogger...arrgh.. anw..Today's a tired day for me... work work n more work.... Morning went to send Jel's off... she's now in Bali... duno wats she doing over there.. mayb washing clothes now.. n oso helping the others to wash.. carrying out all the Maria job there haha... Faster come back.. we want the Hierachy chart, Secretary lolx!!!Today town.. so hard to grab ppl.. lucky saw Jack n his fren.. i realli owe u guys a treat not a big feast alrt.. a small treat yea haha... thanx for helping me, really... love you!!! Anw.. till now, i stil have no idea why they strike the 3rd person name off... if not i'll have three in total.. nvm nvm.. at least the lady still offer her help to me... thanx anw.. But let me comment on the GM.. u sux alrt.. onli noe how to tok to pretty girls and take advantage of them onli.. i see nth in ya alrt.. U sucker sux!!!Irene realli good.. one day can find 16 ppl... she's realli earning like crazy.. i realli gonna pull up my socks and get working hard.. arms and face got a little burn!!! hee.. i like.. but i hope i get tanner... esp my legs.. so pale and hairy.. damn grosss... Today is an extremely happy day for me.. coz i met u haha... u're realli my ideal kinda _______ i realli hope to see ya again... i realli regret for not acting fast in asking for ya no.... As i've gotten a new hairdo now.. i feel more confident in seeing u again.. coz my botak hairdo realli mess me up, though is cooling haha But i realli feel i look better today's haircut.. so.. realli praying hard dat our path can cross again... u can drop by n take the card from me...heeDamn.. my mind is polluted with ya face, ya thank you, ya backview... arrrghhh i'm gonna miss u, i swear...Alrt.. after work went cut hair den head straight back to skool to settle campcraft with Quek Sissy Sissy... Hope tmr gonna be fine... i dun wanna spoil it all.. *lord pls look over me and guide me thru... Esp on the part where i'm gonna perform the com-cord...*eeeekkkk Play basketball with daren n company.. wat can i say... Daren's skills realli good.. anywhere oso can shoot in the ball.. i not so pro... but cannot blame me.. blame it on the manufacturer who manufacture the basket.. damn lousy...*blehAlrt...My eyes are getting heavy... think better head straight to my bed n get a nice sweet dream hopefully haha Tmr gonna be another long and heavy day!!
Muay thai lesson tmr!!!! No flying aeroplane pls =p
rumbles & whines posted at 04:11
Arrgh... somebody pls shoot me down...guilty guilty realli guilty.. have been skipping MUAY THAI for a week... Shifu i'm realli sorry... Missing all the farrer park peeps.. dun even noe, will they even rmb me... sigh... Thurs, Jas and nicole all say confirm chop going.. so i die die oso realli muz go this time.. cross my heart n realli swear is true.. I going muay thai this thurs!!! Nothing is gonna stop me!!! Shifu, shixiong shijie.. pls forget me not.. Train me train me..damn.. gotto start learning everything from scratch again... *screamToday is my first day of work at raffles place but my 2nd time of work as a dragger.. today very lucky.. manage to drag 3 person... 1 female 2 male... thanx for doing me such a great favour!!! Love u guys... thanx thanx... ThanQ lord and Guan Yin for showering all your blessings and lucks over me.. i hope for all my subsequent working days.. i can oso keep up with good progress... muz do my best n earn money!!!Today, lotsa funny things happen... suddenly i seems so popular among ppl.. so ppl oriented-- i tot i was suppose to be a block of wood or an evil cold ugly freak that no one will cares... Ok let me start my story for the day.. today, report ard 1124 for work.. start work, and happen to know these two HK girls... they came chatting with me, ask me if we can be frens den ask for my hp no. .. wah.. damn shock.. but realli nice to noe them.. at least nxt time if wanna go HK can look for them for help... hee hee N mayb they can bring me go see Hsuan Suan haha!!! Alrt.. they ask me lotsa question.. i duno, if i dun look like a singaporean or sth.. but they asked me, am i born in Singapore and the saddest thing is, they say i look so small... but lucky they nv comment on me looking fat... oh n they say they have frens learning muay thai.. mayb i can go fight with her or sth.. but i told them, i onli learn for a few mths.. they laughed... alrt.. i noe i not pro.. time for me to realli buck up...n polish on my skills... always half a bucket of water.. cannot cannot.. oh they oso ask me abt my skool... okie. watever... but they're realli nice anw... now no worries to get myself a free canto tutor haOh.. den after that.. i try to grab ppl.. coz the two guys working with me, both got one person each liao.. cannot get 0 target.. so realli grab whoever i see n ask.. even ah pek oso cannot let go.. den this uncle i ask.. went for the free trial b4.. show me the keychain he got.. den i was like ok... den he suddenly ask