Land of a T H O U S A N D words...

Yay.. is Friday again.. and i'm real happy to annouce my attachment is finally coming to an end.. Yay..just 2 more weeks.. 10 more days to endure!!! Really cant wait to head back skool.. Hmmm though i have lotsa praises for my company and the people here but u noe.. working environment is still very different from studying environment.. i mean at least during lectures when u are tired you are able to sleep.. but when u are working u cant realli take a nap... coz ppl ard you will be spying u w/o u realising.. perhaps they might have a CCTV hidden somewhere... And everyday of my working life my aim and objective is to wish for public holiday and weekends... And my prayers for every single day would be wishing my boss to catch dengue/SARS, so all IA student will be so damn free and perhaps no need to report to work as we'll be quarantine!!!

But there's a rather bad news--> coz for the nxt LAST two weeks there will be a NYP guy joining mingli and i.. am not looking forward though..(but if is a girl mayb i may still feel better) Guess with him ard.. things will be different..coz it wont be easy for us to do illegal things.. coz u noe ppl nowadays so hard to understand duno wat they are realli thinking.. and you might just get stab by them w/o realising so is kinda scary!!!

Okie.. i think i'm realli being damn evil right here.. but nonetheless i still have to endure 10 more days b4 i'm finally free free freee.....and i no need to face and see ppl like yi zhi mao and hao peng you...*sorry i dun wish to be mean.. if only u get to noe them.. perhaps u will share the same feeling as me... Alrt.. yst went to Hospital to visit my grandma.. she's be in the hosp for almost 5 days le.. yup.. i noe.. many of you are saying how unfilial i'm.. after 5 days le den visit my grandma... But is realli nice to learn from my dad, ah ma and uncle that how sweet and nice is my sao sao (my bro's wife) My sao sao actually went down to the hosp every single day to visit my grandma... buying her food, feeding her and brought her milk, pillow and blanket.. i think is so wasted that she didnt become a nurse lah.. she's realli shows tender, loving care ha... I duno when can i develop the characteristics like her...*wonder Hmmm perhaps i shall pray hard to have the luck and fate like my bro.. able to find such a great girl to be lao po.. i wish i can find someone like her?

I think under my sao sao care and love my ah ma is getting better already.. yst went to see her, she dun look as tired and breatheless le.. But i realli hate the feeling of going to hospital.. coz beside seeing how bad ur ah ma hands and arms bruises from all blood taking session and needle treatment, u'll get to see different patients who suffer from different illnesses... And yst saw several leukemia and cancer patients..it realli makes me wanna cry.. i mean look at how skinny they'll already and their arms and bodies still have to be torment by the needles and chemotherapy and their bodies and immune system gets deteriorated every single day...
i realli wish i have the power to take away people's pain.. so everyone ard me wont suffer so much.. but wat one can do is always so limited... okie.. mayb the way that i'm feeling is realli naive

Perhaps the above paragraph can explain why i ponder over so long b4 went to visit my grandma.. coz i realli hate the feeling of seeing ppl lying sickly in their bed and all i can do is juz to hopelessly standing there watching them...i duno... but i still feel rather relieve to learn that the nurses in Singapore are all well-trained and professional.. realli need to thank them for taking great care of my grandma.. esp this Nurse from NYP.. she'll be ending her attachment today i think.. but she's realli nice still.. constantly checking out the patients and always ask around how each and everyone are...*sweet

Alrt.. after so damn long.. i finally exercise once again... yst went running with Mun(working colleague) and my supervisor... after that play badminton.. so darn long since i lay my hands on the Yonnex racket le.. i think my last play was with tay big lung in skool... Is time for me to train hard for the upcoming SHAPE run in july... need to realli cover longer distance during my run juz praying hard that i'll be discipline to run often ha...

Counting down for the upcoming world cup, yay!!!more staying up late in June i guess...=x

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People said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If i'm going to make the move or am i juz letting go
It's not how I planned it to be though
I thought i've got the key to the door
But it just won't open
And I know, I know, I know

Part of me just says let it go
I'll nv be fit for you
I'll nv be right for you
I don't, I don't, I just don't

As time goes by
I tried anything just to feel better
But i wish i know what to do
For I can't see through the haze around me
And somehow I can't find my way
I can't decide what should i go about living a life this way

I really need a change
A change that can make me feel better
Any little thing that can just make me feel better

I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
But somewhat who's gonna save me
U?
My soul is weeping if you ever realised

Season comes and season goes
Running round and round i juz cant find a point to stop
Dear God I need a change
And I do anything that just make me feel better
Long try to holding on
To all things I ought to leave behind is really tough
In fact so tough
I'm really getting nowhere
I really need a little help this time!

Will you ever tell me you'll be there for me when i needed you...