Eh... today was a busy day for me, after like 3 days of resting and slacking.. but i think i did not realli get those work that needs to be done, done.. so yup.. my 3 days was like come to a waste.. By this weekend is gonna be my deadline, i muz realli finish all tat i need to do, like sending my results and all those shit. Counting down.. 20 more days to go or izzt lesser..and should i say YAY.. my turn for BMT!!! Looking forward though.. but still scare.. scare the physical part.. scare the mental too.. i juz hope god will be there to guide me thru every thunder and storm.. so that i can walk on water like St Peter.. Juz dun wan to stress myself over being the fittest or getting the best trainee award.. though the title realli sounded WOW!!! For me i guess, juz need to stay focus and pass thru the whole thing till SISPEC come into play...

It's gonna be an adventure as well as an experience for me i guess... i just wish this could be the best part of my life ha.. a memorable one with pride and with glory...And army is realli like another phase of TASIC .. and i realli wanna do it a good one this time.. giving my everything and push myself to the limit or even break it.. Cause in TASIC i guess, i did not push and give my very best.. I realli wanna see when i'm put into all those shit, how far i can go.. do i QUIT or do i hang in there even till my very last breathe.. so i guess.. my life in the army is gonna determine who i become... a stronger aizhi or a weaker one... I juz hope i can learn to be a better person... Excited really haha..

Alrt.. this week passed like lighting.. tmr is FRIDAY already... and Sun gonna have rowing.. and i confess the thoughts of switching team is getting into me... attendance problem is getting serious esp during weekdays training... i may not have the right to say much, since i've already graduated and stay near to the training ground.. therefore skipping training for me is a NONO... But somewat, what makes training fun and worthwhile is that u get to have your teammates training with you and you get to see them around. But for my club now.. it aint the case.. weekdays attendance was so darn poor.. is realli a handful and i mean it... mayb tight school schedule is a big problem.. but nvm.. i guess everyone in the team all have their own aims and objectives to meet.. therefore one cannot force them to come down for training because of what one want them to do... Sigh.. i realli hope to stay as positive as possible.. i realli dun wanna see my team split and den gone forever..

Okie.. she was realli stunning.. almost so close to perfection...she looks like the sea-hawk girl.. or is she prettier? Maybe she was my motivation to wake up earlier juz to stupidly catch that same bus as her... okie.. wat am i thinking.. i dun even know her... but damn.. she really wow...ok... i dun wish to play with the thing call fate... it burn me once, i dun wish to be burn twice.. alrt.. i'm muttering crap... she's just an eye-candy=)

When you see fate, you see chance...
When you lose fate, you lose chance...
and yes i mean it.. once you lose it.. you can never find it back..
Is gone forever..
So take the chance to be sweet or lose the chance and be bitter like me=)

okie watever.. bitter gourd is still my fav veggie...