Land of a T H O U S A N D words...

2008-05-01T12:02:00.002+08:00

aiya.. i think this blog can turn mouldy and be forgotten for good.. have been quite quite a while each time i log in and write a new entry.. yup, busy is an excuse... time can always be plan out or allocated out for things u wan to do.. is always base on one's will and determination. yup, i'm just plain too lazy... brunei trip was the best of the best.. the sweat and tiredness that i have over there is really made worthwhile. I dun say that the course was easy nor i say is hard. but is an experience that is hard to put it in words or explaination unless you go try it out urself... mental strength is really important.

Today is labour day, but at night gotto book in again.. yup very sian.. should have had a long long weekend like "G". nvm...i'm from A, so cant complain. ATP had come to an end tooo. Yup, did not get my marksman.. sad lah of course, but wat can i do... mayb my shooting and fundamental is really very bad.. esp when kan-chong... just hope as i go to unit i'll learn to shoot better along the way and slowly get my marksman badge... still left with one last fieldcamp and major event like the pt excellence and PAC... as hope i dun be a burden for good... my combat fitness drop like hell.. i think my physical too.. damn old and weak already. my last 10km clock a horrifying timing of 53mins... yup so SLOW!!! need to really buck up and train up.. duno izzt mental weak already or muscle just hasnt recover. darn!!! i just hope i can have a smooth sailing progress till i commission. cause this is the most critical phase and time for me.. if you screwed it up that's it... not only will i inflict my previous pcs and ocs, i'll throw the organisation face and name... i really need to maintain and be careful and be on my toes!!! cannot be complacent and ignorant. stay as humble and just do the right thing at the right time. fulfill all duties/responsibilities to the best tat i can.. And zero usage of vulgarities like the zero sugar coke ha!!!

STAY DETERMINE AND NOT LET THE FIGHTING SPIRIT DIES!!!!
ALL THE WAY!!!

GIRLS OUTING

2008-04-01T17:15:00.003+08:00

Last sat went to meet up with Judy and Jesmine for K (by right) but by left we ended up going for movie and chill out at tcc ha... but it was a great evening.. enjoy myself a lot.. its been like years since i last see both of them.. but nonetheless, the feeling with them is still as good as ever.. guess we're just a bunch who can really talk cock sing song but not play majong though ha... went to watch The Leap Year.. not that is a very fantastic show, but casting wong li lin.. of course the movie is good haha.. i love her lah... look as hot and as pretty as ever.. nv change...

But some feels that the storyline is too far off from reality.. mayb still naive or izzt stubborn, i believe there's still possibilities in this kinda scenarios.. mayb one is always blinded by those lovey dovey scene.. to me, i really believe that the right person that fits u perfectly will come ya way.. all it takes it patience and time.. it better to have love and lost, then better to not have love at all.. but why waste time with someone u can live with and not someone you cant live without.. i always hope to see her coming my way.. always in the search or waiting just hope somewhere, somehow she'll just appear... in the show the dream guy was blue... for me.. she's the orange blurry picture.. i dun expect her to appear only when the leap years come.. but mayb i duno when ha...hope it mayb just can come my way=)

Alrt, like what i've said flying to Brunei like very very soon... just hope i can be back in one nice piece and not missing a toe or finger or even my head... and not hav mushrooms or fungus growing all over me like what my sir has actually curse!!! i must come back surviving and strong.. NV DIE!!!

Sigh come to think of my domo.. so sad lah.. i actually caught one when i went tw.. and i only spend a freaking 50 cents to catch it.. and then i lost it.. darn!!! I miss my DOMOOOOO!!!!

2008-03-29T15:52:00.002+08:00

Finally get to book out... been like out of touch from the world like quite sometime.. duno who all of my frens are doing.. during outfield at tekong saw zhixiang.. he lost his voice.. but still looks good.. and commissioning parade help out my sispec frens came down.. but didnt have a chance to see them, coz was stuck at wing line =/.. sigh.. really miss them so much lah... alrt, 4th of april will be flying to Brunei for good.. gonna treat it like the survivor brunei.. though is 20 days lesser den the real survivor series.. just hope i can survive and get the jcc badge.. nobody says is gonna be easy though.. but watever it is.. i guess, die also muz get that badge... so i must stay focus and jia you.. take care of myself and do well for every part of the elements...

duno wat to update though beside more whinnings and complaints.. now i just comtemplating if i should attend the bloody comms ball... but deep down in me i really dun wanna attend.. is really shit.. arrrghh den come the LSA and the SAS issue.. should i study this year or the next... ma fan ar!!! why in life so many decision to make...oh i just want a simple life!!!

enuff say and i'm just too lazy to carrying on... till nxt time den...

2008-03-09T19:47:00.002+08:00

Sunday suppose to be a relaxing day.. and guess what.. i just finished typing my ops order and aop... damn... wat a weekend.. and Sir is still nice enough to msg me to remind me abt the proposal i'm suppose to prepare and do up.. suddenly just feels like there's so many things unfinished and undone.. I guess, i really have poor time management!!! And i seriously need to deal with it... cause i really hate things get pile up on me.. not tat i cant breathe or wat shit.. is just no time for myself.. and yup, i'm a person who needs a lot a lot of time for myself.. looking at all my unfinished dvds and story books, you noe how much time i actually have for myself!!! damn.. why time is always not enuff.. tmr gotto book in early in the darn morning.. i just hope i can get a bloody cab... arrrghhh done with one more to come!!! need to go pack my stuff for tmr.. and mayb more shit to come as i book in... i need to get running again... time is running short as usual=(

oh i really need to comment on this lady i saw this freaking morning as i go for a run at Bishan.. damn i really cant take my eyes off her lah.. so lean and tone.. my god.. she's really HOT!!!

2008-03-07T16:45:00.002+08:00

Just came back from tw.... training was enjoyable though is tiring and hectic... ate so much that even my Sir says that my face is getting chubbier.. yup is not a good sign.. gotto start running and getting my fitness back... this time round saw more chio-bus aha and ate a lot more alrt.. is like food hunting almost every single nite of my R&R.. till now i still miss the food very much...*just the thoughts of it make me drool

Anyhow, i still thank you ladies who took the time out to send me off from the airport.. nxt one will be Brunei already... damn scary...

This weekends will be spend on cleaning my stores and recuperating... mayb can meet up with my frens for movies or so.. too many nice movies out there already.. bua ta-han!!!

this is gonna be a real short entry, as i'm really lazy and i dun really know what to write, whine or grumble about... but my mama and papa is getting into some cold war or sort.. damn... i just hope they can really sort things out and dun behave so child-dishly...

watever.. is time i hit out for a RUN!!!

RUNAWAY...

2008-01-29T17:42:00.000+08:00

Here i am for a-long-long-one-time entry... Yup am currently in camp.. this week has been slack ha.. morning just completed a killer fast march.. Yup fast march always kill me.. i can last long but not fast.. short legs just a disadvantage ar!!! Mayb my new year resolution should be going for leg extension haha... *anyone willing to sponsor me?!?! And yup, with this weakness, it actually affects me or post a factor to me if i'm able to go to Guards and go thru the conversion course.. as they have lotsa fast march.. And in here already i've difficulties keeping up.. super lousy!!! Morning had bunk inspection by my CPT.. lucky my room was cleaned and smelling good ha.. if not sure kanna fire...

Okie.. now mayb many of u might think that, why am i so free to blog.. i also duno the answer.. this few weeks have been like tat.. waiting for lunch and dinner sorta thing.. mayb preparing for ROC, that's why... i wonder if my SISPEC friends and instructors have returned... This time going ROC but a different part and different place.. duno will it be tougher.. but i bet it'll be... cause more load to carry this time round, due to the F***king weather... nonetheless, i just hope i can endure thru man.. tough time dun last tough man do!!! Ai zai ar!!! I'll be leaving one day b4 shurong.. again cannot send her... and the nxt time i see her probably is after my commission... so we are like gonna fight our own world in diff country and wishing one another the best of everything again.. And of coz b4 her leaving, we planned to go play tat bungy over at clark quay again.. this time is the swinging pendulum one haha... i hope i dun get any blood shot eyes this time round...

Tmr we'll be heading to Khatib camp to learn to call for arty fire and den we'll head for PAINT BALL!!! YEAH is the damn first time i play.. i hope it'll be a great experience.. and i hope i dun lead my team to die in bad shape, as i'm appointed the i/c alrt.. and damn, i'm gonna command my instructors and PC... Feel honour??? No, i feel sux... stress level is there man, though we aim to not have any rank barriers.. but damn is hard lah.. But watever, just hope tmr is FUNNN!!! BOUNTY HUNTERS ALL THE WAY!!!!

2008-01-13T18:49:00.000+08:00

Just gonna have a short entry, rushing for time to book in again.. sigh... this coming week is 7 days field camp.. after this will be preparing for ROC again... just hope i survive alrt.. Tues will be IPPT.. need to not only maintain gold but obtain best points for all station. Socs on Sat did not do pretty well. Though it was my best timing so far, but i still did not hit my aim which is 0700 or less.. as usual PC wants me to be faster den Meng Yean, so i guess, i've gotto run again... his expectation is high, but i guess is all for my own good.. and with all this pushing mayb i can make history for myself too ha. Whatever, i just dun wanna let the competition btw me and meng yean to affect me and her in any way.. i just want to give my best short in the 6 mths.. i should not always think that i cant and just let chances and time slip away. have enuff of regrets already. Now i just pray to god to continue to give me the strong mental... coz i guess, i always lost to myself because of my weak mental. so let me endure thru like how you do. Tough time dun last tough man do. So let me be the tough man lord!!!

I need to run.... camp sweet camp=)

enuff is enuff'.. get on with your life...

2008-01-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

Is sunday again.. today didnt go to join scdf for db training.. very tired and my arms are aching.. super lousy alrt.. yst just went to did some climbing with Jel at asia.. but i think i cmi already, need to work my fitness back.. yst jel and i try to do pull up, do till we wanna die also cant pull ha.. so i guess if there's sat book out shld go climb...

As usual later gotto book in again...every week rather then experience-ing monday blues, i'll suffer from sunday blues ha and this week is clearing SOC week.. last week was very physical demanding.. we like being trained to become PTI or sort... running everyday.. it reminds me on my sispec days.. especially Foxtrot.. where we just run every single day 2 or 3 times.. but at least we're rewarded with nights out and i have great companions... Not that the ppl here are not nice... but we're still in the start of knowing one another.. nonetheless, i just hope i can continue my performance.. must not let sispec down and also myself... must reach my goal of commissioning..

The upcoming two weeks will be 84mm, soc and ippt test.. i just really hope and wish and pray that i can score well man.. clear it with my best timing and best ability.. really dun wanna re-test sia!!!*pray hard!!! And my first field camp is gonna be coming up... is like a good 4 days... i just hope i can endure and excel thru alrt.. gonna be exercise dump-in and some platoon battle procedure... And my Mr "Nice" PC is getting me to be the MG gunner.. tat's it for me man.. heavy weapon.. den soon to come, i should be put to carry 84mm... so i really gotto pray and train more now.. pray and train hard that i can pass through those tough days and finish real strong!!! so god bless me:/

But my PC and section instructor are really nice.. they really push u all the way..so i hope i dun let them down too.. i noe they trying to push me to get the best pt.. i mean who dun wan that title.. i just hope i can beat my super fit also the BEST PT of ocs squad mate alrt.. Weiyi had gone to New Zealand, and i noe her training there is gonna be a 1000 times or 10 000 times worst den me.. the load that she's taking gonna be tons heavier than me too... so i should not complaint.. and she's really my motivation.. cause during tough times, i think of her, i kinda able to push myself further.. so i'm really lucky to have such a zai senior ar!!!

so for now, my this week goal:
To stay focus in completing my course (soc test, 84mm, physical training), take things one step at a time, i shall finish strong...

She can't see the way your eyes
Light up when you smile
She'll never notice how you stop and stare
Whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wantin' you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible

There's a fire inside of you
That can't help much I'm through
She's never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we're invisible
I just wanna look in your eyes
And make you realize

2008-01-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

why break the news,
why do so much,
i thought i'm over you,
but now is hunting me back all over again...

i've made choices,
i've disconnected,
and i've wasted all my time and days,
that maybe perhaps i could have been with you...
i told my heart to stay,
to not react to anything you say or do...
this time is not working,
why break the news,
why do so much...

Cannot touch
Cannot hold
Cannot be together

Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other
Must be strong, And we must let go
Cannot say
What our hearts must know
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
Cannot dream
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave,
And we must go on
Must not say, What we've known all along
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
How can I not love you..

