Eh... today was a busy day for me, after like 3 days of resting and slacking.. but i think i did not realli get those work that needs to be done, done.. so yup.. my 3 days was like come to a waste.. By this weekend is gonna be my deadline, i muz realli finish all tat i need to do, like sending my results and all those shit. Counting down.. 20 more days to go or izzt lesser..and should i say YAY.. my turn for BMT!!! Looking forward though.. but still scare.. scare the physical part.. scare the mental too.. i juz hope god will be there to guide me thru every thunder and storm.. so that i can walk on water like St Peter.. Juz dun wan to stress myself over being the fittest or getting the best trainee award.. though the title realli sounded WOW!!! For me i guess, juz need to stay focus and pass thru the whole thing till SISPEC come into play...
It's gonna be an adventure as well as an experience for me i guess... i just wish this could be the best part of my life ha.. a memorable one with pride and with glory...And army is realli like another phase of TASIC .. and i realli wanna do it a good one this time.. giving my everything and push myself to the limit or even break it.. Cause in TASIC i guess, i did not push and give my very best.. I realli wanna see when i'm put into all those shit, how far i can go.. do i QUIT or do i hang in there even till my very last breathe.. so i guess.. my life in the army is gonna determine who i become... a stronger aizhi or a weaker one... I juz hope i can learn to be a better person... Excited really haha..
Alrt.. this week passed like lighting.. tmr is FRIDAY already... and Sun gonna have rowing.. and i confess the thoughts of switching team is getting into me... attendance problem is getting serious esp during weekdays training... i may not have the right to say much, since i've already graduated and stay near to the training ground.. therefore skipping training for me is a NONO... But somewat, what makes training fun and worthwhile is that u get to have your teammates training with you and you get to see them around. But for my club now.. it aint the case.. weekdays attendance was so darn poor.. is realli a handful and i mean it... mayb tight school schedule is a big problem.. but nvm.. i guess everyone in the team all have their own aims and objectives to meet.. therefore one cannot force them to come down for training because of what one want them to do... Sigh.. i realli hope to stay as positive as possible.. i realli dun wanna see my team split and den gone forever..
Okie.. she was realli stunning.. almost so close to perfection...she looks like the sea-hawk girl.. or is she prettier? Maybe she was my motivation to wake up earlier juz to stupidly catch that same bus as her... okie.. wat am i thinking.. i dun even know her... but damn.. she really wow...ok... i dun wish to play with the thing call fate... it burn me once, i dun wish to be burn twice.. alrt.. i'm muttering crap... she's just an eye-candy=)When you see fate, you see chance...When you lose fate, you lose chance...and yes i mean it.. once you lose it.. you can never find it back..Is gone forever..So take the chance to be sweet or lose the chance and be bitter like me=)okie watever.. bitter gourd is still my fav veggie...Alrt.. juz viewed my result... seriously i feel like crying... the grades was unexpected... but at least i passed all.. But the most disappointing part was my bloody graduating GPA.. i duno i can actually did so badly for this very last sem.. My GPA nv even hit a good 3.5.. so is like below average!!! Screwed so screwed!!! I noe i shld be happy that i no need to have to repeat for another sem.. but i realli didnt expect myself to score so awfully!!! darn seriously...
Now my dream of getting into a local Uni can juz vanish or gone with the wind... And i recently juz re-summited my NUS choices and putting medicine for my 1st choice.. but now as i see my graduating GPA.. i think i'm no room for any of their consideration... what's done is done and what's over is over.. for now all i can wait is for their envelope of rejection or acceptance.
If miracles do happen.. mayb i'll still have a chance=x
It's been some time, since i log into my blog and msn haha.. my day job somewhat take up a lot of my energy, making me lethargic to do anything after i come home. TV is all i've got to get my daily life going for now. Cause i'll miss it very much once, i'm enlisting into BMT in 13th April.. in a way YAY, i can get away from OFFICE job the sucky 0800-1730 job.. but 2 weeks of confinement and only weekends to book out.. seriously, i'll miss my db trainings, my frens, my family but most importantly all my new season shows like desperate housewife, prison break, grey anatomy, heroes... Darn!!!
Anyhow, life's been good still in tekong.. slowly adapting to it already... new guys joined the company... one of them is a magician somemore.. and the other look like a damn fit gym instructor.. i can say, we are all from different trades.. And i feel that i'm like Jel now.. always sticking with group of guys.. Sorry Jel for labelling u as despo haha.. Now i seriously understand that you have no choice!!! Sorry gal...