me.. u boy rite.. den of coz i reply.. girl lah.. he say no lahz.. boy boy... i replied of coz again.. girl... this uncle down there stare at me like for duno how many mins.. still doubting my words... haiz... nvm... boy lahz boy lahz haha.. den i think he den convince, den went away... anw.. to born with this kind of boyish face isnt my choice alrt... hee Society pls accept the way i look and i dress!!! I'm a girl who wish i'm a boy thats all!!!Okie after the uncle.. find my 2nd target.. den the 3rd target.. the 3rd target wanted me to work for his company as dragger too... but i dun think i have the time as well as the energy to take up the job... but realli nice of him to help me... thanx uncle... Anw, this uncle is selling some proteins fluid stuff for weight lost.. n he show me his last time photo... n he shakes off 33kilo after taking the product.. as well as health improvement... as the product is made of all the natural herbs.. though i dun realli noe wat herbs it comprises of.. but it definitely make me glow.. coz i wanna slim down haha.. however.. dun tink i earn enuff to owe that product haha... alrt crapsAfter work.. went Suntec meet dora and company to shop at Solomon.. but in the end nth to buy.. though got trackpants but dun have.. sadden.. but the video that the Solomon shop telecast, realli super nice.. got biking, base jumping, kayaking as well as rock climbing... damn.. i juz hope i can take up one of the sports they show lah... damn adventurous.. all the stunts the pro-ster did.. realli requires a lot of COURAGE and DARE-ness... super zai freaks I want to be like them!!!!*roarWent town after suntec... wanted to cut hair.. but in the end too late le.. di-summer close le.. coz we mingle n play too much in camper's corner haha.. all the stuff there super cool.. but super ex-- saddist... how i wish i can be as rich as a billionaire... Now, i'm consider having a stable income, as i'm richer den a beggar but poorer den a billionaire... Govt.. will u look more into students welfare.. we study to make a living in the future.. so why not consider paying us a little for each lecture n tutorial we attend!!! Ok.. stop my nonsense.. back to today's programme.. have ching teng at shaw house.. wanted to watch movie but nv.. no show sia.. sian-sation.. walk n walk.. end up in CINE archard.. play the platty stuff.. duno the actual name for it.. but u got to sweep the plate ard a smooth table and goal... fun fun... play till hands no strength.. duno how many match sia.. finger nearly kanna break... Duno if dora will have nightmare.. coz made her play a haunted house shooting game with me.. but in the end she played herself n she close her eyes n shoot.. duno wat she doing the TAY BIG LUNG.. den duno last for how many mins.. she die le ahah... Anw.. i think ANYone who noes Dora will noe that, she always attract guys... every or shld i say, most guys that see her all fall for her.. dora's always carry high electric current voltage with her wherever she goes.. The other time, during sports climbing level 2, attract a guy name Jones i think, den on the bus back skool, attract another guy i duno who... den today attract a worker from the Adidas outlet in Citylink.. haiz.. so many guys--Alrt.. den went home at 2200... manage to caught a bit of CSI miami... den got this guy name Jack from muay thai msg me.. i realli duno who is him.. suddenly call me add him to msn den ask me so many question.. even say, if he's a girl, he'll turn les.. den be my top fan... god-- all his words seriously make me feel like i'm in cloud nine.. but reality... i'm speechless... i juz wanna find out this 17 yr old guy.. Is this the way ppl make frens nowadays...=?Jel will be off to BALI tmr... envy envy.. hope i can oso fly there.. no money$$$... We gonna miss her i guess and i hope and i wish lolx... juz hope, she can stay in our heart and mind till the day she returns... i dun hope to find myself saying.. "who's that girl?" when i see her ard in the club hse haha... alrt.. mean mean meanie me... Thanx anyway for helping me to get my lizard sandals... thanx!!!! Enjoy ya trip as a BlangLah!!!!Bedtime!!!Zzzz tmr gonna be a long long day--Shutting down
Sunday, September 25, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 04:31
Arrgh.. am sick.. attack by the flu virus...bloody hell.. yst, went Mei see's house eat Pizza somemore.. cough gets even worst... Medication did not realli help... sigh sigh... Nose kanna block like nobody business this morning too...damn damn...Immune system... pls get working... dun laze ard.. Macrophages please do your part by phagocytosing all the pathogen and virus presence... kill them for me please... Am realli having a terrible time... *croak Flame, mucus...*groanYst, went sports climbing.. damn shiok.. realli love climbing... Guozhen and me did the overhang.. damn zai... here it is.. the power shot-->
Twist-- Yeah
Overhang!!! Tedious u noe!!!