**this is not a love story, where i can really imagine you and me,
i could never be the one that you want, dont ask.

2008-01-01T19:29:00.000+08:00

Welcome 2008!!! Happy New Year to everybody!!!
New year, new wishes and new hopes... as usual health is always important then followed by wealth... This new year, of cause wish to run faster, more endurance and become fitter and stronger (physical and mental) And of coz i must pass out of OCS and afterwhich get my motorbike!!! Just now nearly gotten into a bad dispute with my dad.. now he changes his mind of allowing me to get a bike!!! But i think i'll get anyhow... i know everyone would say, is for my own good and safety.. but oweing a bike is my dream man... at least let me own before i officially pass with a car license and able to afford a car...nvm.. perhaps after my commission, i'll start begging him or get some sense into him in allowing me to buy my bike!!! If not i guess, i'm gonna do it the underground way again ha

Thanks to all my cousins and pals who took their time out in celebrating my birthday (you know who you are) i really appreciate it very very much... really THANK YOU

I really have an enjoyable birthday celebration.. and of coz an unforgettable and memorable one=)

I must really credit Sok and company for the many cakes u ladies have prepared and the time u're wasted in waiting for me ha...And most memorable one was, first time all of us have our particulars recorded down by the 2 policemen!!!

And thanks (a very reluctant thank you though, ha) big lung for preparing the tao pok fill with bean sprouts, peas!!! i was lucky enuff to be spared from those smelly or weird-smelling mushrooms!!! But thanks for the time u take to make it yea.. and of coz the box of hand-made birthday getback!!! And u make me swear to god that i'll make sure i'll do something that is more wild and unforgettable for your 21st hahaha I wouldn't forget those ppl who tried to stuff those tao pok into my mouth!! All your 21st will be more exciting too okie, i promise haha!!!

Sigh, later gotto book in... but the thoughts of booking out over the weekend is already over my head.. jia lat.. i like developing phobia in returning to camp.. duno why sia... die.. pls pray for me to go thru this 6 mths smoothly alrt.. i just want it to fly pass like the speed of light!!! Ok, shall grumble lesser.. new year should grow more mature and muz not let my passion die out!!! i must jia you!!

Recently, just join back dragon boating... went to join ah rong's the scdf team.. training was fun and good..like their circuit training very much.. haven tasted their running.. but each training u can really feel u working on your muscles..very fulfilling!!! the coach is really good!!! i hope i can continue rowing for long!

2007-12-25T18:14:00.000+08:00

Firstly Merry Christmas to Allllllll....
And yup, finally i finished my 800 worth of words-OCT GOH AI ZHI AUTOBIOGRAPHY!!! Later gotto prepare to book in already... damn.. i haven even enjoyed enough!!! But nonetheless, i thank all whom contributed their income to the economy in getting me presents, cookies and plentiful of chocolate, log cakes and candy cane...

I think i've pretty much recover from my illness but not my fitness i guess.. at least i feel tat my appetite is going back to norm.. i'm taking in the normal capacity tat i used to and not less then that haha... Yst was a great day for me.. met up with shuwen and mag den with dan and all... is really super nice to see all of them again... its been really long since i last saw them.. And with everyone pre-occupied with their own job, studies, you really rarely have the chance to meet up.. And the most troublesome is still me.. stuck in camp till you known when can book out... that's why i really cherish all the weekends, holidays or any festive season that one can enjoy.. i may sounds desperate.. but is really true... i'm deprive from holidays!!!

Yst is also a day for church. But this time the no. of people who attend only left with me, cheow and anna.. i hope nxt year the no. will plunge up a little at least ha.. i dun wish to see myself standing there alone singing those hymes.. And yesss i wan to complain... those hymes keep changing tunes, i know it has been quite some time since i last attended a mass.. but it does not need to change till i cant even recognise that hyme title anymore when it was being played and sung...but going to church has always been enjoyable.. this time, the priest is very entertaining and funny.. And first time i shook the hands of the Father and one of the brother... was quite cool haha.. Mayb this will bring me luck for tmr 24km route march.. with a grand finale of climbing the killer elephant hill with the 3 strips bar presentation!

What can i say.. i'm really scare for tmr.. morning gonna have area inspection, which i doubt anyone will pass.. and den comes the 24km route march.. i just hope to faster get over and done with.. at least i think it should be my last route march?!?!? Whatever it is.. i hope is gonna be like wat Xiao pang say.. is gonna be a breeze.. wish me luck man!! *i pray: Let me endure through lord! Last phase! Ai Zai!!!!

Just when you think is a small world afterall,
and you dying to see that somebody, you just dont...
who do you blame?
What do you wish next?
I wish to at least dream of her of course...

2007-12-22T16:31:00.000+08:00

I must rmb to mark yst date on my calendar... cause yst have lotsa events that happen.. the not so pleasant one and also the pleasant ones=)

Yst i guess was my very first time going to Seng Kang poly clinic to see a doc after my dad and mama nagging about my never-ending diahorrea, bad stomach ache and nausea... And guess what, i actually waited for a good 2 hrs to actually get to see my doc... it was really unbelievable.. luckily i was not on an emergency case, if not i guess i'll just drop dead on the spot!!! But nonetheless, i hope the tablets that she gave me can really help me recover asap.. coz till now my anal is still not spared from the pain, that the horrible diahorrea has caused... i've been sick like for a good 4 days.. first few days comes with vomiting and i've been lossing my appetite real badly.. yst went out also didnt ate much.. everyday just feeling really lethargic.. spending most of my time in bed rather den going ard shopping or doing something more physical demanding..

Seriously, i've never ever felt so darn weak ever in my life... frens and family are complaining tat i'm getting thinner... it shld be a good news.. but i feel tat i'm getting frail-looking and weak... i just hope i can recover soon and get my physical back... i'm losing my macho-physics...really turning into spongybob soon...(soft and out-of shape) i must win the virus or bacteria tat is taking me done!!! So dear lord, for this coming christmas, i pray to have my physical back... i want to remain fit and healthy!!! pls kindly get rid of those harmful and nasty viruses or bacteria away from me...

Alrt, yst was sort of a meet-the-people-day... met up with lotsa long lost frens and seniors... it was really great... is really nice to see all of them all doing so well and fine... And thanks big lung for getting the 2 mini log cakes which taste superb for the councils!!! I bet all of us appreciate it very much.. And tat duckie on the toilet bowl tat u've got me... i'm waiting for a real bowl from u lol!!!

Eh.. now i must mark the most important event tat took place yst!!! And yesss, such a long long time... i get to see my sea-hawk girl again... it was really pure coincident alrt.. i was like on my way home from dhoby ghaut station, while walking towards NEL just so happen to see this not bad-looking girl backview.. and being nosey and wanna see more, i fasten my pace to try to get the front or at least a side glimps of her and guess what.. to my horror and disbelief... it was the sea-hawk girl... wah.. i really cant explain how excited and happy i was at that very spot and at that very time.. i guess, i was like grinning from ear to ear... looking like some retard or crazy fool...and yeah i took the same train and in the same cabin with her haha... the best was we both alighted at the same station... and now she really got me wondering, does she stays ard seng kang area too...

And she definitely get this Kelly Marie song playing in my head all night long->
My head is in a spin, my feet don't touch the ground
Because you're near to me, my head goes round and round
My knees are shakin' baby, My heart, it beats like a dru-um
It fee-eels like, It feels like I-I'm in lo-ove

Ha alrt, mayb i get a little too exaggerating, she's just my eye candy and a pretty girl who has the almighty power to make time turn still and make your heart and knees go weak!! Lost for words when u just look into her eyes or even her smile...
She's all like she'll always be
A little far for me to reach

wat a wonderful weekend

2007-12-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

I should be yelling->" Woo Hoo Weekends is here" but guess what, i'm here sitting in my bunk and still in camp till you know what time... fatigue work it is...today is the commissioning day for the 67/07 batch of OCT.. one chocolate bar on their shoulders liao.. so proud of Weiyi..(p.s. thanks for the ang bao haha) see them marching out really reminds me of my SISPEC life... and the more i want to be like them.. cause is definitely not easy to pass the 9 mths... though i only left with 6 mths.. but i can see many challenges lying ahead of me already.. i really need to clear them all and stand proudly infront of my family and friends..i really want to make them feel proud of me.. and of cause cannot let those commanders who took me before down.. going towards pro-term i just hope i can adapt and adjust better to OCS life... duno is the lack of rest or i really becoming weaker already, my performance was aint as good.. my drive and and motivation seems to have run away too.. i just hope they can come finding me back, or at least let me find them back...

And i need to be less whinny (duno does the level of whinny-ness comes with age), less vulgar (trying to control my watda f*** and u know what) and more lady-like (yes, my mama will be very happy to see me turning to one fair lady) ha.. yes, in OCS, new character development, more discipline, more leadership, more initiative...i really do pray i can do well just like how i did in SISPEC or even better.

After the marathon, have not been going for any recovery run..(And yeah, i'm proud to say i completed it haha -unbelievable but true-) and duno if it was the reason for me to not be able to sprint as fast as i use to.. mayb my age has caught up with me, mayb eating too much of chips and slacking after ROC i've become a weakling... I really didnt expect myself to be that lousy.. i really need to pull up my socks real high.. i need more discipline to run and self-train.. so anyone out there who wants to run over the weekend, please please and i say again PLEASE call me to come train with u okie.. regardless weights or runs... i need to be FIT once more!!!

Okie here comes the annoucement and the sounds of many curse!!! i need to get changing and fall in for more fatigue work!! May i book out tonight and join Ah cheow and the rest for graffiti!!! Tmr is a shop for dress day!!!=( (And my legs are gone from the mosquitoes bites in SAFTI MI)

2007-11-29T11:55:00.000+08:00

Okie.. made some adjustment to my blog.. i hope it gonna stay like this for long and not giving me anymore trouble... Sat will be my first reporting to SAFTI... scary i guess... gonna start blending in with ppl who've already go thru the thick and thins for like more than 3 mths or more.. I just hope i can make it thru.. once again, all alone.. beloved ladies and gentlemen all returned to their beloved unit.. I just hope i wouldn't screwed up this time round!!! I really thank all from SISPEC.. thanks for all the good times and encouraging times.. you guys make me what i'm today.. will nv ever forget my home in SISPEC!!!

Yup, gonna be trainee for a good 6 mths.. starting all the way from scratch again.. and cannot get my bonus once more... new challenges new obstacles... so dear lord, once again, do show me the way and guide me through everyday.. i guess is gonna be a critical 6 mths... and is not gonna be like SISPEC.. gonna be able to adapt to the culture, values and do my very best!!!

Been on leave for a good 4 days... catch up with old frens, which was really good.. since the day i enlisted, i've like been lost touch with the outside world ha.. been missing out not only shopping but also movies.. that's why this good 4 days leave allow me to get my life back to norm a little.. Have watched pretty interesting, funny, romantic movies from youtube (i noe a little outdated, but who cares=x) This two are my favs->Saving face and imagine me & you(p.s. its a lesbian show) if you're uncomfortable with gays getting very intimate den pls dun watch it.. anyway is not RA or porn... Page one at Vivo is a real nice bookstore.. i spend abt 82 bucks on books just 2 days ago.. is really a shop worth visiting.. many interesting, inspiring and sweet books.. Yup, and i think i'm deprive from childhood, i actually got myself a vintage gram book-> collection of 275 fairytales, but it was interesting to get to re-cap all the childhood stories once more ha...

Alrt.. Sun gonna have marathonbut i guess, i'll just die for good during the run.. how crazy right? didnt train and just take part in the run... i just hope i can complete before 8 hrs.. if not the finisher t-shirt will be just gone with the wind.. darn!!! pray for me that my legs can at least carry me all the way till the end point (*keeping my finger twist and cross)

Leaving on a Jet plane

2007-10-20T13:03:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. am gonna leave for taiwan when the clock strikes 0230... Yup, many have ask if i'm excited.. but i guess words cant really put down how i really feel.. is super mix kinda feeling.. mix salad, mix rojak.. is just super mix ha..

And before we book out yst, got a long long briefing from TO, medical officer and our warrant officers.. The introductory to the Snakes, mountain heights, pot holes and unfamiliar terrain in taiwan is really gonna be a huge huge challenge to me... i really praying and hoping tat i can make it through.. and i noe is not gonna be easy... My former OC scolded me for not having enuff confident in myself, coz he believes that i can do it, as many batches also done it, since like 1996... and he really did a lot to help me in many many ways from then till now... i really appreciate it..(and i really dun wan to let him down)... but come again.. is really gonna be tough... i can forsee how shag everyone is gonna be... i really preparing for the worst but hoping for the best ha.. I cannot lost this battle!!! Ai Zai!!!

