Tuesday, August 30, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 03:27
Yea yea.. it is definitely a truely cool real run... first time running such a long distance ever in my life... moreafter is 6km road, 1.5km sand and 3.5 trail.. damn zai... realli thanx god tat i pull thru.. esp at the sand part.. was realli a killer.. but still proud of myself tat i did not walk.. though i see so many ppl walking, n was so super tempted to walk along with them... thanx god for giving me the sheer determination to complete my first ever 10Km in my entire 18.5 yrs of my life(without walking).. hope to have a better timing nxt time..Now, am somehow still deciding, if i should go for the half marathon, that will be held during the end of this month.. by standard charted.. but i realli worry that i have no time to train.. *sian-sation Realli hope to complete at least one half marathon... i think is realli the experience and the feeling and pride of completion you get after the run... At first, tot i cant realli make it for the first 6Km for real run..coz see those pros-runner, oso demoralised.. but lucky, kelvin and Azlan were there to cheer us up haha.. thanx for making it down to support us!!! Somehow didnt expect myself to juz go on and on, running without stopping..anw.. sorry for not waiting for u guys.. esp shurong.. sorry.. say run tog, but in the end ran off le.. i realli find myself loving running... loving what i'm doing in TAS rite now... Realli thanx to have a grt bunch of frens ard me.. like Khai, Dora, Jel and all the other 30th Councils who expose me to soooo many outdoor and trailing stuff... I hope by 21 or so, i could go for an adventure trail or competition or sth... or mayb juz climb a real mountain of at least a 1300 ft?? i noe, i need more training... still very weak... took an hr to complete the 10km... sigh--Aim for this yr and nxt yr will be able to complete my 2.4km at least in less that 12 mins... realli gotto train, pump pump... Holi will be near soon.. realli gonna chiong for all my certs!!! and i'll do it... cannot lag behind le.. gotto catch up with the times.. cannot be at the same level as the members... More adventure, more competition, i'm looking forward... njoying all the challenges ahead of me.. except... for my studies... i aint enjoying a single bit.. though i noe, i have to study real real hard... watever--Anw.. have gone thru 2 PT... 1st one.. think i did not perform tat well.. today(2nd PT) ben and alex came down.. sigh.. i duno what they'll think of us.. but watever.. think, Khai and me realli enjoyed the whole process... Right.. i aint wanted to be PTI at first.. but afterall, i think is realli fun... can train me at the same time haha... 6 days in a row... train train train.. will i soon become a muscle woman haha.. but i cant deny tat, i become a stronger and fitter person after coming to poly n joining TAS... thanx for nurturing me to be someone better den i tot i could be... though sometimes, i noe, i'm still weak inside... *blehGuess wat.. today ran campus run, bare-footed.. damn cool haha.. suffering from blister right now by the way.. but it was somehow like my muay thai training.. and it was i guess a first time experience for me and my members.. running bare footed. zai.. anw.. TASIC 17 realli did a great job!!!=) cheers!!! stay strong as a TEAM!!!Tmr, doing gym... rush for project, go for muay thai training... busy busy busy.... i need to study hard.. i seriously need to..I'm gonna fail my AMB pract... tats it-- Aarrrggghhhhh STUDY!!!!
Sunday, August 21, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 15:00
I realli have to sincerely apologise to all my 30th Councils... sorry for losing my cool infront of you guys.. i noe, i should have swallow all of my unhappiness and stress and not showing it out.. but i just cant help it alrt.. sorry... I promise to learn to control and not flare up so easily... still learning...still trying hard...Somehow, i noe, apology may not cover up all the mistakes or unhappiness that i have cause after the trip... i know u guys are even tired and drained out den me... but u guys still put on a happy face.. sorry tat i cant do it... the stress level is building up so high up inside me... i feel so hard to breathe...cant take it anymore... i noe is all my fault.. poor time management, poor stress management... n all i can do is to give the kick-ass face and freaking darn attitude to u guys.. am realli sorrry... Thanx guys for all the understanding n help tat u've gave to me.. thanx.. i juz have to learn to be more sensitive to other ppl feelings.. n i'll try hard to learn from my mistake..But i realli think, this trip is a realli good one... members and councils enjoy it so much... all nicely tanned left only me.. white and pale like some freaking zombies... how i wish i was there too... have miss out all the fun over there...hope i get a chance to go there.. after i get myself a bike like Auf.. or better ones, like Jel's fren--> Alan's bic... alrt.. seems tat i'm dreaming too much...On my way home, in the 156 bus, air-con was so freaking hell cold, that i've somehow loses all my senses.. but it realli cools and calm me down.. in the way that, i dun feel the stress level there anymore.. guess, at the moment, my brain has already been freeze up... not thinking and working anymore.. feel like i'm so far from reality, in a cold, isolated country... feels cool.. but empty... This sem... too warm up for me... so warm n heaty tat it actually killing me, like i've been thrown into a 100 degree isolated desert... time for each day juz seems passing by so quickly.. so quick tat i dun even noe, did i miss taking a single Breath or did my heartbeat ever stop beating for a single seconds... rush rush and rush...(Will time juz stay still for me, not asking for more.. juz a sec.. will u??)