Yess yess.. i'm reaching for the tile!hee hee Anw.. thanx Auf for being such a good belayer.. allowing me to rest during the course... Every fri muz make effort to go climb... coz on fri is very cheap.. one person onli 3 dollars entrance fee.. plus equipment.. zai zai...Later got muay thai training... mama dun let me go.. but cannot.. coz skip 2 time this week le.. so have to show my face... but duno later going to watch muay thai match with my senior not... he hasnt contact me... *pout Anw.. going back skool to collect store from dawn... she's running... i juz hope i still able to run and catch up with her... juz hope i dun collaspe half way or drop dead suddenly haha...Heading to get a shower... pom pom
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 07:14
Arrrggghhhhh... i realli need to scream.... think i'm in a very horrible state rite now... ppl have been telling me, i swell, grew fatter, becoming big size... looks old.... damn... wat have i gotten myself into... izzt my botak hairstyle tat causes all this to happen...N Finally.. my mama commented tat i look old with the botak hairstyle after so long... damn--- Though my sliblings didnt realli commented... but all the words like swelling, old n big size have been enuff to get me into a depression state... i realli gotto to do sth to lose weight...Finally gotten my sports climbing level 2 certs haha.. so happy... n sports climbing 2 is super fun.. though have lotsa pros in our classes.. but i think, we aint tat bad compared to them... at least we oso can lead climb.. except we cant climb as professionally like them... but we still able to finish the course... yippeeeeeee I definitely wanna go climb more often this holi.. dun wana stop.. or else, the arm n hand muscles all lost again.. den become weak.. den cannot do pull up... i think climbing realli strenghten arm muscles... after climbing, went send Zane off... he got overseas attachement... now.. stores all big n small stuff, i have to do alone... arrrgghhh... I hope Zane can be fired by his boss n fly back asap lolx... coz i think Store needs to be clean and pack properly.... haha.. alrt.. think i'm getting realli far too much here... hee... anw.. now aim is to get kayaking star 2!!!! chiong arrrrrrNew Names for the 30th Councils... for Dora aka Dora Tay Big Lung, Aishah aka Charcoal Lian, Jieling aka Jel love Zane, Guozhen aka Quek sissy sissy, Moses aka Tan Ka mo, Siow how aka Goh Te Kor, Daren aka Chiong Ji Hong.... hahaToday is the first day of work for me, as a dragger for California fitness... lucky today, all the ladies at the reception der, all very nice... phew... n at least i drag one guy in... realli thanx tat guy for helping me... thanx man.. i shall oso thanx those tat rejected me.. i hope nxt time round when u see me, at least listen to me for a longer period of time... Is tiring i muz say.. 3 hrs in the sun.. waiting to like hook someone haha.. but good.. i having free tanning... but i realli look sucky in the bloody t-shirt.. anyhow-- california fitness center realli big... n they always play very cool n nice music... feel like joining their membership oso... but no money... n still too young... need 21 yrs and above... nvm.. i'll wait for my time to come.. soon soon hahaGtg catch some slp..yawn-- dead tired!!! -->aizhi has to LOSE WEIGHT
Sunday, September 18, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 16:30
Today.. a tired day for me... went for sports climbing level two den muay thai... i realli fully utilises my power and energy today.. shiok to the max!!!Today muay thai session was not bad at all... able to kick punch very long, when shifu train me haha... feel i'm getting better.. yipeee... went running with ah bao... my senior in muay thai... good run i muz say.. can train me in long distance as well as endurance... mayb i can make my tasic members to run that route haha...Thanx dora for accompanying me back to skool to retrive the stores and guide me to my muay thai training ground... Anw.. i shall once again pronounce Dora's full name is Dora Tay Big Lung... or call her Miss manegtic or Miss Electric... always going ard attracting ppl.. haha... Anw, today sports climbing, we do lead climb.. very fun but can be tedious... i find myself a realli bad climber.. i sux to core-- however.. this course refreshes me on what i've learn in CRC.. which is a very good thing.. coz after CRC.. it seems like i almost forgotten every single thing that i've learnt... realli shitty... but at least now, my memories are refresh haha.. tmr will be a fun day, as we'll be taught doing abseiling, anchoring all tat kinda stuff.... i like haha But i've to say.. all the ppl taking level two with us, all protist-- all have own climbing shoes, chalk bag, harness and good climbing skills...zai!!! n today i oso learnt from them that, HK sells cheap climbing equipment haha...My brain am somehow malfunctioning... wanna doze off soon... bed bed... anw.. found all this interesting stuff from maggie's blog, so i oso went to do haha.. too bo liao le:| Your Superhero Profile |
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Saturday, September 17, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 17:30
Does it remind u of-->UNLEASHED movie poster? [Commentary: Do not do this to ur pals]
nEW Shoes!!! my ah peh shoes!!!