Dear lord, I pray that everyone will be free from injuries and watever accident tat can happen in taiwan training.. I pray that all of us can survive through the training and make it for our R&R and back to Singapore in ONE FULL PIECE!!

Anyway, i wanna take this chance to thanks all my frens and in-charge who gave me their best regards!!! and injected some confident booster into me(You know who u are!) I'll take care of myself!!! You guys too alrt... we shall meet soon after my return... dun worry, will rmb to get all of u small tokens from taiwan ha!!

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Eh, went to meet up with Ah ma, joycelyn, adeline and dan... really nice to see them once once more.. they're now busy with their course.. lotsa tests and studying to be done.. sometimes i wish i was with them.. (one will always see the field at the other side is greener) sometimes i'm glad tat i didnt join them.. for they noe, i sure die of horrible death in their course haha... mayb being in the field is more of my profession... but i really cant cant deny, how much impact they made in my life.. they are really my best best companion in my army life... And thanks Dan for ya little spongy box and gingy(they're coming taiwan with me haha)

And Happy Birthday to my PTI-> Khairi and Running companion-> Tay Big Lung (Zhen Da Fei) Great to meet up with u guys too before i leave... As usual, underwear are being torn in this birthday.. but too bad, Jel the bra-messer not there, so Big Lung was somewat spared haha... but nonetheless it was a cool celebration.. The Fish & Co. birthday cheer, i must really learn.. it sounded so like Echo war-cry.. ha Coincidentally, also happen to saw many long-lost ppl.. like Ruiping, her gf and her mama... as well as Big Serene.. It was a fun day afterall=) Thank friends for making my life beautiful!!!

This bring me back to many horrible bombs and diasters happening around the world.. somewhat, it make me really ponder if Singapore can still remain as peaceful as today.. is really scary.. u see bombing here, activists there, then come the terrible terrorists.. damn.. i really duno how long Singapore can maintain its order and peace.. I hope is gonna be lifelong.. coz if not, i really duno how can i really play a part in protecting my homeland! Anyhow.. taiwan here i come!!! Till next time den...

Hectic and sleep deprived

2007-10-07T14:09:00.000+08:00

Yup.. a lot of valuable weekends have been burnt.. no time to meet up with frens and limited time spend with my family..And ppl can actually call into 98.7FM saying that they're actually doing nothing over the weekends and enjoy doing nothing over the weekends.. damn.. i just feel like shooting them.. but lucky, i was still given the time to meet up with Shilin and Maggie after a very long time for jap cusine.. we ordered freaking lots.. and first time ever we cannot finish our food haha.. More of eating out alrt, pals...

This week has been a damn hectic and tiring week.. i'm really surprise that i can endure and persevere through..But my mama was after hearing my whinning was like going again-> "See lah, told u dun join the army already, call you go join the logistic, then u wouldnt be suffering so much, having just one day book out".. Sometimes after hearing her say, of coz will question myself again why i join the army haha.. but there's still the fun times and the not so.. And is a real test and challenge to me, to see if i'm capable to become a real leader and a real soldier.. So i should not let those tiring days or difficult times pull me down... The next few days will be challenging before i leave for taiwan on the 21st Oct... I just hope the 3 weeks can just fly pass real fast.. and ta-dah POP...(*keeping my finger cross)

Yup.. last week i guess my sleeping hrs nv exceeded 10 hrs.. But at least the major event like the 32KM route march (walk like u nv walk before) and platoon live firing (chiong upslope like you nv chiong before)have been completed.. So now left with the bigger challenges like Grandslam which starts tmr and followed by the ulitmate ironman challenge->ROC..(chiong again like u nv chiong b4 and the worst of all casuavac) Just hope tat i can go thru and pass my accessment in all weather.. As u know the weather and climate now is freaking unpredictable.. at times it can just burns u to death and at times it can drench u up and make u go into cold turkey...And my oc always like to say, "we'll not compromise training standards due to weather, cause as a soldier, you train and fight in all weather".. And yea, it sounded cliche.. and like those typical guardsman-> ready to strike and ready to fight day and night.. And the upcoming week, which is bloody tmr, heard from my buddy that my PC is so gonna squeeze me dry during my field camp.. and i just hope i can take up the test and not prove to be a fuck up freak... coz i'm kinda a screw up freako ha.. And now, all my bestest ladies companion have all gone back to their unit for good, leaving the only Infantry spects here.. i really miss them.. cause with them around i know, things will gonna be just fine.. coz they always look after my back.. And yes, i know, is time for me to learn to be independent and not dependent... i muz learn to take care of ppl rather den ppl taking care of me all the time.. coz is really hard, when u are physcially and mentally tired, u still have gotto get things run and not show ur tiredness... Though being camp instructor before, u learn to take care of a group.. but is somewhat different from army... Or mayb as u get older, u get self-fish ha.. I duno man.. i think there's a lot of things i need to improve to become a better leader/commander..

But yay, really happy that i've gotten my CSB badge.. at least the uniform dun look so plain... the 32km for me was much better den the 28k in BSLC haha..the ntu route realli kills or mayb deep heat really helps ha...Hmmm, mayb i have a darn supporting and encourageous platoon too... thanks man!!! I do thank god for tat too.. coz as always the last few km to completion is always the killer.. a lot of mental work there..In this current coy, there's still much adjustment to be done.. though is like almost 6 weeks or so already, but still i cant deny tat i miss my BSLC coy.. my oc, pc, platoon and sergeants.. but it was always very comforting to see them ard or just drop by and talk to them.. and i guess they're a large part of motivation for me to do my best... With Pride i lead... may i pass out of ASLC with pride and glory.. *ENDURE!

And yess.. today is my best pal birthday!!! Happy Birthday Shurong!!! (*this is if u ever come dropping here reading my entry haha) Wish u well and fine over at Aust. alrt.. I shall wait for u to come back and whine tog with me.. coz i've lotsa things to whine too okie haha.. And dun forget abt the Standard Charted run that we're supposed to do it tog yea!!!

Alrt.. time for me to sign off..
can u believe it.. book out this morning at 0630 and book in later at 2100... welcome to my life!!! Cheers to myself and aslc!
FIGHT ON!!!

"The true measure of your success is not in the number of achievements, but the number of obstacles you have overcome along the way."

i need to hang on

2007-09-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

Spent my four days at Delta... first day was not really good.. was darn screw up as a lsm.. and i think i didnt perform up to standard, though i must say, i've really really tried my best.. nonetheless, it has been pass down to the nxt guy ha.. yay is finally over.. and i'm truely relieve of it.. being appointment holder for the start, end or field camp period is the worst of the worst... Alrt.. 6 weeks of section and platoon training, i'll be moving on to taiwan on Oct for ROC...is gonna be damn fast but it also gonna be darn enduring and painful.. i must say aslc is not gonna be easy.. a lot of mental and physical demands..

And being in the new company, has made many of my formal coy mates depressed enuff.. and to add on to the depression, our weekends are all gonna be burnt out... but seriously.. i wish and want to get my CBS badge as well as complete the course outstandingly and pass out with pride.. i really hope my mind and body wouldnt break down.. coz all the upcoming event is really gonna be alot of breaking the limit and surviving at the breaking point... i really need to hang in there and stay strong.. Yup.. formally and officially recognise as senior leader and a corporal.. but the rank/beret doesnt come tat easy.. so is gonna be the three strips or the hope of the chocolate bar.. We'll made to fast march 4km to Spectator's hill before dawn, to have our beret presentation.. it was definitely a memorable and unforgettable experience.. coz the hill is steep enuff for one to get so breatheless and the view up there is darn nice..so somewhat the hardwork of u climbing up does paid off..

Once again i really thank all my frens who showed me their support.. i really appreciate it.. all your supportive, motivating and comforting words will stay with me and help me along to pull through these tough times!!!

Quote of the day:
"The difference between the possible and the impossible lies in one's determination".

I need a lot of Quote to build a strong mental nowadays haha..

random

2007-09-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

After so long.. finally got to see my best pal online and get a glimsp of her hair on the webcam.. am realli excited to see her back during Dec... happy to see tat she's still doing pretty fine over at Aust... realli miss her man.. she's like my best partner almost for everything.. realli feel a little empty when u dun get her around..

alrt.. tmr reporting already.. i just hope i'll make it smooth sailing... must do it. can no longer let myself down anymore.. so lord, pls give me the strength to endure thru all the way nv give up... nv say die..

Very random.. heard from 98.7fm, the two djs was discussing where's the best place or things to do to nurse a broken heart.. and one of them said HK.. coz u've got retail therapy.. and those hk ppl are shows strong individualism.. and France is the worst place to nurse a broken heart.. coz everywhere u go, u see couples kissing and hugging.. too romantic..i think b4 u can even get ur heart nurse, u already been dead for committing suicide due to depression.. And there came another dj who says, why spend so much on a getaway to nurse ur broken heart, just bury urself with work... it allows u to earn money instead of spending it all off and get so broke... To me, if i realli heart broken, i guess i'll just exercise the hell out of me haha.. cycle, run, climb.. watever to sweat all my pain out haha Let the lactic acid sour me all up

Okie.. time to rest for tmr's battle...
Hope for the best yet prepare for the worst!!!

Tmr will be a better day!*pray

Thank god i have them as my frens.. it was truely a blessing that words cannot explain...
shurong// give me a reason to believe. says:
nvm! i believe u can do it!
shurong// give me a reason to believe. says:
jia you k!
shurong// give me a reason to believe. says:
i have faith in u!!

MURDER. love should go to IMH says:
i'm giving you my moral support for training
MURDER. love should go to IMH says:
when you're about to give up
MURDER. love should go to IMH says:
think about my big wide smiley face saying "WEEKENDS ARE COMING"

I love you my frens!!!

aslc time

2007-09-02T12:03:00.000+08:00

alrt.. its been really long since my last damn posting... been too lazy and too tired to log in... time flies.. with a blink of an eye, my bslc ended and all my beloved girlfriends are gonna return to their unit leaving just me alone to complete aslc... i was lucky to have Avril with me though.. if not i guess, i'll be in depression in no time.. tats why i always think that Avril is a damn strong girl.. she alone can complete her ASLC and bunk in the damn errie bunk..*salute

Lately not feeling realli good.. somewat screwed up my 28km march.. from the first man become the last.. how pathetic.. so wat if i've gotten the best pt.. i feel not deserving and ashamed.. though i did completed my march.. but darn.. i feel damn terrible to be the freaking last one.. thanks to the lactic acid which got my leg all cramped up and thanks to my poor mental for not pushing myself even harder... i just hope and wish and praying hard tat it will not happen for my 32km march.. i really dun want and dun wish to see myself as such a weakling/feeble

My ASLC will be conducted by Delta.. a well-known killer coy.. coz all the guardsmen are there.. i just hope i can survive thru... i'll really miss Foxtrot very very much.. not tat is a slack coy.. but they've a balance.. they train and yet welfare is there.. is really the best coy to ever be in.. moreafter you have all the nice sergeants, pc, csm and oc over there... But nonetheless, u've got to resign to fate too.. just gotto follow the path that is lay down for u.. i just gotto be mentally and physically prepared again for all the upcoming challenges.. i can see tat is gonna be fun but yet tiring.. mayb like the rest of the guys who kanna ASLC over at delta.. we'll cheer for our 6 pacs and all the taiwan chio bus haha

p/s: Dear lord, pls guide me thru and show me the light to complete and succeed in my aslc... I need to be strong again.. both physically and mentally.. stay with me and lead me thru...

updated!

2007-06-03T15:14:00.001+08:00

Okie dokie.. been ages since i last update.. just too lazy to do anything when i book out.. and during each book out, i always just seems to have lotsa stuff to settle.. not until this week book out.. i finally have a chance to play hard and enjoy myself..tonite booking in and tmr will be my IPPT.. and i realli thanks Haniff and Jel for taking their lazy sunday out to train with me... realli thanks a lot.. thanks for the advise by Haniff also...i guess i juz cant thanks the 2 of them enuff.. esp Jel haha.. thanks a a LOAD!!!

Yay.. after a long wait.. i finally gotten my Gingy.. and without spending a single cents lah.. count myself lucky today man.. and thanks to whoever that absently left it at the chilli counter or purposely left it there..

My Gingy!!!!
I want to watch Shrek 3!!!

Okie.. yst was a good day overall.. though morning have to wake up early for some NE programme over at Singapore Discovery Center.. And we are all told to wear Smart-4..

Yup.. look at the whole load of us.. waiting for the day to start..
Too Boring.. so started cam-whoring with Cindy haha..