Finally finish up my speech... feel my shoulder lighter of a load.. but seeing my organiser.. there's so much more things i need to do... realli gotto buck up... i realli feel tat i'm lagging so so so far behind... TASIC first PT this wed... i dun even noe, if i can put up a good show... sigh... I feel like such a damn freaking failure... not good in watever i do... realli feel tat, i'm a burden to the club.. HELL!!! To Khai: I think u'll have a hard time working with me.. thanx for always being so nice... if u cant stand me, juz tell straight into my face.. i can take it haha coz i noe, i have cause ya lotsa trouble...n i noe my damn freaking shitty attitude.. u've gotto put up with me yea.. sorry.. i noe i'm not a good working partner, but i'll try realli hard to match up with ya... hope our first PT will goes well...cheers
Sunday, August 14, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 15:24
Ha.. i guess these few days for me are super shiok n chiong-ster days... Fri went to cut my hair hahahaha... Now i'm botak.. like those NS guys!!! Cooling!!! But the bad thing is i look realli round now.. damn it...Nvm... Sat.. i skipped my muay thai training.. coz went to see Jessica Hsuan... OMG... she damn damn prettty...*drool drool... morning went airport to see her.. but did not manage to take any shot of her.. coz i was helping to hold the board with her name on it haha.. but damn exciting lahz... the moment she came out.. everyone scream like nobody business... she damn so cute.. putting her finger on her lips calling us to tone down a little.. coz there's other passengers... den the two guys tat came along with her-->Roger Kwok and Joey Yeung, damn super paiseh lahz.. coz they like got no supporters screaming out for them ha..super saddis...Den after that.. the crowd all disperse.. i went to meet Carmen in Orchard... walking and toking... waiting for more souls to come... Carmen.. go everywhere oso got ppl stop her to have small chats.. haha.. so popular... went BK eat eat.. wait wait... tok tok... i realli feel tat Carmen is a super wise person.. no matter wat she saying or tok.. it always make a lot of sense... i think she can realli be a good mother haha...Good sense toker i muz say... Dawn and vincent.. finally finish repairing the phone.. den cal us go shaw house BK to find them.. so we'll like eating from one BK to another.. funny... den after eating.. walk aimlessly to Coffee club... go there.. drink continue to tok cock again haha... tok a lot on police stuff and uniform life... cool.. coz i think i realli gotto be mentally prepared.. coz i noe i aint as strong as wat i assume i'm... sad case--
Finally... the Dora Tay May San finally came... but she came to the wrong door... den have to enter from another side... joker-- Continue to tok cock, take photos.. Dora say daren cut hair... all of us wanna see.. but lazy to walk to atrium there... so we keep calling him to come over... but he dun wan.. we oso dun wan haha... den i see my watch.. time to go to see Jessica at Suntec le... so i called them to accompany me over to suntec hee... den met meisee... she super shock when saw my hair.. angry i guess... at tat moment i realli think i die liao... lucky carmen was there... dawn too.. not so bad haha.. juz have the feeling they'll protect me like tat haha... when reach there... dora saw the notice.. say the schedule there place 1700.. so is like over.. coz we reach there at 1900... n tat was the news i got from the fans of jess... but the stage area there was kinda empty... i super dishearted lahz... heart drop n sink.. drain all the way down down to the ocean... den reluctantly left the exhibition hall n went to play archade... was not in the mood... coz i still cant believe jess function starts at five n is over... Carmen n Dawn played a lot of shooting... dora.. missing for a while duno wat she play.. vincent and meisee.. standing ard seeing them play... den i finally went to find Dora to play fighting game... coz i wanna vent all my disappointment out ha.. den i anyhow press buttons..smacking the buttons real hard.. till i think dora shock den lost to me haha... den play till level three die le... den went over to find those seniors... den carmen, dora and me play the army shooting game... as usual.. i cant aim well.. n cant handle the gun.. they keep laughing over my re-loading...sian-- but guess wat.. mirically.. i was the sole survivor haha.. carmen and dora die after the 2nd or 3rd haha.. duno wat happen oso... but i didnt last long.. coz they fall out oso no one help me le.. so i oso die... but is realli fun...Den when we'll deciding of wat and where to eat.. i receive a sms tat Jess is the host for the programme.. so is like.. she's there at the exhibition hall rite now... so i chiong all the way from archade there... pulling dora as well as the seniors along with me... the dashing across ppl was super fun haha... breeze-- and challenging haha.. lucky.. able to catch her sing song...phew~~... thanx man to all that ran with me!!!i noe u guys are being forced by me haha THANX!! LOVE U GUYS.. LOTS``Den.. Dora my lucky star of tat day... the host threw a flower tat being held by jessica b4.. n ask all the audiences on the floor