Boxing Gloves.. I miss Muay Thai!!! Zai bo!!
the killer skipping rope.. my rigid body, weak legs and weak arm muscles cant hold it long--
LSCT peeps... He resembles Mick rite?? haha
The Great creation by me.. long ago ha-- [the memories]
Shelf of a messy, unorganised and busy person
The exam period table top {not messy enuff?!?!}
Finally... i'm outta hell... have not been getting enuff sleep... realli sleep deprived-- But i noe, the person to blame is myself.. not having my study time organised properly.. last min chiong like siao zai bo, also cannot finish studying... realli regreting of slacking far far too much... am feeling guilty... realli guilty.. but i always aint doing anything about it... i realli feel tat i will do super bad for this bloody sem.. but Pls lord.. i beg u.. let me have a pass at least.. i realli dun wan to repeat any modules... n i swear, i nv have been so scare after exam ever in my life.. guess, i noe, i'm gonna do real bad this time.. IMM,PAT,MST2 and AMB all killer paper... guess, i juz didnt study enuff, study real hard for it.. sian-sation... realli real depressing...For all papers.. i at least lost 10 marks or more.. worst.. today's PAT paper consist of 20 mark question... totally gone-case--- i realli duno, how the lecturer can grade me.. i realli hope they can show me some leniency... or i'm realli gonna be in real bad shape.. my head is gonna roll like nobody business... esp after i show my result slip to my dad... gonna be slaughter and beheaded by him.... arrrrggggghhhhhhh i'm the one to be blame for all this consequences....Today went job interview with Ally and her frens... working as a dragger for California fitness center... i duno, how will i perform.. but at least, i'm able to find a job with flexible timing...and i think our boss realli nice.. she really resembles Yin yan(my sec skool pal, ha) she sure has'ta cool attitude... i think i gonna loving her as a BOSS hee hee..Anw, i realli hope i can do well.. so lord.. pls guide me thru, n be there for me... 20th Sep will be the day i start work... scary.. but juz hope everything goes well... Thanx Shurong for lending me black pants and shoes.. coz i dun wanna buy haha... *totally brokeToday Sok Yin's Birthday.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOK YIN!!! Sorry that, did not stay all the way to blow the cake.. too late le sorry...But realli have an enjoyable time.. coz get to meet up with all of them again... sweet-- Today also brought myself a pair of ah pa shoes.. which i long for very long le.. finally found a cheap one... like imitation of VANS haha.. cost me 39 bucks... n Ally and me were like bringing down the whole far east plaze...finding for that Z shop.. Thanx ally for walking rd n rd with me to find the shop.. n u looks good today haha..keep it up!!! Tmr going for sports climbing level two with Jel, Moses, Dora and weiyi.. zai zai zai... long time nv climb le haha... juz hope i can climb like a spiderman... weeee hooo... Dora is gonna treat me soya milk yippppeeeee!!! Tmr going back for my muay thai training.. skip a lot of classes le.. coz of the bloody exam... arrgh.. forget all my kicking le.. dieeeee long day for me tmr!!!Looking forward for an enjoyable holiday... though i doubt i'll have one haha--
Is 2.30am.. Radiostation closing... i'm still AWAKE!!! sleep deprive-- Raining heavily... good time to slpZzzzAh ma back from Hospi!!! Yea=)
Saturday, September 10, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 16:15
Sigh... today NV study again.. U hear me.. nv nv nv study again.. Anyway, i was supposed to study my IMM this morning.. in the end, went to continue my series on The stairway to heaven... Arrrghhh.. i realli duno wat i am doing.. so many things to study, i still can watch drama n feel sad for the girl in the show... wats wrong with me... think i shld have shed n waste those tears on myself..I noe, i'm gonna do super badly for this upcoming sem, if i aint gonna work any harder.. time is getting shorter.. so many chapters so little time... damn shittttttttt... i noe, all this shit is the result of being a slacker... damn damn... Long time since i go for my muay thai training too.. oso very long since i last run and exercise..arrrgggghhh the lazy bum is lazing ard--But lucky today get my butt n myself out.. Met up with shurong in skool.. den go running.. but in the end, we went cycling instead.. haha cycle to fifth aveue and bukit batok nature reserve...at the same time check out the route for my nxt PT.. wanna think of new challenges for them ahha... Juz hope i can stay fit b4 the nxt PT comes...Anw, it realli been long since me n rong went cycling... miss those days realli.. sec skool life is always feel with so much fun n excitement... Now everyone, headed separate ways... seldom meet up n have a small chatting session.. sigh... duno