Some family day event over at SDC.. so we decided to just pop by and join in the fun.. Irene Ang was hosting.. and the children are competing in some "you cant move, blink and breathe game" and dancing with the music from one end to another.. but it was darn funny when u get to see those kids doing funny actions and being comment by Irene Ang.. haha

After the SDC NE programme.. Gwen, Dan, Dan's girlfren and me went to Jurong Swimming Complex to tan and swim.. coz we realli cant stand our fair skin and uneven tone.. but in the end, Mr Sun didnt been helpful, i did not get much of a tan and got myself an uneven tan line.. After spending hrs at Jurong complex.. we say goodbye and headed on our separate ways.. I wanted to go running initially.. so went to jio Jel and Dora.. den jel replied asking me to go over Habourfront to watch the bouldering compeition...so i went down.. but was just a few seconds late and miss the ladies pros climb.. but lucky there's still the man's open category.. so here are some shots that i've captured.. And Aishah's boyfren->Hata is damn good.. completed 3 routes out of 4... but it was a pity, i didnt manage to capture him, as my hp was far far away=( at tat time...Jel and Aishah will be taking part nxt year.. i really wish them all the best and train hard girls!!! Do urself and us proud haha=)

This is the first route...
And i must say.. their route are all duper tough, so not easy at all.. but their singles that they issue.. is realli damn nice...

Here's the second route... incline wall and the starting requires climber to dino..darn cool..

Night view at vivocity rooftop..

The "pink tight" guy!!! my Idol.. he's just superb at Overhang!!!

Getting close to the end point(the tile box with black masking tape)
With not much effort..

Another Climber using sit-in technique

See the way they overhang.. Nice

Front view of route 2

For those who are interested to noe wat i'm doing in army.. here are some photos for u guys to explore and enjoy.. (Following photos are all edited and taken from my fren's blog)

Our Mini Army Snack Store!!!

Our admin time, this is wat we do best...

Maggie session.. yummy..

Cam whoring with our well-wrapped prickly heat=)

"man" of our COY!!!

The 4 "evils"

Nice pose aint it lol

In army.. the least u care abt is IMAGE..

You learn to fly in army..come join now haha

Sometimes u just need a little squeeze and squash to brighten someone's life ha

Yay.. the happy family shot=) sweet..

2007-05-13T16:44:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. same old routine.. booking out and booking back in again tonite.. But have lotsa fun over my book out period.. thanks to all my frens!!! Fri have so much FUN with my army frens as well as my sec skool pals!!! i guess is true.. this year is gonna be a year full of sec skool pals gathering.. coz everyone is having their 21st birthday!!! I hope there's still more of this kinda gathering to come after years.. coz the older u gets, the circle of frens juz getting smaller and smaller.. and u juz lost touch of what one another are doing.. is realli kinda saddening sometimes.. like for me.. since i book out nv even get a chance to meet up with my poly classmates.. except for my cca peeps.. and like wat daren's nick was saying->goodbye to youth.. i guess army can realli take away a lot of youth esp if u are a regular i guess.. coz u get stuck with them for years and ages.. and yes.. i'm feeling lost too of wat i want and wat i should achieve for myself...i guess i realli need to find a time to talk to PC regarding my uni issue... damn..

And yes time flies.. fast enuff tat in juz 3 more weeks time i'll be having pop and 24km route march.. afterwhich will be the killing sispec training where i can continue aiming for my six pacs haha alrt.. i duno wat shld i continue with... shall wait till i receive my field camp photos.. photos still does the best talking ha...

Yin yan's 21st...

Alrt.. candid shot.. all trying to get their position haha

Okie.. got it.. cheese!!

Alrt, now with the pink birthday lady!!

ha, cam whore alert!

yea one more time haha

Yin yan: thanks for the birthday invitation... ur cake looks sexy and i think we have lotsa fun hunting for hotdogs, eating ur dessert and cracking those lame games like back into the future, black magic and all haha!!

time out

2007-04-30T12:27:00.000+08:00

Tmr nite will be booking in...feeling->excited+scare, i guess i'm gonna get myself mentally prepared to expect Hell from the Sirs and Sergents upon my return.. And field camp is coming up.. 6 days outfield, pee, shit, sleep all outdoor in the jungle... is not tat i've not done it in da wild before... but shitting is gonna be a whole new experience haha, i pity the buddy of mind.. think she'll have to follow me to shit...oops! hope to see weiyi who's having her outfield too.. And yess.. after a "good" five days rest or recuperation, i'm darn sure the authorities is gonna make us charge like nobody business.. mind over matter again.. alot of psycho-ing i need to do... and lotsa sun baking with my long four too... But the life as a soldier is definitely fulfilling..like the st peter song, i earn my pay as a mighty soldier, living in a life full of fun and danger, coz you wouldnt pass each day with regret.. since u are always told to give ya best and do till ya max... so my frens and family members, dun worry abt me.. i'm doing good in the army.. though juz a short 2 weeks.. but i'm enjoying it.. and i'm prepare for the worst and also more fun..

But it was saddening to noe u have miss out a lot in the 2 weeks.. it seems to be a break up season.. but anyhow.. i realli hope couples can work their way out... all i can say is true love is hard to find.. cherish those whom you realli love and care abt..

alrt.. need to get my hair trimmed again.. scare i kanna ku-tu during field camp.. and no matter wat, short short hair is still the best..*breezy haha, but i wish i could shave bald... Oh i think i need to do some shopping!! ha

Independent girl that's what you are
Everytime I see you, you lool like a star
Don't mean to impose, I just wanna get to know you
Cause your such a princess...

mindless

2007-04-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

Okie dokie... i'm back for good...5 resting days before back to tekong again for the upcoming field camp... looking forward, but i expect the worst when i return.. coz the 2 weeks of so called "adjustment" week is over.. more tekan-ing and torturing will come i guess... Yupp like my fren's nick was stating the 2 weeks confinement was monsterous haha. but after all, the training and all was good.. Nice sergents and sirs... realli appreciate their kindness and tolerance level.. Of coz nice to have a bunch of helpful nice girls to keep me accompany in camp... realli glad to have noe them.. Though we're all of diff vocation and background..thank girls for making my stay in army enjoyable haha..

Alrt.. i seriously duno wat i shld blog abt.. juz seems to have lost touch with the tv set, laptop, newspaper, mags, radio, fashion.. feel so like a mountain turtle seriously.. and my grandma juz pass away last week... and i did not make it back for her funeral... things juz seem to happen like the speed of light or a tick of a second.. it was scarely when u juz happen to think abt it.. coz the least u expect it to happen it happen... same applies to my NTU application.. tot i wouldnt be able to enter... and den comes the letter.. budden i cant commence this year and need to apply again nxt year.. was realli f***ing irritating.. duno why cant they juz reserve a place for me nxt year!!!Sigh.. Now i juz think i gotto continue to pray hard to do well in army as well as for my nxt uni application...

i never saw it coming
but i wish to steal ur heart, ur glance, ur everything
but come again, i wish i dont fell hard for you.

TENTH

2007-04-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

Okie.. mayb is that i forgot to pray or my prayer aint sincere enuff... the unexpected finally come true... my enlistment date have been push to an earlier date.. from friday the 13th to tuesday the 10th... Is that a good thing or bad.. i seriously dun even noe how to comfort myself.. But i swear, once i get the news of getting in early.. i'm anxious and nervous... and the biggest part of it is of coz feeling damn sad.. coz i'll be missing my last 4 episodes of Parental guidance.. den all my nice tv shows like 2 weeks of ugly betty and the weekly desperate housewife, CSI MIAMI, Survivor... arrrgh dammit! Though on the other hand, it is good that i can run away from the everyday admin work and sitting in the office 24/7.. but i duno.. feels that like i'm not prepared at all.. like everything juz come rushing towards me.. With the marking of the start of toh-ah-toh (BMT).. it will be an open chapter to my army career.. i seriously doubting my ability to survive in there and thru it all.. though i noe, no matter wat, i die also muz go thru it for the nxt 4 years...No turning back no giving up... forging ahead is my motto...

Sigh.. God bless me man...I hope it will be a good one for me!*wave goodbye

preparing to set off

2007-04-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. this week is basically a short week.. only 4 working days.. Yay!!!! Realli thank god that people do celebrate Good Friday... But how i wish Good Friday is celebrate weekly.. den ppl wouldnt suffer from monday blueness=( ha Alrt, one cannot be so greedy..

One Sat ago, dated Sok to Pasir ris park to cycle.. planning to make a free-from-fly-and-fall record for Sok cycling experience... but in the very last part, Sok still fell.. but at least this time she didnt fly for a yard or a mile away... I muz say Sok has brush up quite a lot on her cycling skills.. she can even conquer the stairs route and control the bic better now.. But her problem now is dealing with her braking... she juz dun use the braking system to brake ha... More training okie Sok.. U muz conquer ur fear and we can go long dist. cycling okie!!!

Alrt.. after 2 hr plus of cycling back and forth and around the park, we decided to return the rented bic and go for a good wash up of ourselves, after staining ourselves with all the grease, oils and dirts... And den.. we headed down to Bedok for The Blackboard... it was nice.. though the serving aint as much as Botak Jones but overall not too bad... worth the money and a try... And Sok.. do rmb to bring me to eat at gardens when i book out or sth...=) Okie.. muz go back Ikea for the soft ice cream too.. is realli very nice, Yummy...

The Blackboard...

Helping Sok to fix her bic chain

Is not the Zoo.. but one of the horse riding club at Pasir Ris.. cool huh!

How i wish tat it was MINE OH MINE!!!

Okie.. juz look how heavy i am.. Weight losing program needed=x

Ha okie.. Do i look strong here.. I bet!

Sok juz love horses haha
*Note the 2nd pic is Sok taking her "JIN MA JIANG"

Sok and her Fruit basket haha

Last Sat, went Ice climbing with shurong.. had immense fun and pleasure.. great bunch of people we get to know... from divers to trekkers...of coz the credit of ice climbing event goes to Sok.. thanks for telling me abt the ice climbing event organised by the New Paper.. And i heard there's Gourmet one too.. so mayb we can sign up for that the nxt time round hee
Sadly, we forgotten to bring our cam along.. so no photos.. need to wait for one of the member to send it to us.. as we took a grp photos using her cam ha.. And i muz say.. Ice climbing is super taxing to the forearm.. mid-way of the climb.. i can feel the muscle of my forearm hardening and aching already.. and once u get down.. u can feel the lactic acid tat have been built up in ur muscles.. but nonetheless.. it was a real cool experience... even if it breaks my arm.. i still think is worth trying and going for it!!! The ice axes and the crampons.. Cool--

Now i'm looking forward for diving and motor crossing...

Thanks Aud and shurong for taking the time out to accompany me for the muay thai match=) It was an eye opener for me, hope it does for u guys too...

Okie.. Nxt week Friday da 13 will be my enlistment day.. hope there's no changes to the date.. coz one of the guy told me, my enlistment may switch to the 10th.. i juz hope it doesnt.. if not my mama cannot be there already.. coz she has already taken leave on the 13th.. So i am praying hard, the dates dun subject to changes... Regret to say.. my army buddies found out of my hatred for Tou gay.. and guess what they say.. they say on my 21st birthday, they're gonna prepare a tou gay cake for me.. omg.. i realli cant imagine.. (ppl, pls do not take this as an idea to sabo me on my 21st birthday.. i seriously wan to have a memorable one ha) And today i juz get to realise tat tou gay can actually be used to cook soup.. lucky i have James ard to help me finish tat bowlful of tou gay soup..Eeeeeek I juz hope i dun face so much tou gay dishes during my training.. if not each day will be a miserable one.. tou gay realli spoil my appetite coz with them ard.. my eating pace dropped by half or even more.. so are the peas and tou pok.. i juz hope farmers cant grow them and these food will just extinct for good.. i seriously dun understand why some ppl can actually labelled tou gay as a damn nice food... and praise that it goes well with chicken rice.. I guess only Eddy and I agrees that tou gay is the worst food ever grown on earth...*detest

Today went running with Aud to Puggol end.. den have a litt adventure where both of our shoes stain grey with muds... yup, how great.. becoz we are two curious kids who want to cross the lake and go over to some wu-lu bridge...ta dah.. tats wat we get.. getting ourselves itchy, scratchy as we pass thru spider webs, and getting ourselves sandy ha... But nonetheless, it was darn cool!!! after TAS i seldom get to do adventure like water trekking and all.. it was realli a great experience!! And i'm happy to find another crazy pal who love to do crazy things like me... yay ha!

finish up

2007-03-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

Eh... today was a busy day for me, after like 3 days of resting and slacking.. but i think i did not realli get those work that needs to be done, done.. so yup.. my 3 days was like come to a waste.. By this weekend is gonna be my deadline, i muz realli finish all tat i need to do, like sending my results and all those shit. Counting down.. 20 more days to go or izzt lesser..and should i say YAY.. my turn for BMT!!! Looking forward though.. but still scare.. scare the physical part.. scare the mental too.. i juz hope god will be there to guide me thru every thunder and storm.. so that i can walk on water like St Peter.. Juz dun wan to stress myself over being the fittest or getting the best trainee award.. though the title realli sounded WOW!!! For me i guess, juz need to stay focus and pass thru the whole thing till SISPEC come into play...

