I FEEL...Ritty.. today seems a rather bad day for me.. as i receive a real bad news.. a news where my partner(Maggie) and I till now, still dun wish to accept it... Pleiocarpa mutica<-- Does it ever rings a bell to u... or simply, have u ever seen this words/name b4... If u noe wat it seriously is, do join us in our 3rd year final year project alrt... Yup, Maggie and I gotten this topic-->Tissue culture of Pleiocarpa mutica for our third year FYP.. is a in-house project.. sigh.. means we are gonna be on our separate ways during attachement sem...
The lecturers tat allocated us to our respective project title juz act almost as if they'll our parents... like a parent tat make decisions for a child, thinking and feeling that, they noe wat is best out there for us...but in return, it all turn out to be the other way round, broken family starts to surface, children starts to argue or even leave the house just because they feel tat, their parents are a total control freaks not giving them a chance to voice and freedom to choose wat they want to do. This juz like wat i'm feeling rite now.. a runaway child, a child tat dun like the project title assign to her. Coz she feels that, the lecturers are blinded by the best interests of another child, hence causes this whole random choosing system to break down!!!!=(=(=(
Yes.. am seriously disappointed... juz feel realli unfair, why the other children can get their choices and me..i gotten nth from all the FYP choices tat we placed and ranked.It realli SUXXX.. all we gotten ourselves into is tissue culturing of Pleiocarpa mutica project... Juz for more of ya info.. the picture below is wat my partner and i is gonna be working with and culturing it for our FYP...
How i wish, i could have juz applied for OIAP(overseas attachement) instead... i feel tat mayb i wont get projects like this.. culturing plants again... Not tat i dun like plant tissue culture.. is juz tat, i wanna try something new alrt, like working with cancer cells, coming out with new drugs on cancer cells.. I realli wonder wat i can do to this plant so i can become a million, billion or even a zillionaire!!! Thinking of the message tat a ngee ann grad life science student has send to Mr Chang(my instru lecturer), i realli feel a little regret for not going/applying for OIAP... Seriously, after knowing and still trying to accept my project title, i realli wish i have other better choices left out there for me than plant tissue culture... How i wish to board a bus tat cost as if it was like a PhD is driving it and how i wish i have a chance to research and read on textbooks tat cost almost like is printed in 24KGold... Life's juz so unpredictable.. i always tot i lead a rather lucky life, but after this very incident, it totally change all my belief...
I realli gotto work hard from now, coz i juz cant forsee myself not being able to do well in exam and pass all my modules by just depending on pure luck.. which most of the time i always do..sigh..
Christmas is coming, so are the common tests and exam... i realli wonder how am i gonna celebrate my birthday in such conditions-- study is making me sick,but still i gotto study... somehow i feel that, i cant realli decide how i live my life but all i can do is to get into the correct frequency of wats coming on in my life-- crap...
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Alrt, VCDs TIME.. am not gonna ponder over the project title anymore.. Need a break, dun wish to have more wisdom hair growing haha