how's the others doing rite now... I guess all doing better n well den me... Oh.. but i muz realli make a comment.. today, Rong fell from her bic... her wound realli looks jammy haha but lucky she didnt get much hurt... but miss the part tat she fell.. or i think i'll have a good laugh over there, rather den saving her haha I realli gotto train more on my pull up.. Rong arm muscles are realli good.. can do 4-5 pull up without support.. n u hear me.. standard man style pull up... i want to be like her oso... zai zai Train train.. guozhen train me!!!Alrt.. watever... shall not get myself demoralise any further.. or else, wont study again... Today realli have a grt day with rong..coz i realli like to listen to her stories haha I'm juz loving to gossip with her!!! My best pal ever!!! but SORRY TO Carmen and all... sorry for not turning up and went cycling instead haha... but nonthess i still wish Carmen Happy 21st Birthday!!!!! Read from dora's blog.. think u guys realli have a grt fun there.. good good.. Think i need to head to bed now.. if not, tmr, am gonna be too tired to starddeeeee... No more excuses for me.. no more comp, no more tv, no more distraction... I want to study!!!! Dear Lord, please ans my prayer... give me the will, give me the spirit... studyy stardee sturdeeeI GOT TO BREAKAWAY FROM LAZINESS!!!CONQUER THE LAZY DEMON--
STUDY!!!!
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 08:22
yup yup.. is me again... am procrastination again.. why????? guess all my frens shld be mugging real hard right now.. but why am i still doing online... damn damn... I'm feeling realli guilty.. but am not taking any action.. whats wrong with me... always like to procrastinate... sux sux sux...Juz now met up with Maggie, shuwen, shilin and Irene to revise maths... in the end onli did a few question and did some clarification of some question with Maggie, den head off to eat.. Went Aal-ameen there to have lunch... have curry fish head, milo dinosaur, kang kong and sweet and sour chicken.. yum yum... realli damn full after finish eating.. also added a few pounds i guess... later wanna go run.. coz i realli cant study anymore.. damn chiam and jia lat... i duno how am i going to pass thru this exam period..Soooo many things to study... and i'm a bloody slow learner.. take very long to understand something.. sigh.. sian-sation... I hate exam... Yst was suppose to be a happy day and study day for me.. in the end, it was spoilt... spoilt by my dad... papa and mama get into some quarrel.. papa started to hit mama... damn it.. i hate man that hit woman.. den went out from my room, to stop the fight tat was going on.. seeing my mama crying, i was seriously in pain... i duno wat to do.. protect her from anymore beating from my dad is the onli thing i can do... tears juz came rolling down... frens may seems tat i'm fine today.. but who would like to share this kind of bad scene happening at home... I realli dun understand, why cant my dad juz tok it out with my mama slowly... violence is not the ans.. n i swear.. if ever, he hit my mum again.. i'm gonna fight it all out with him... no matter what... Not tat i dun love ya anymore.. but the way, u treating mama, isnt the way it shld be.. n i hated it... i hated it... u made me cant concentrate in my studies.. even i have problem sleeping at nite.. for fear, tat u'll hit mama again... i purposely stay up so late yst.. juz to make sure mama is safe... for now, i still hated u.. hated what u did yst.. coz is gonna be on my mind till forever, n i doubt i'll ever forget... Grandma is oso sadded by the scene happen yst... u sux completely... nv tot of other ppl feelings, juz do the thing tat u tot it was right.. i dun wish to report whatever happen in the house to the police one day... n i swear... i'll do it, if u ever touch mama again... i'm totally drained.. why cant i have a perfect family like all my frens... why cant u juz give me a peace of mind.. give me a happy family in my process of growing up... Why muz u ruin it all juz in one day...I'm sad, i'm hurt... i dun even noe, how to face u now.. when i see u.. it juz reminds me of the way u treated mama.. n it reminds me to hate u... i sign up for army... was not my dream... juz becoz it could help to lessen the household burden.. i go all out for it, to get the sponsorship no matter wat... all that i do.. was to, not let u down.. studies.. trying to do as well as i can to prove to u, i can give u a better life nxt time.. again.. all tat i do, was with the tots of u in my mind.. i realli do respect ya.. but u ruin it out... so what if u're right.. all i see was all ya flaws and ya gruesome acts... Aarrgrggh... i need some air!!!Runaway--
Monday, September 05, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 10:53
my new baggie-- hee hee
yEAH.. we're working it...