It's gonna be an adventure as well as an experience for me i guess... i just wish this could be the best part of my life ha.. a memorable one with pride and with glory...And army is realli like another phase of TASIC .. and i realli wanna do it a good one this time.. giving my everything and push myself to the limit or even break it.. Cause in TASIC i guess, i did not push and give my very best.. I realli wanna see when i'm put into all those shit, how far i can go.. do i QUIT or do i hang in there even till my very last breathe.. so i guess.. my life in the army is gonna determine who i become... a stronger aizhi or a weaker one... I juz hope i can learn to be a better person... Excited really haha..

Alrt.. this week passed like lighting.. tmr is FRIDAY already... and Sun gonna have rowing.. and i confess the thoughts of switching team is getting into me... attendance problem is getting serious esp during weekdays training... i may not have the right to say much, since i've already graduated and stay near to the training ground.. therefore skipping training for me is a NONO... But somewat, what makes training fun and worthwhile is that u get to have your teammates training with you and you get to see them around. But for my club now.. it aint the case.. weekdays attendance was so darn poor.. is realli a handful and i mean it... mayb tight school schedule is a big problem.. but nvm.. i guess everyone in the team all have their own aims and objectives to meet.. therefore one cannot force them to come down for training because of what one want them to do... Sigh.. i realli hope to stay as positive as possible.. i realli dun wanna see my team split and den gone forever..

Okie.. she was realli stunning.. almost so close to perfection...she looks like the sea-hawk girl.. or is she prettier? Maybe she was my motivation to wake up earlier juz to stupidly catch that same bus as her... okie.. wat am i thinking.. i dun even know her... but damn.. she really wow...ok... i dun wish to play with the thing call fate... it burn me once, i dun wish to be burn twice.. alrt.. i'm muttering crap... she's just an eye-candy=)

When you see fate, you see chance...
When you lose fate, you lose chance...
and yes i mean it.. once you lose it.. you can never find it back..
Is gone forever..
So take the chance to be sweet or lose the chance and be bitter like me=)

okie watever.. bitter gourd is still my fav veggie...

darn

2007-03-14T10:29:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. juz viewed my result... seriously i feel like crying... the grades was unexpected... but at least i passed all.. But the most disappointing part was my bloody graduating GPA.. i duno i can actually did so badly for this very last sem.. My GPA nv even hit a good 3.5.. so is like below average!!! Screwed so screwed!!! I noe i shld be happy that i no need to have to repeat for another sem.. but i realli didnt expect myself to score so awfully!!! darn seriously...

Now my dream of getting into a local Uni can juz vanish or gone with the wind... And i recently juz re-summited my NUS choices and putting medicine for my 1st choice.. but now as i see my graduating GPA.. i think i'm no room for any of their consideration... what's done is done and what's over is over.. for now all i can wait is for their envelope of rejection or acceptance.

If miracles do happen.. mayb i'll still have a chance=x

hope it continue to be good

2007-03-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

It's been some time, since i log into my blog and msn haha.. my day job somewhat take up a lot of my energy, making me lethargic to do anything after i come home. TV is all i've got to get my daily life going for now. Cause i'll miss it very much once, i'm enlisting into BMT in 13th April.. in a way YAY, i can get away from OFFICE job the sucky 0800-1730 job.. but 2 weeks of confinement and only weekends to book out.. seriously, i'll miss my db trainings, my frens, my family but most importantly all my new season shows like desperate housewife, prison break, grey anatomy, heroes... Darn!!!

Anyhow, life's been good still in tekong.. slowly adapting to it already... new guys joined the company... one of them is a magician somemore.. and the other look like a damn fit gym instructor.. i can say, we are all from different trades.. And i feel that i'm like Jel now.. always sticking with group of guys.. Sorry Jel for labelling u as despo haha.. Now i seriously understand that you have no choice!!! Sorry gal...

Tmr results will be release.. i seriously damn scare.. juz dun wish to see that i screwed it all up.. i realli dun have any confident.. but in the other hand i still wish for miracles to happen.. DO make me pass.. realli cant afford to spend another half a sem and delay my BMT... so i seriously hope tmr wake up i can see something good.. at least a PASSED!!! Esp for my LSSS, Proteo.. arrgh.. like almost everything.. And yess, with the results release, we are officially considered diploma graduates.. some of my beloved frens have already gotten jobs.. and i realli wish them luck in whatever they do. For me, i think working life is definitely super diff from studying.. i somewhat miss my poly days.. of coz minus away those exams and proj period.. life's been like a breeze i guess... In working society mayb you can somewhat run away from exam stress and proj deadlines, but i guess there's other exterior pressure tat juz drain you more than those hell proj given by the worth-to-be-shot lecturers. And i can say the long working hrs and the everyday muz report kinda rules are the killers.. at least lectures u still are able to pon and u have your lovely frens all with ya passing the day.. during work, i guess is so much of individuality..

For me i guess army life still kinda relax..coz one juz have to bear in mind two words-> KEEP FIT the onli stressing and worrying period would be IPPT i guess haha.. Coz till now i still cant realli do much chin-ups (my weakest link).. i juz hope to slowly progress and get better in building those muscles group that i needed to juz get my chin above the bar and at least doing it for a good 12 times or even more!!! And i muz say, army life is like going through another TASIC for me... i think one juz have to follow instructions, act and do accordingly, dun ask much questions and endure, preservere all the way... i guess, i'm better a follower and not a thinker... mayb perhaps i can save my brain cells and not go senile at young age...

For now again.. i need to be discipline and go self train and run regularly... long or short.. who's training do call me... having any physical activities also call me.. i need to train hard before i enter the gate of hell haha

Oh tmr i muz show that bloody man that i can actually carry heavy goods okie.. how dare u look down on me!!!! i mayb short but i'm fit.. i guess at least fitter than u!!! Hump
I think it was because of having this kind of arrogant guy ard.. so, turning lesbian is a right choice!!!
Stupid fool -angry-

tekong

2007-03-02T20:38:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. 1st of march was my reporting day as well as my first time where i landed my foot at SAF FERRY TERMINAL and TEKONG... wake up darn early and thought i was juz going there for a short briefing or sth.. in the end, it ended up to be my first working day at TEKONG BMTC HQ and i miss Irene's birthday.. realli sorry Irene!!!.. And by having my head in the cloud most of this time, i actually forgotten to switch my hp to a non-cam one and have my beloved Ericsson being detained and locked up behind in ferry terminal check point... and yes.. i lost all my points of connection with my frens.. I'm realli sorry to irene and all who waited for me and trying to contact me on the day itself.. It was realli sucks for me over there too.. coz i cant rmb any of ur nos. and there's like no phone there for me to use either.. realli sorry again=(...

Today is my second day.. life there is realli boring.. coz is OFFICE WORK!!! which i realli hated.. i realli wish to do BMT now.. i rather die of physical toture rather den boredom or even office work... i realli cant stand 0800-1730 job... it was realli somewhat like back to my attachment days.. where i sit there and wait for task to assign to me.. i juz hope my days will get better.. coz i'll be working there daily till JUNE.. where my bmt starts... Arrrghhh.. why the 7 ladies muz report so late... in june.. if not i can join the april bmt and my life wouldnt be so bitter i guess.. coz by den those guys of the same batch will be already passed out and posted to SISPEC... darn... But i still miss attachment period more.. coz we have badminton.. and i have mingli and my lovely supervisor and colleagues to chat with.. for me now.. once those guys are gone, i'll be damn jia lat already...no one to go home with and all.. super sian lah.. juz dun wish to talk abt it.. But i guess the good thing about army is welfare ba.. ur welfare are realli well looked into.. thinking of attachment time, i miss the honeydew, soon kueh, si zuan cai over there as well as the agar agar haha...

Anyhow, i juz wan to maintain my fitness before my bmt starts... dun wan to die sia.. coz i guess in army esp infantry unit.. most officers will look into ur fitness... so i muz realli stay fit and keep fit.. it not my life in army will be 3 words->DIE... But anyhow, i'm lucky enuff to noe the same batch of JPOLY scheme guys.. one of them look like sze wei and the other look like suhardi haha.. but talking to one another.. we all realised tat we all joined army for diff reason.. some regret, so juz wanna finish the bonds and collect the money and run, while some yearn for the 2nd prenium plan and seeing army as a career path for the rest of their life til retirement..for me i seriously duno, after listening to their ambition and thoughts... there's realli alot of choices and decisions i'll have to make along the way.. guess for me would be one step at a time.. no point thinking so much and having many wisdom hair haha For now.. like wat my dad says, i'll get use to the daily travelling to tekong and used to the working style over there.. I shall learn to enjoy tekong's life as well as their house rules over there too...

Cheers for me!!! and Praise to the lord, jesus christ!!!

cant runaway anymore

2007-02-28T16:23:00.000+08:00

XP's grandma passed away on the day of my grandma's birthday.. and i just read her blog entry.. was the saddest post i've ever read i guess.. and it definitely left me with some impact... i noe when someone u love so much suddenly leave u, is juz too hard to accept the fact or the turth... Though my grandma is still with me, but i dun share the closeness of wat xp has with her grandma.. i realli starting to doubt and question myself now.. izzt each time i refuse to care and show my concern and try to be close to her, is becoz i scare to face the day whereby she'll left me.. I dun sing to my popo like wat xp did.. i dun talk to her often or even look at her for even 1 hr each day... Yup.. many might say, how terrible or incorrigible granddaughter i am... always using projects, presentations, outings, tv programme as an excuse, to realli sit down side by side with my grandma spending time with her...

I nv know how to cherish...i always like to drive those people who realli cared for me away.. and i always refuse to go near, always putting up a tough look or a heck-care face to juz mask off wat i actually feel inside.. i'm not good with words, not good in expressing myself, sometimes i juz feel so useless tat, i'm feel like i'm better off dead or not exist in this world.. i noe there's still time for me to correct myself.. since my popo is still ard.. but i duno why, i always choose to run away.. choose to run away from seeing her gaping for air, seeing her needed to use that gray machine sitting at the end of the bed to help her breathe.. always refusing to sit right opposite her to have breakfast, lunch or even dinner with her.. i guess i'll juz breakdown when i see her not in a pink of health but in fragile health.. wat each time i can do was to pray for her in the silence nite.. juz hope she can stay with me for as long as she can... but i noe that's nv enuff.. i realli wish to be strong.. be strong for myself and for my family... i dun wish to always be the ostrich tat choose to run away all the time and hid myself in the dark tunnel or cave hoping that no one will see me...

Sometimes, i realli duno wat i'm scare of.. sometimes i guess, i juz give myself unneccessary stress that realli get myself under perform...i realli hope from the lesson i learn from xp.... i'll learn to be there for my popo and not regret...

Killer P-O-B-L

2007-02-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

Today external presentation.. kanna shot with tough questions.. nv expect it coming at all.. Mag did most of the answering.. i seriously damn stress and scare... darn.. Though Dr Koh is nice.. saying tat we still did pretty good.. but i dunno.. after hearing so much from the other lecturers abt the Prof.. i feel so dead.. why we so suay.. kanna such a tough woman... i juz hope she's lenient in her marks giving.. Arrgh... FYP sia.. cannot play play.. Pray hard for me.. and Lord, do hear my prayer...

I need to enjoy my holis...

slack is good

2007-02-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

Haven get over the new year mood... tmr comes the external presentation.. Woa.. How great...But once is done.. everything will be so gone and over and done with..YAY... but b4 the results are posted and release, i cant be too happy...I need a pass!!! This sem for me is realli the most retainable year.. I realli duno how to comment or say.. I juz need to pass and graduate!!!

Alrt.. after exams.. met up with my good old pals-> Sok and Shurong.. Brought ah rong to buy her army bag, zip locks and stuff at beach rd.. den went hunting for our new year clothes.. yup last min shopping ha...As usual going out with Shurong brings the rain haha.. And something worst... she did not brought the thunder.. but she brought us so much laughter that Sok and i had our face cramped while laughing at her very funny joke and actions haha.. She's always not with the same wavelength or frequency with Sok and I... Just the "Final Sales" thingy alone.. it can got me laugh till i wanna drop.. And then followed by her "kaya" thingy, just becoz Sok says she has butter fingers... Oh.. and her weird behaviour was not like her usual self.. coz she seldom has diff frequency with us.. but i think is her black bag curse... after she brought her black army bag at beach rd.. she go somewat ga-ga after tat haha...