Tmr results will be release.. i seriously damn scare.. juz dun wish to see that i screwed it all up.. i realli dun have any confident.. but in the other hand i still wish for miracles to happen.. DO make me pass.. realli cant afford to spend another half a sem and delay my BMT... so i seriously hope tmr wake up i can see something good.. at least a PASSED!!! Esp for my LSSS, Proteo.. arrgh.. like almost everything.. And yess, with the results release, we are officially considered diploma graduates.. some of my beloved frens have already gotten jobs.. and i realli wish them luck in whatever they do. For me, i think working life is definitely super diff from studying.. i somewhat miss my poly days.. of coz minus away those exams and proj period.. life's been like a breeze i guess... In working society mayb you can somewhat run away from exam stress and proj deadlines, but i guess there's other exterior pressure tat juz drain you more than those hell proj given by the worth-to-be-shot lecturers. And i can say the long working hrs and the everyday muz report kinda rules are the killers.. at least lectures u still are able to pon and u have your lovely frens all with ya passing the day.. during work, i guess is so much of individuality..
For me i guess army life still kinda relax..coz one juz have to bear in mind two words-> KEEP FIT the onli stressing and worrying period would be IPPT i guess haha.. Coz till now i still cant realli do much chin-ups (my weakest link).. i juz hope to slowly progress and get better in building those muscles group that i needed to juz get my chin above the bar and at least doing it for a good 12 times or even more!!! And i muz say, army life is like going through another TASIC for me... i think one juz have to follow instructions, act and do accordingly, dun ask much questions and endure, preservere all the way... i guess, i'm better a follower and not a thinker... mayb perhaps i can save my brain cells and not go senile at young age...
For now again.. i need to be discipline and go self train and run regularly... long or short.. who's training do call me... having any physical activities also call me.. i need to train hard before i enter the gate of hell haha
Oh tmr i muz show that bloody man that i can actually carry heavy goods okie.. how dare u look down on me!!!! i mayb short but i'm fit.. i guess at least fitter than u!!! Hump I think it was because of having this kind of arrogant guy ard.. so, turning lesbian is a right choice!!! Stupid fool -angry-Alrt.. 1st of march was my reporting day as well as my first time where i landed my foot at SAF FERRY TERMINAL and TEKONG... wake up darn early and thought i was juz going there for a short briefing or sth.. in the end, it ended up to be my first working day at TEKONG BMTC HQ and i miss Irene's birthday.. realli sorry Irene!!!.. And by having my head in the cloud most of this time, i actually forgotten to switch my hp to a non-cam one and have my beloved Ericsson being detained and locked up behind in ferry terminal check point... and yes.. i lost all my points of connection with my frens.. I'm realli sorry to irene and all who waited for me and trying to contact me on the day itself.. It was realli sucks for me over there too.. coz i cant rmb any of ur nos. and there's like no phone there for me to use either.. realli sorry again=(...
Today is my second day.. life there is realli boring.. coz is OFFICE WORK!!! which i realli hated.. i realli wish to do BMT now.. i rather die of physical toture rather den boredom or even office work... i realli cant stand 0800-1730 job... it was realli somewhat like back to my attachment days.. where i sit there and wait for task to assign to me.. i juz hope my days will get better.. coz i'll be working there daily till JUNE.. where my bmt starts... Arrrghhh.. why the 7 ladies muz report so late... in june.. if not i can join the april bmt and my life wouldnt be so bitter i guess.. coz by den those guys of the same batch will be already passed out and posted to SISPEC... darn... But i still miss attachment period more.. coz we have badminton.. and i have mingli and my lovely supervisor and colleagues to chat with.. for me now.. once those guys are gone, i'll be damn jia lat already...no one to go home with and all.. super sian lah.. juz dun wish to talk abt it.. But i guess the good thing about army is welfare ba.. ur welfare are realli well looked into.. thinking of attachment time, i miss the honeydew, soon kueh, si zuan cai over there as well as the agar agar haha...
Anyhow, i juz wan to maintain my fitness before my bmt starts... dun wan to die sia.. coz i guess in army esp infantry unit.. most officers will look into ur fitness... so i muz realli stay fit and keep fit.. it not my life in army will be 3 words->DIE... But anyhow, i'm lucky enuff to noe the same batch of JPOLY scheme guys.. one of them look like sze wei and the other look like suhardi haha.. but talking to one another.. we all realised tat we all joined army for diff reason.. some regret, so juz wanna finish the bonds and collect the money and run, while some yearn for the 2nd prenium plan and seeing army as a career path for the rest of their life til retirement..for me i seriously duno, after listening to their ambition and thoughts... there's realli alot of choices and decisions i'll have to make along the way.. guess for me would be one step at a time.. no point thinking so much and having many wisdom hair haha For now.. like wat my dad says, i'll get use to the daily travelling to tekong and used to the working style over there.. I shall learn to enjoy tekong's life as well as their house rules over there too...
Cheers for me!!! and Praise to the lord, jesus christ!!!