Headless??? Who's Sexy Firm butt?? U guess haha
The three "enthus"...
wheelchair-bounded--=X It belongs to Dr Kueh hee
Hottie!!! haha
PUMA and OB UNITE!!! (Jel n Me)
GGR??? i think Jel is disgusted haha
Dora is getting close-- OMG
Saturday, September 03, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 15:15
Juz came back from my forth PT cum gym training.. today damn shiok.. do lotsa leg training... like duck walk, frog jump all tat.. cool cool.. am enjoying it haha..i noe tmr, i'll sure bound to suffer from muscle ache.. but who cares haha...
Tmr gonna pon my muay thai lesson again... coz meeting dawn n company to jalan and makan and tok cock haha... guess, the nxt time round when i return for training, my kicking and punching sure deprove again... gosh--
For the past few days, rushing for reports and projects... as well as Practical Tests... Sucky sux sux... for AMB onli gotten 7.5 out of 10 percent... den imm pract duno how.. hope my calculation can be right.. i've already tried my very best... for today's maths pract test.. totally gone case... I give up!!! Realli gotto chiong for exam le... if not.. sure die... i realli cant cant cant afford to repeat any any of the modules... NO!!!!
So lord.... all angels and saints..pls pls pls.. guide me thru.. enlighten me.. i realli need to study hard.. have the will but not the determination... so shag... so tired of the life i'm leading... duno, what i'm aiming for somehow... everything i do, seems all going so hay-wire and wrong... not performing to what i expect myself to be.. not being like myself anymore... so lost...*scream...
Tmr, will be a better day.. i always tell myself tat.. but izzt the true... is always juz a consolation statement tat i put up, to console myself.. to help me pull thru.. but life aint getting as easy to live as i tot, as each days comes by.. more n more obstacles... more n more things i feel tat i've to learn and master... so many many many unknown and stranger stuff, staring at me.... alrt.. i duno, what i'm blattering abt... the hard facts of life.. Nahz... i duno... is juz SHITTTTT
Weaker n weaaker i feel tat i'm getting.. push up.. no more standard for me anymore.. getting tired after juz 20... How??? Train!!! i noe i muz... juz hope i can pull thru like the song of MCFly--> i'll be ok-- meaningful lyrics.. but can i realli do tat...will i be ok?!?!
When everything is going wrong and things are just a little strange
It has been so long now you have forgotten how to smile
And overhead the skies are clear, but it still seems to rain on you
Then your only friends all have better things to do
When you are down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you are down and lost along the way
Oh, just tell yourself I will be ok
Now things are only getting worse and you need someone to take the blame
When your lovers gone there is no-one to share the blame
You are sleeping with the TV on and you are lying in an empty bed
All the alcohol and the world would never help you to begin
When you are down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you are down and lost along the way
Just try a little harder, try your best to make it through the day
Oh, just tell yourself I will be ok!
You are not alone (You are not alone)
You are not alone (You are not alone)
You are not alone (You are not alone)
Just tell yourself, I will be ok
Oh, just tell yourself, I will be ok
Wont you tell yourself ...When you are down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you are down and lost along the way
Try a little harder try your best to make it through the day
Oh, just tell yourself I will be ok I will be ok I will be ok!!!
Bathing refreshes me --
Thursday, September 01, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 12:37
Jel masterpiece on Dora...Anw.. guess who's body, Dora's head is on???