After a long search.. sok gotten herself 3 tops and i miserably got myself onli one puma top.. and another for-fun Sponge Bob Tee haha.. And, poor shurong got herself nth for the new year... So Sok and I was like saying.. wat are u going to wear during New Year.. Is she gonna wear her black army bag and baja bag as her clothings haha... it was realli funny.. I hope she did got herself a top the nxt day... Anyhow.. Rong again brought us to eat a fabulous Korean Meal at millienum walk.. Filling and Cheap, service darn good too..It was realli NICEEEEE->Recommended haha And we'll planning so much for the coming slacking days b4 all of us officially start work or studying... I realli hope we can realli do it this time.. like camping out, food hunting and do other crazy and fun stuff tog... N say, u guys muz realli come visit me during my sad army days okie haha... I'll miss u all like crazy.. esp the food outside man.. I think my army life is so gonna be like a jailbird's =( But i seriously hope is not.. i juz hope is gonna be FUNNNN haha Oh.. i need to avoid Orange this year=(

P/s: Sorry Aud for ps-ing u again.. made u waited the whole entire nite and wasted so much money and time.. Realli realli sorry.... i seriously owe u alot for it... Really sorry=(

good luck for my external presentation and i need to run...

Okie.. this is the TAS ship...

My papa bike VS Aud's MTB
Yup.. since my red bike die-ed.. i'm using the pathetic basket bike of my dad's... but it was a comfy bike for long dist riding though haha (Now i noe why Ah Cheow nv complaints when she rode this bike haha)

Her backpacking frens did not wait for her.. and she looks sad haha

okie.. she lost them...

She decided to embark her journey to bugis without them..

Ah rong with her Zara Straw-hat!!! and her black army bag

Can u spot the catty... meow...

A cup of yoghurt after a run is SHIOK!

random...

2007-02-10T19:43:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. so gonna be posting up some random stuff again.. have been good, not getting too emo over some stuff.. But i realli wanna F*** the a*** peeps.. say wanna help me in the end still come back to the same conclusion->no guarantee.. so i also heck wat they say and go ahead with my Uni applications.. If i continue to wait for their "favourable" reply.. i guess i'll jolly well miss this year admission application for good... darn.. I realli super pissed off with their "efficiency". And i think i give myself a good name before i even enter the division lah.. Coz having me called them like almost 24/7... But i mean if they can settle things for me, i wont be an irritating bugger that keep calling and barking at them... Or perhaps is partly my fault too... i should have called them earlier in the month or year, b4 i decided to apply for uni... Watever.. i juz hope if the Uni accept me, i can get my leave and stuff...

For now juz hope my exam results will be good lah.. Not been studying man.. Procrastinating is wat i do best...I bet all my frens have completed all the chapters already.. and i'm still here...So dead, wasting my precious studying time away watching tv and blogging... Arrrrgh... i realli need some help in getting myself to even look at those notes and sit down infront of my studying table and study!!!Lord, do hear my pray.. get me to study.. last sem and i cant afford to retain!!!*Pray real real hard

Oh.. forgot to thank Dawn for her treat-> Ben and Jerry.. It was nice haha.. Thanks yea.. nxt time got pay le will treat u alrt.. tats a deal!!!=) Anyhow, yst was damn fun.. supposed to have db weights training yst.. den in the end was BB challenge haha.. wat can i say.. i think is more effective den weights training lah.. weights only train muscle but BB helps to train stamina, response as well as burning our fats haha but at the same time having lotsa fun.. it was realli good!!! I want to have more of it man... Into BB now.. cant wait to lay my hands on the Bball now... But i think i realli need to brush up my shooting skills... cannot shoot man.. is either air ball or over board haha... I onli can compliment myself for my snatching ball skills =X Last but not least, I hope everything will go on smoothly for all my test and exams in the upcoming week.. as well as my chinese new year and external presentation...

I need to get a haircut too desperately!!! Just cant wait for exams to be OVER!!!*ROAR

Helping my teammate to advertise this event:
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unpredictable

2007-02-07T11:31:00.000+08:00

Formal internal presentation.. We love strips ha

I realli think this Neoprint machine darn cool... Worth the money..

Heh.. Surf and sweat... I wan to join individual event nxt year man...Fun!

Darn cool advertisement poster for the Ministry of waxing at Cathay.. They realli wax all parts of ur body for all target men and women...

Alrt.. Sun went for surf and sweat.. was a good event.. nxt year muz realli go join again.. coz they not onli got good goody bags.. you get to see babes and hunks haha... Anyhow.. i realli thank, sissy, big lung and khai for running the last stretch with me.. pushing me all the way.. i almost die-ed seriously haha.. but i think the run was not bad.. didnt manage to see the results though.. juz hope i didnt dragged Khai down too much coz we were a team... Hmmm yup.. joining this event made me skipped db training once more.. and heard from Cap Aud.. training was xiong.. i realli gonna be in deep shit once i return.. dun even noe if i can row at their pace sia.. Later got land training too.. hope i can still maintained the fitness level like my last training ha...Oh.. and i'm darn happy.. think my leg recover already.. though yst muay thai training during the kicking still may hurt abit... but at least i can still run... heh=)

Yup.. yst finally officially return to muay thai training.. coz shijie jio me back.. And i was actually thinking of ps-ing de lah.. darn tired after the presentation thingy.. But i guess i cant come out with good excuses to tell her so i went.. but it was good training man.. yst first training, shijie brought me to run xiong route.. den keep doing sets... punch and kick till i realli become jelly hands and legs... but at least i have her to train me.. if not u'll see me slacking there watching ppl train haha.. I realli very thankful to shijie man.. for taking the time and the darn heavy pad to train me.. THANKS!!! And seriously, i need to go back more often.. darn weak sia...i realli desperately need to train up my fitness...

Yst also heard a bad news... Cindy's elder sister pass away... was realli shocked, realli cant bring myself to believe wat i've heard alrt..so went to her wake after muay thai... on the way there was thinking alot.. thinking of wat i shld say to her later or what i can somewhat do for her.. Coz the pain of losing someone so dear to you forever, i think is realli unspeakable... And i realli feel tat i'm seriously so blessed... at least i've a heathy body, good bunch of nice people and friends around me... and most of all, not losing any of my family members... So falling out of love or losing someone you love to another is realli nth at all as compared to losing someone like your slibings or any of ur family members forever.. Coz when u lose/lost that someone u love to another, at least u are still able to laugh or cry to urself and say, hey, i can always find someone new... But if u lost that someone forever, can u ever tell urself that u can find another him/her to replace the place that he/she used to have in ur heart... Life is realli so unpredictable... ppl around you can juz leave you without a word... i muz realli learn to cherish the people around me... For now i hope Cindy will continue to stay strong, though it may not be easy...

And i guess for the most practical new year resolution... i juz hope i can live my life to the fullest everyday so i wont live in regrets!!!

Kanna shot again...

2007-01-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

Alrty... today's BTN paper sux again.. but mayb better than LSSS... i'm still able to answer.. but duno izzt the answer to the question is another big problem... damn.. i realli cant come to a conclusion of why the lecturers suddenly all setting difficult papers at our critical level...juz like trying to make us all repeat their modules or sth.. None of us wanna stay back or repeat another Sem yea.. and seeing their faces all over again and worst of all studying the module all over again... I juz so hope that the lord will be with me till i graduate.. I realli dun wanna repeat LSSS...*keeping my finger cross..

After the damn bloody paper.. Shilin tot of a song that best describe wat CYC had done to us with his killer paper.. Yup, the song she came out was Britney Spears - You drive me crazy haha... I totally agree with her alrt.. He realli drive us crazy with this test 2...
With the change of lyrics.. this song dedicated just for CYC and best describe how being his student feels...

CYC, We just cant stand you
You've got that oil skull, what can we do
CYC, you spin us around,
oh with the damn paper you set,
made us just can't feel the ground
Everytime you look at us
Our heart's jumpin, you DOM
Knowing you is jin jia lat
That's the only word i can used

You drive us crazy
We just can't sleep
You so excited
And we're in deep shit
Ohhh Crazy,
And it feels shitty
CYC ur paper keep us up all night

Juz hope tmr summit presentation will be a good one... And for now till Feb 15 i muz love my lecture notes!!! Study!!!

Omg.. if she's realli a lesbian... i hope to join the quene in chasing her haha

LSSS killed me.. thank you

2007-01-27T00:57:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. today was the worst day of my life.. Sat for the worst paper ever i muz say... writing rubbish and drawing rubbish diagrams.. damn screwed.. I juz hope i can pass lah seriously..dun wanna repeat this module.. arrrgh... juz hope God will give me one last miracle...*pray hard...3 marks question i also have difficulties answering.. and the 10 marks one even worst..It was realli sucky alrt...Those i nv study all came out... wat da **** Sigh.. i realli duno wats wrong with me.. Mayb last min studying for me dun work anymore.. Mayb i'm juz too old to remember all the facts that i should rmb when i juz studied for one time and not 2-3 times... And i duno why lately i damn tired.. once i rest my head on my beloved pillow i doze off almost immediately... is not tat my morning activities are that tiring... mayb i'm developing cancer... Anyhow finally completed our FYP summit.. at least another task down.. Now left internal and external interview cum ppt haven do.. Mon got BTN test 2, Tues: summit presentation and Wed: IL2 pract test though open book.. but KTY being so scheme, also duno wat he's up to..mayb he did drops hint.. but i wonder will it help much.. Juz hope is not as sucky as LSSS come out the things i nv study and predicted.. i think nowadays lecturers also get smarter.. student try to study smart by predicting their questions but they're also all so smart enuff to set questions that are all so unpredictatable.. damn bloody hell.. Last year already still dun wanna spare us... I realli cant wait to graduate!!!

Yst also damn suay.. got my ankle twisted and pulled my ligaments or izzt tandem.. tmr need to go back and visit Dr Ah Pek or Uncle again.. i realli hope he can faster get my leg fix.. coz i wanna run and climb and swim.. with this unfix ankle i feel so paralysed in someway.. This year i think not a very good start...Aud got her hp swimming in the toilet bowl and i've got so many suay things happening to me.. pls get this omen that is surrounding me away.. I need some LUCK!!!

My dream cars...darn i need driving license..

Chevrolet Camaro Convertible

My Jeep

Darn cool lah...

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song I could sing
To ever try to win your heart
So what we once share the memories like a, shoebox of photographs

Loving is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
But sometimes i just have got to live my life in deceive
I'll tell you one thing its always better when you're with another
So cherish the time when you look at the stars when you're together
Yea, Its always better when you're with another
Cause there's no combination of me and you or you and i in your heart
And i finally know i lost it to both Mr chances and time

But all of those moments and dreams will disappear into the moon light
When the morning light sings
And brings new things
I'll be the brand new me, hopefully

long

2007-01-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

Thanks Aud, Yi Qian and Xiao pang for dropping by my hse for supper... it has been a long long time since i've guests haha.. hope i'm a great host =).. And most importantly hope u guys enjoy the food.. Thanks for tolerating my small house too hee... Anyhow.. today's is the first db land training at Seng Kang.. It was of coz more convenient for most of us.. coz we're all Seng Kanger haha... And this help to cut cost and time too.. esp for transport and travel time... I hope there'll be better weights and equipment for us soon... Congrats to our new appoint female and male captain-> Audrey and Pk... realli glad to have them as our leader.. coz i think they're the ones with lotsa commitments in pulling the teams together through steamboats or runs... Continue to keep up the good job guys!!!

Mon went to company Jel took her Napfa.. she did well.. zai!!! Keep it up girl!!! After which saw Bernard (Ex council) running when we were on our way to Mac for dinner... Man.. he's damn fit and discipline lah.. run everyday sia.. if onli i have that discipline alrt.. i always not motivated when it comes to running alone.. I realli hope i can learn from him so i can become fitter b4 i go into army.. So Aizhi not onli gotto study hard but need to keep fit till the end of army!! Jia you!!!