who wants it.. of coz most ppl raise their hands and shouted me me.. i did tat too haha.. but aint so lucky though.. the flower was thrown to dora's direction...haha.. which was a good thing for me haha..coz i noe dora, will give me the flower... hee... lucky dora stand in a good position to take the flower... the commotion those ppl created realli damn funny la haha.. Anw.. realli thanx dora very very very very much... realli cant thank her enuff la.. help me took videos, photos den take flower... i realli owe it to her man... thanx..Finally the thing over.. i'm of coz in cloud nine... den head to Cartel to eat.. after a long long discussion ha... yum yum... took photos again.. very fun nite!!! I LOVE BEING OUT WITH TAS PEEPS!!! ALL FUN-LOVERS!!! Nv once boring hahaToday.. rush for my FISH ppt script.. and my bloody maths tutorial(which is stil half-done)... coz later in the evening going see jessica again... alrt.. call me crazy call me insane... i juz love her so.. for all u care and for all i care haha... today she prettier than yst.. coz she wear a tube-dress... den i think she put a slightly thicker maker today...with her tangling shiny ear-rings.. preetttty babe...*almost faint haha She sung again.. like yst.. her voice realli nice.. melt after hearing.. such sweet voice man.. arrghh.. so pretty... hee.. den aftertat.. went for the Jess fan gathering at aiwo restuarant... at Raffles City... the food aint nice lahz.. but the main thing was able to get upclose with her haha... n i finally shook her hand... after so long lahz... keep kanna push away by ppl haha.. nxt time i noe.. muz be thick-skinned a bit... den.. took photo with her... n have her autograph haha.. happy happy... today i can have sweet sweet dreams le... but kadda sad tat tmr she's going back le... nvm... missing can be a pleasure too.. Is realli a dream come thru to me... if i ever depart from the world now.. i'm realli alrt oso man... coz i've seen her... ahah so happy... alrt.. better go slp... or tmr late for presentation den die le...
Anw.. tmr will be an impt day for all TASIC-to-be members.... as well as TASIC-to-be instructors... good luck to all... *i'm tensing up now-- gotto train le
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
rumbles & whines posted at 20:17
Have been slacking quite a bit for the past few days... i hope i can still slack some more.. but i'm afraid i cant... exam coming... is on Sept... n guess wat.. i aint prepared for it.. Now still rushing like hell to clear all my reports and project... but lucky i have very nice grp mates...thanx for always being so understanding and getting so much good informations.. I realli feel super bad.. always so busy den nv realli help much.. the onli thing i could do.. is do all the back-up job...
Today is National day.. guess what.. spending the day infront of my comp, rushing my report for PAT... No life-- Anw.. today was a family day for me too.. for so long since i have a chance to have dinner and spend a day or so with my family members.. always been very busy over my own stuff.. so is realli nice to have a moment like today, staying home and enjoy the company by them.. though, we may not tok much.. but still, i guess, the presence of each of us definitely means a lot to each other...
Yst.. spend my entire Nite with ally, ally's cousin(sorry i forgotten her name haha), Sok and rong.. Rong came super late.. budden u're forgiven.. coz of the Swiss chocolate from Mark& Spencer lolx... Have a long chat till late nite.. eat quite a lot.. but the serving all super little... i hope they can increase the serving per person as well as improve on the taste of the food... But none the less, enjoy myself with the company of my Sec skool pals... Rmb to save money for adventure after 21 alrt.. this gonna be a promise and a dream i hope can realli come true ya...
Anw.. gotto apologise to Dora.. nv wait for her to run.. so tmr.. gotto run with her le...Realli gotto train hard.. think of the 10Km as well as the PT session that i'm gonna be doing with Khai.. i realli super stress out now... guess i better get my hair shave..b4 i loss my hair thru too much of da pulling and stress... I'll nv match up to Khai's pace.. haiz.. stresssssssss-- 3 campus run... can i even do it..*someone pls kindly save me.... I ran 10 rounds of stadium a little tired out le... sigh sigh... Guess.. i'm juz not born to be a good runner...IM NOT FIT!!!Sat actually wanna go clubbing.. but in the end didnt go.. tot that they cancel off or sth.. coz no one contact me abt the time n venue.. so went training at Bukit batok... wah... do 2 sets of running up and down the hill can kills... realli need to train harder sia... i duno how Dawn they all during the Kili training can even wear gas mask n ran up and down doing 5 sets of it... damn POWER!!!--Jessica finally coming to Singapore this Sat!!! Yippeee... damn happy.. get to finally see her real person hahahaha... alrt.. better get back to finish my project.. or else duno wat i'm gonna tel my project mates!!!I wan a new hairdo like HIM haha..(dun copy me.. i'm gonna cut it soon!!)
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HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!!Everyone--
