Firstly Merry Christmas to Allllllll....
And yup, finally i finished my 800 worth of words-OCT GOH AI ZHI AUTOBIOGRAPHY!!! Later gotto prepare to book in already... damn.. i haven even enjoyed enough!!! But nonetheless, i thank all whom contributed their income to the economy in getting me presents, cookies and plentiful of chocolate, log cakes and candy cane...

I think i've pretty much recover from my illness but not my fitness i guess.. at least i feel tat my appetite is going back to norm.. i'm taking in the normal capacity tat i used to and not less then that haha... Yst was a great day for me.. met up with shuwen and mag den with dan and all... is really super nice to see all of them again... its been really long since i last saw them.. And with everyone pre-occupied with their own job, studies, you really rarely have the chance to meet up.. And the most troublesome is still me.. stuck in camp till you known when can book out... that's why i really cherish all the weekends, holidays or any festive season that one can enjoy.. i may sounds desperate.. but is really true... i'm deprive from holidays!!!

Yst is also a day for church. But this time the no. of people who attend only left with me, cheow and anna.. i hope nxt year the no. will plunge up a little at least ha.. i dun wish to see myself standing there alone singing those hymes.. And yesss i wan to complain... those hymes keep changing tunes, i know it has been quite some time since i last attended a mass.. but it does not need to change till i cant even recognise that hyme title anymore when it was being played and sung...but going to church has always been enjoyable.. this time, the priest is very entertaining and funny.. And first time i shook the hands of the Father and one of the brother... was quite cool haha.. Mayb this will bring me luck for tmr 24km route march.. with a grand finale of climbing the killer elephant hill with the 3 strips bar presentation!

What can i say.. i'm really scare for tmr.. morning gonna have area inspection, which i doubt anyone will pass.. and den comes the 24km route march.. i just hope to faster get over and done with.. at least i think it should be my last route march?!?!? Whatever it is.. i hope is gonna be like wat Xiao pang say.. is gonna be a breeze.. wish me luck man!! *i pray: Let me endure through lord! Last phase! Ai Zai!!!!

Just when you think is a small world afterall,
and you dying to see that somebody, you just dont...
who do you blame?
What do you wish next?
I wish to at least dream of her of course...

I must rmb to mark yst date on my calendar... cause yst have lotsa events that happen.. the not so pleasant one and also the pleasant ones=)

Yst i guess was my very first time going to Seng Kang poly clinic to see a doc after my dad and mama nagging about my never-ending diahorrea, bad stomach ache and nausea... And guess what, i actually waited for a good 2 hrs to actually get to see my doc... it was really unbelievable.. luckily i was not on an emergency case, if not i guess i'll just drop dead on the spot!!! But nonetheless, i hope the tablets that she gave me can really help me recover asap.. coz till now my anal is still not spared from the pain, that the horrible diahorrea has caused... i've been sick like for a good 4 days.. first few days comes with vomiting and i've been lossing my appetite real badly.. yst went out also didnt ate much.. everyday just feeling really lethargic.. spending most of my time in bed rather den going ard shopping or doing something more physical demanding..

Seriously, i've never ever felt so darn weak ever in my life... frens and family are complaining tat i'm getting thinner... it shld be a good news.. but i feel tat i'm getting frail-looking and weak... i just hope i can recover soon and get my physical back... i'm losing my macho-physics...really turning into spongybob soon...(soft and out-of shape) i must win the virus or bacteria tat is taking me done!!! So dear lord, for this coming christmas, i pray to have my physical back... i want to remain fit and healthy!!! pls kindly get rid of those harmful and nasty viruses or bacteria away from me...

Alrt, yst was sort of a meet-the-people-day... met up with lotsa long lost frens and seniors... it was really great... is really nice to see all of them all doing so well and fine... And thanks big lung for getting the 2 mini log cakes which taste superb for the councils!!! I bet all of us appreciate it very much.. And tat duckie on the toilet bowl tat u've got me... i'm waiting for a real bowl from u lol!!!

Eh.. now i must mark the most important event tat took place yst!!! And yesss, such a long long time... i get to see my sea-hawk girl again... it was really pure coincident alrt.. i was like on my way home from dhoby ghaut station, while walking towards NEL just so happen to see this not bad-looking girl backview.. and being nosey and wanna see more, i fasten my pace to try to get the front or at least a side glimps of her and guess what.. to my horror and disbelief... it was the sea-hawk girl... wah.. i really cant explain how excited and happy i was at that very spot and at that very time.. i guess, i was like grinning from ear to ear... looking like some retard or crazy fool...and yeah i took the same train and in the same cabin with her haha... the best was we both alighted at the same station... and now she really got me wondering, does she stays ard seng kang area too...

And she definitely get this Kelly Marie song playing in my head all night long->
My head is in a spin, my feet don't touch the ground
Because you're near to me, my head goes round and round
My knees are shakin' baby, My heart, it beats like a dru-um
It fee-eels like, It feels like I-I'm in lo-ove

Ha alrt, mayb i get a little too exaggerating, she's just my eye candy and a pretty girl who has the almighty power to make time turn still and make your heart and knees go weak!! Lost for words when u just look into her eyes or even her smile...
She's all like she'll always be
A little far for me to reach

I should be yelling->" Woo Hoo Weekends is here" but guess what, i'm here sitting in my bunk and still in camp till you know what time... fatigue work it is...today is the commissioning day for the 67/07 batch of OCT.. one chocolate bar on their shoulders liao.. so proud of Weiyi..(p.s. thanks for the ang bao haha) see them marching out really reminds me of my SISPEC life... and the more i want to be like them.. cause is definitely not easy to pass the 9 mths... though i only left with 6 mths.. but i can see many challenges lying ahead of me already.. i really need to clear them all and stand proudly infront of my family and friends..i really want to make them feel proud of me.. and of cause cannot let those commanders who took me before down.. going towards pro-term i just hope i can adapt and adjust better to OCS life... duno is the lack of rest or i really becoming weaker already, my performance was aint as good.. my drive and and motivation seems to have run away too.. i just hope they can come finding me back, or at least let me find them back...

And i need to be less whinny (duno does the level of whinny-ness comes with age), less vulgar (trying to control my watda f*** and u know what) and more lady-like (yes, my mama will be very happy to see me turning to one fair lady) ha.. yes, in OCS, new character development, more discipline, more leadership, more initiative...i really do pray i can do well just like how i did in SISPEC or even better.

After the marathon, have not been going for any recovery run..(And yeah, i'm proud to say i completed it haha -unbelievable but true-) and duno if it was the reason for me to not be able to sprint as fast as i use to.. mayb my age has caught up with me, mayb eating too much of chips and slacking after ROC i've become a weakling... I really didnt expect myself to be that lousy.. i really need to pull up my socks real high.. i need more discipline to run and self-train.. so anyone out there who wants to run over the weekend, please please and i say again PLEASE call me to come train with u okie.. regardless weights or runs... i need to be FIT once more!!!

Okie here comes the annoucement and the sounds of many curse!!! i need to get changing and fall in for more fatigue work!! May i book out tonight and join Ah cheow and the rest for graffiti!!! Tmr is a shop for dress day!!!=( (And my legs are gone from the mosquitoes bites in SAFTI MI)