Oh i would like to take this chance to apologise to Judy and Woei Chyi.. Sorry for the last min ps.. coz need to rush FYP report so didnt manage to meet u girls for movie -> The last dance.. Glad to hear that u girls enjoyed the show... realli sorry.. Do meet up SOON b4 i'm so GONE haha

Alrt.. back to Sun.. it was our very first sea training too.. after a damn long break and rest haha.. And yay finally.. we get to re-visit Mr Sun and also to row again.. Realli happy.. Hmmm however, Sun attendance was not realli terrific.. Andy (db co-ordinator) was not realli happy with it.. coz like onli 11 ppl turn up.. he expected like 20.. And coach was not there too.. But we've lotsa fun still i muz say ha... So.. Peter (Overall DB Captain) led us for our rowing.. i muz admit.. after a long time of pausing.. juz rowing one lap i felt breatheless already.. weak=x Den we row and row.. very relax and in btw doing some sets.. den after which Jas suggested then can we try being a Coxswain.. since today so little ppl and is our first training.. So i was like going->Oh yes... Coxswain coxswain.. coz since i learn rowing.. coxswain is one of the skill tat i wan to pick up beside being a rower... So Peter was like.. yea.. he also have that in mind.. so yay.. he taught us how to be a coxswain and give all of us a chance to do it.. I realli wish to try it once more.. i hasnt do my stirring haha... Anyhow.. it was a damn good experience.. coz u are standing behind navigating the boat and leading ur ppl to the destination...

After everyone had tried their rowing.. some of us decided to go for a dip haha.. And Peter is damn kind.. he agreed.. and one by one, we all jump into the sea... Khairu was the one damn fit.. he nv wear life vest haha.. den Peter dare us to swim all the way back from the middle of sea to the boat loading area.. so the five of us who jumped were like.. OK!!!... den some of us took out the life vests.. coz is damn irritating.. hindering the way u swim.. den we swim and swim and swim.. it was damn shiok..water so cooling and coz it made it up for my swimming session on Sat which i skipped for the open hse of NTU...Wah.. i think i learn to love swimming again.. though my confidence and speed still not quite there ha.. Nvm i'll train harder... So i think we swim for abt 125m or more..coz is abt one buoy away... it was my very first time to swim such a long dist in one shot.. *proud haha

Sat as i said.. went to NTU open hse for physics and mathematics department.. Their labs was darn cool.. lecturers were all very friendly.. however.. the buildings there all sama sama.. Shuwen, Shilin and I lost when we get there haha.. But lucky we still have a little street smart.. or perhaps we all took Geo.. so noe how to read maps and navigate and re-plan our direction haha.. Now i guess, we all juz hope to get into Uni and study the course that we want!!!

Before i forget.. i better apologise to Jel too.. didnt turn up on Sun to visit Weiyi.. coz thanks to CYC assignment 4.. got all of us killed for good.. so long assignment duno for wat.. and so difficult too sian.. I juz hope i wont get karma man.. Coz i feel that when i'm in camp nobody will rmb and visit me haha.. And i cant believe i actually tell my mama she muz come visit me.. if not i'll be damn sad haha.. And of coz my mama was like.. yea lah.. of coz go see you lah.. will take off and call home more often.. And i swear..at that point of time, i feel like as though i'm going into jail or sth and begging my mama to come visit me haha But my mama is always so nice.. =)

Those DB uncles all anxious in preparing me for my army.. during training they'll order me like wat army officers will do and make me do wat army guys need to do.. it was kinda fun lah being ard with them.. coz u get to learn a lot haha.. But they seems to be more kan chiong den i do man.. And i rmb one of them asking me scare anot.. going army liao.. I was like of coz.. coz it's gonna be 4 years for me.. And the thoughts of losing contact with my fellow frens is realli damn saddening.. Imagine i cant go food hunting with Sok, rong and siuling, and meet up with my sec skool pals like Cheow, Anna, Sok yin, Ruiping, Ally, Woei Chyi, Judy, Serene, Amelia and many many more.. i duno how my life is gonna be like... And i'm so gonna miss my db frens too.. they're like my third family after my Secondary skool pals... And of coz all my Ngee Ann's pals.. sigh sigh... I juz hope we all can still keep in contact for as long as we live=) How can i elaborate further.. for now.. i juz wish to cherish every moment we shared and once shared...
p/s: Shurong.. start saving up.. rmb our cast away plan and our backpacking trip haha.. Sok wanna join us?
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I shouldnt love you and let the feeling take control of me...
I shouldnt see you instead i should turn and look away...
Each time i just fake and put on that bloody darn happy face...
And I dont know why i can put it up so well when i'm so not fine at all

I've told myself to make this feeling stop
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I cant help it
But am still sitting around, letting the one win
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go
But i still wanna believe that we can be together

I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
Its getting hard to be around you
Theres so much I cant say
Hiding the feelings and look the other way
And I'm scare that i might lose it all at once...
And Im wondering why Ive waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
Why am I waiting here...waiting here

And yay.. the news that i'm dying to hear has finally find its way into my ear... How great.. i'm so darn happy alrt... Yea.. she's gone for good.. thanks for telling me alrt, i appreciate it very very much... And i rmb i told Sok, Shurong, Aud and myself before that, once she's gone for good, i'll live to be a better person.. like someone who has had his/her cancer tumour removed and able to live a healthy life again..

Ha.. and guess what.. i'm ranting here, though i promise myself so much tat i wouldnt feel the pain or post any oh-so-depressing or pathetic kinda posting here.. But look.. what this bloody damn girl is doing rite now...I duno what i shld write or say.. i've already have a proper closure.. so Aizhi pls.. move on and get on with ur life.. forget abt those plans that you have long planned and wanted to carry out.. It's juz all so too late.. No point saying those words that you've left unsaid for so darn long.. It doesnt matter anymore.. coz she's juz gone... gone with the wind.. gone with the fire...

And stop asking urself those million questions that u'll nv get an answer for.. you've no one else to blame but urself.. Dun blame god for taking her away from you... Mayb she has once waited for you.. or mayb she juz dun feel the same way as u do through all this time..but..ultimately from the very beginning you didnt express or show any proper start.. so blame nobody but urself for letting chances to slip away again and again...Like what Big Lung and Jel says.. always prepare for the worst.. Well-said aint it.. But when it juz come to the worst can you handle it.. I tot all along i can... Coz to most ppl who noes me.. they'll see me as a garang, easy come and easy go person..someone who'll fight for wat she wants, juz go for it kinda person...And i duno where the hell that weak Aizhi come from.. and where's her fighting spirit gone to when it comes to loving someone..where is the easy come and easy go Aizhi... What can i say but to confess that, the real aizhi aint what everybody think she is.. she'll onli push alway what she wants and letting opportunities to pass her by.. and i muz admit.. i realli did a good job or shld i say an excellent job in pushing ppl away.. ppl i love... Alrt.. do i sound pathetic.. or not pathetic enuff.. I duno when will i start to learn to cherish every chances that i have got.. Anyhow.. i'm happy tat she's gone.. perhaps.. wats meant to be is just meant to be.. She's not gonna be mine.. The truth is always hard to accept.. but accept it like a man alrt, Aizhi! coz you've got nth to fight and win the battle.. The war is over and u lose for good.. Juz throw away all those plans that you have in mind or buried it behind the back of ur head...

Mayb for now, what i need is time.. time heals all pain aint it.. and i rmb, that was wat i always used to tell shurong and aud.. and yay.. this time, i using this phase for myself...And I'm not bleeding.. so I'll recover soon, i will...slp it away...

2007-01-19T00:29:00.000+08:00

After weeks of training.. finally napfa is over!!! Relieved seriously... still happy with my results though i shld have train harder and achieve better grades.. but for now juz wanna be fit till my army bonds end..if not IPPT sure DIE... Anyhow.. thanks to all my frens out there who encourage me during the tests and supported me in a way or another!! Thank girls!!! Good job to all too yea!!!

Today have EPM job prep interview.. was not as scarely or as tough as i tot it mayb.. i think our lecturer kinda nice lah.. show leniency and giving us all valuable advises. Esp for me.. i think his experience and words of advice for me in the army is specially important and valuable.. coz he's telling me some survival skills i may need to undertake to survie haha.. if not.. like wat maggie and david say.. Aizhi will be so "HOLE-LY" after army ha.. And i may also become a crippled.. Janet also advise me to buy insurance b4 going into army..so ppl out there.. do pray for me more often. may i be in one piece till my last breathe haha

Okie.. this few weeks will be another killer week... assignments and FYP and Exams.. No mood for Chinese New Year man... coz when CNY is near.. it means i'm gonna be packing up soon for tekong.. And yup.. i'm starting to cherish my time with my family... And.. i dun think i can go back muay thai any sooner.. damn.. ps my sijie lotsa time already.. i think she juz gonna hate me so much... arrgh..

Many have came to ask me about wat i'm going to do in my future... and i'm tired of answering.. and my cousins are not exceptional.. they are all so interested to know what my future life is gonna be and how i'm gonna live it... But seriously.. one cannot predict wat one cannot forsee rite aha but long ago i have already drawn out my what-to-do-plan in my future life... But is juz a matter of able to fulfilling it or achieving it lah.

Anw, in my what-to-do-in-the-future plan of coz my first priority will be earning lotsa money.. which means i need to save a lot and also get high paid stable jobs...Coz i wish to have my own transport, shophouse, and perhaps a wife And, with lotsa money in hand, i would like to go backpacking every 2 years with my mountain bike and try out all the extreme activities like water rafting, caving, sky diving, parachuting, base jumping, water skiing, cable ski. I would like to cast away in some ulu ulu island (not St john or pulau Ubin, but those island like Survivor show e.g cook island or exile island) with my frens or beloved. I would like to continue trekking or mountain climbing...having a chance to venture Mt Everest, Mt Vinson, Kanchenjunga and of coz those small mountains in SEA...I would like to lease a row of vines in Europe. So whenever, i travel across the world, i can collect those grapes i've planted and harvest them and prepare my very own labelled or signature wine for my frens and family. I wish to retire early too... but my cousin told me is almost impossible... but nvm.. b4 i get too old.. by age 45 or perhaps earlier, i wish to buy and owe a farm house in Aust for my retirement. If i realli cant afford, den perhaps i'll buy myself a bungalow or sth or i shall stay in my shophouse. But to me.. it is important to get to spend the rest of my life with the girl i love... coz i think she'll be the one that make sense to my life and juz makes everything in my life worthwhile. i just wanted to do so much things with her though i can do it alone or with my pals...but is juz a diff kind of feeling ha...though i cant swim well, but i'll still go sailing across the ocean with her, diving and hunting for corals or stingray with her and just be there for her through every sunset and sunrise. But i aint tat sticky type that will stick to my wife 24.7. juz wanna grow old with her and have sweet memories together.

But, after my cousin has actually hear my tots... she juz aint realli convince... i guess.. she thinks that my plans are too much of a fairy tales ha.. or she thinks that i'm haywire in someway or another..but i realli yearn for my plans to come true.. so for now.. they're my motivation to each step of my success.

Why saying goodbye was always easy and letting the feelings die is so hard!!!!

wat da bleh!!!

2007-01-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

The "WANTED"

Guns and bombs for sale!!!

I love my scar..

Miss bomber!!!

Terrorists Attack!!!

Our talent!!!

The Eraser Game... A game that can tell you your mood of the day haha

Alrt.. i'm more relieve now. At least most presentations are over and done with.. Now left only with FYP and upcoming exam.. Den yay.. GRADUATE... But am not looking forward though.. coz one graduate, you got to think of ya nxt pathway to undertake. To either establish a career or further studies.. And poly students getting into a local Uni is kinda hard.. moreafter we're actually competing with those Dragon year babies.. And best of all, my grades aint tat fantastic.. duno how realli... Though many may say i stil have Army to fall back on as my future career after graduate.. but i duno if i'm realli cut for it lah... And i duno izzt the job tat i realli want.. Even further studies is posing another headache for me.. Coz you've to choose the course tat you want.. And so much so i wanted to continue with Science related courses, but as i said earlier, you're competing with so many other outstanding poly cum jc students.. and the place is so darn limited.. So for now i realli feel tat i'm juz gonna be ending up in army no matter wat... And business courses are my weakness and i'm not cut for mechanical stuff though i'm very rough haha... Psychology duno can choose or not, coz i didnt have A maths... Arrgh.. duno izzt my sec skool ruining me or wat.. giving us lousy combination and subjects...

Hmmm wat can i say.. most of my frens all have their future route well-planned. Many wanted to switch field, and some going overseas for further studies while others will be working first den study and some gonna start working for life..Haiz.. i'm still like very very not sure.. For now.. i'm juz gonna try my admission into NTU.. if i cant get in.. of coz gonna be in army to serve finish my "very long" 4 years bond. den perhaps i'll get out and go for further studies in my related course of studies or mayb switch field...So for now.. juz hope my life goes according to plan.. coz in the pace we're living our life.. things juz changes in the blink of an eye. So i juz hope i wont be detached from the rest of the world when i'm caught up inside army...

Oh.. and the army have send me a letter already... seriously it was the very last thing tat i wanna received.. but yea.. you've gotto face the hard facts and the truth in life.. no matter wat.. i muz complete my bond.. die or alive.. i shall finish it with pride haha ok crap

Fri went climbing with the tas peeps.. and shurong joined us.. of coz.. first timer.. she's damn good already.. her arm power is like WAHHHHHH... coz she's the one and only one female who can do pull-up.. zai rite... and all of us feel tat.. once shurong learn her technique.. she can joins the national already haha... And after the long fun climb.. home sweet home.. but b4 tat rong and i went to eat.. coz we'll dead hungry.. so went to our fav hougang Kopitiam there to eat.. Yum... and can u believe it.. have our dinner actually at 0000... den we sat there chatting till like 0045.. catch the last bus which is 80 home.. and wat can i say.. it was a tiring but fun day ha

Yst went for the NTU talk at suntec and den went for Inter-con run at TP there.. Saw Khai.. he's representing his cc too.. And wat can i say.. all the runners all damn pro... 5.7K finish in 17 min plus for the first man in the men open.. super competitive for the guys i muz say...all duper fast.. duno how they run also.. Aud and Me were made to run for the women open.. both of us so wish to ps lah.. coz we cant run for nuts... but we still went down... it was a lousy run for me... 4.9k took me 25:40 to finish...super weak... even aunty run faster den me.... can die.. i realli muz run regularly already.. cannot take it... moreafter napfa is on this coming wed.. if i dun run on mon.. i juz gonna die like nobody business during napfa.. so Aizhi train hard!!!! Army is calling me to report on 1 march.. duno the camp yet and duno will i be posted to tekong or stay in singapore.. so now.. i realli gotto buck up in my physical... Aud did a good run... slow and steady win the race... And thanks for comforting me with ur words.. saying not enuff slp tats why ran slow haha.. but i think i seriously too weak le.. tats why aunty can also win me.. Muz realli work on my endurance and maintainence as well as my weak mental!!! Oh thanks Aud for ur wonderful idea too yea haha.. guess mon i'll go purchase the necessary materials to faster do it up!!! And do organise another Steamboat during CHINESE NEW YEAR.. Sigh.. it was a pity that training cancel today... The wonderful lie i tot it up for Aud is wasted.. but mayb u can take this day to meet her haha..

Why must life lessons and bad experience be taught and learn this way...
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn

never-ending

2007-01-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

haiya... juz 4 more weeks to go and i'll be gone.. away from Ngee Ann for good.. How great.. But at this point of time.. i realli feel like dying lah.. Is like one of my fren's msn: Love doesnt kill, it just hurts you deep enough to die.. And this statement can be changed to suit the terrible state i'm in now->Assignments and Projects doesnt kill, it just stress you deep enough to die... Yup.. till now, i still cant come to understand why the school just so want to cut short the skool term and still giving us so much things to do, to learn.. Arrrghhhh i seriously need a break... Perhaps is the bad time management i have.. i seriously hate the life rite now.. it realli sucks.. thinking of the resume, the ppt i yet to complete.. Omg.. IS modules seriously sux to the core for me now.. though i may enjoy the lessons.. Damn!!!! This week is gonna be a killer for good.. Tmr will be another day without sleep.. I guess wed too..

And worst of all.. my brain is starting to wander off again.. wandering of things tat i shld have long gotten over and done with.. wat a year to start alrt.. is like onli Jan.. i cant imagine the rest of my days or months.. Juz hope things can get better with work, away from work or with you, away from you... I juz need to run away for now.. though not far.. at least i can sleep it all away for now..

For a better tmr and tmr and tmr.. cheers

By Macy Gray - I try
Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, but we're not

I play it off but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
I may seem alright and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front, just a front

I play it off but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
- My confession-

lazy to name

2007-01-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

Sian tmr skool will be starting again.. and guess wat.. though there's like 2 weeks of break for us to complete our assignments and projects, i didnt complete most... arrrgh.. and here i'm going to whinned abt how much stuff i have yet to do.. damn.. N i muz say.. for the past few weeks i have not been exercising.. guess tats the reason why i'm suffering from a bad flu rite now.. my ab are not working, think they not fit already coz nv exercise.. and the oranges i add for vitamin C dun seems to help either.. mama and papa are feeding me with funny medicine again.. coz i think they find me "ha choo-ing" ard the house pretty irritating.. coz i'm like spreading my virus all over the place ha...

Ps PK twice for swimming session already.. realli sorry pal... my nose juz couldnt zhen diao qi.. lousy nose and ab i have ha... Tmr will be an important day for me.. i juz hope i can get it thru smoothly and not be over anxious and nervous... jia you Aizhi haha Oh and lord pls dun let it rain thank you...

Alrt.. the two weeks of holi had been great.. spend most of my times with my beloved frens... Thanks for the birthday celebration you guys have prepared for me.. u guys shld noe who u are.. I realli appreciate it very very very much.. thanks for the time, the money for all the presents u guys had gotten for me.. some still hand-make->thanks Big Lung.. (you'll get it from me soon!!!) Sok thank you too.. thanks for planning to bake tiramisu for me but didnt.. and bluff me tat u not meeting us but came down after a tiring project discussion.. i realli realli appreciate it.. you're da best ha... And bake me a cake to eat soon.. if not you'll be wasting ur baking talent away.. coz u noe i'll appreciate it more than anybody else..wahaha *p/s: dun be touched.. u noe the ultimate reason is that i juz wan to eat. Oops=x

Alrt, on my birthday supposed to go blood donation at Tamp... den we'll all late for the drive.. damn sad lah... Siuling late.. den we took the wrong bus.. the bus brought us touring ard north, east and south of Tamp but not west.. damn idiot.. den shurong and i stupidly sitting inside the bus asking each other.. do u find this place familiar? and our bus happily loops back to the interchange again..how great.. den we took another round that finally brought us to the community center..we did not give up any hope.. chiong all da way to the community center to see if the donation drive is still going on.. saw ppl in orange walking ard the hall way.. rong and i look at each other->wah they are still ard.. happy.. we actually climb over the fence, without thinking that we can actually go up by the stairs..and shurong was stuck for a moment coz of her tight fitting jean haha Yay finish our spiderman stunts, sadness pour upon our faces.. coz the ppl are actually clearing and packing up already.. sian ar... den we walk down the stairs which was juz beside the bloody fence... and those kids who saw us climbing over the fence shld be thinking tat we're crazy or sth.. climbing over the fence for fun or nth.. acting cool or wat coz the stairs is like juz beside.. think we're realli too blind.. nonetheless we enjoy the climb haha

True Love VS "True Love"

I think the ori casts can be replaced... haha

Pop corns and Nachos time.. cheesy=)
Oh.. catch 2 movies this week.. the night at the museum was darn good.. though short but damn funny... handsome dude, pretty dudette, dinousaur, mini men, u name what they've got what.. Oh and most importantly they featured siow how haha.. damn cute lah.. green green and made of jade.. expensive sia... The Holiday was nice too... sweet.. though certain parts are a litt draggy.. suit for couples or ppl who are going on a date.. coz i think u'll feel the love.. Hmmm the show also pretty much suit the singles.. coz i think the show will make u believe that u'll ultimately find the one u love and like fairy tales story, it ends with a happy and sweet ending.. heart warming... so anyone who need some love this year catch it... seriously worth a catch=)

New year was pretty much spend boringly.. miss my trip to pierce with the tas peeps.. sadded seriously.. saw the photos and videos.. it was realli funny and cool.. i wish i was there somehow.. i dun care.. muz realli go back again...

heh.. shurong and me with identical boxer and the lovely cup given to us by Anna

Shurong just has such a tiny little pair of eyes haha

Christmas company=)

Juz hope the coming 2007 will be a great year!!! Cheers

rain rain rain!!!

2006-12-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

Yup.. indeed a wet wet wet Tuesday... I realli duno how the clouds or the sky can take it.. raining and pouring for more than 48 hrs or more.. They juz dun feel tired.. I realli feel suspicious.. Izzt the snow in other parts of the world that triggers this kinda rainy weather... or izzt realli the monsoon season.. Why Dec always like so sad.. instead of getting Mr Sunny visiting.. I get Mr or Ms Rainy... Realli mood spoiling...want to run also sian...Hmmm the onli thing i look forward on a rainy day is to see ppl fall, slipped or slide infront of me.. not that i'm bad or wat alrt.. coz without fail.. if i'm out on a rainy day, there bound to be someone who will either be falling, slipping or gliding infront of my very eyes...Yst miss the chance to get to witness the fall of Xiao pang and Aud.. wasted man.. but they are nice enuff to share their falls with me coz they noe their falls are like jokes that makes me laugh haha Thank pals=) Today also as usual.. raining cats and dogs, on my way to lab, den got this girl walking infront of me, nearly fell and land into a puddle of muddy water.. but lucky she didnt.. manage to gain her balance back...or else i'll sure laugh till i tear alrt.. coz if she realli land into the muddy water.. she'll sure look like a Hippopotamus... omg...Okie.. i tink i shld not go overboard and be such a meanie...need to control.. or else like wat most of u say.. no girls will like me.. coz i'm juz too heartless=x...

Anyhow.. rainy season is always good to have steamboat.. coz it keeps u warm.. and yay.. the ladies team have steamboat over at Aud house.. Yea, our female cap's house.. at first, was realli disappointing lah.. coz go her hse, saw this small little table in her kitchen.. (wasted forgot to take a photo of it), den coz her house seldom cook, den xiao pang(the chief of the day) actually having problem searching for saucer, spoon, fork, knife and stuff ha.. But anyway, the treasure hunt was fun lah.. after a while, successfully gathered all the stuff needed for the steamboat.. and we miss out the most important thing.. Yup the CHICKEN STOCK... and yes.. i started to wind and grumble.. we shld have had this steamboat over at xiao pang's hse haha.. Den Aud very nice lah.. raining still went to Econs and get the needed stuff.. Realli appreciated it alrt!!! Ya the best!!! Sorry again for being such an ASS and getting onto ur nerve.. I bet everyone who noes me noes that i can be pretty irritating at times haha

Alrt.. den we finally have our steamboat and bbq started.. Xiaopang prepared all the food.. and is damn damn damn damn nice.. esp the BEEF.. thinking of it realli make me drool still.. *wasted again.. too busy to eat forgot to take photos=( Anyway, shall thank Xiaopang's mama too.. Thanks Aunty for preparing the satay chicken.. is nice=) And first time in my life, i have a standing up steamboat session haha.. Yup everyone standing up and eat tog.. damn fun and cosy.. N yay.. i'm happy to come out with new nicknames for my teammates haha.. PK officially known as PI KANG (NOSTRIL), Dawn become Sokkim no. 2 or Aunty, Avril=Maria hahaha... i shall start thinking of fun names for each and everyone haha

After the damn heavy dinner we went on to play twister.. the game realli get all of us twisted.. but wat can i say.. Avril is the most flexible among all of us.. I hope i can upload her sexy poses but Aud stil hasnt send me.. so wait ahah

YUM=P

As u can see.. I'm pointing to Maria haha and she's the onli one thats not BLACK!!!

Okie dokie.. this is Xiao Pang aka Angeline...
Alrt.. i think she thinks that she looks sexy in this pose hahaha

Alrt up-close with Xiao pang.. identity crisis.. now she's trying to pose manly... i duno wats with her lol

The mosquitos in Malaysia gave xiaopang leg a kite-shape bite haha

That's YiQian with her comic...And i muz say, her house is damn big lah!!!

Aunty Aud with that Umbrella and duno looking at wat?!?!?!-lost-

Yup.. tats my dream Jeep... damn cool alrt... How i wish it is my christmas present.. birthday also can haha

Aud faster go settle ur car co-op thingy.. den i'll have free ride...yipee!!!!And to Aud again.. thanks for the sweet X'mas gift that most of us tot was chocolate and put into the fridge haha...

Printed Dora on sale at Chinatown Pasar Malam hahaha
I think soon there'll be Dora in the HOT PINK SWIM SUIT rather den Dora with her purple bag acting cute and innocent ahahah

Finally, today is the happiest day of my life.. despite the mood-spoiling weather... Coz my mama and sista is back from their holiday... though is onli like 4 days trip.. i realli miss them like crazy.. esp my mama lah.. coz without her ard, i have nobody to whine.. and without her ard, my things gone missing and nobody is there to help me find... And i realli rejoice.. my mama is back in action.. no more fears hahaha

no difference

2006-12-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. christmas is drawing near.. everyone or perhaps most would have wrote down a list of things to get for their frens or a list of items/things they wish for... of coz, i do have a checklist.. but most of them dont come thru.. but nvm.. dreams dun always come thru so are wishes right ha..

Kinda weird.. lately ppl ard seems very interested in wat kinda girl i like.. hmmm are u guys trying to arrange some match-making session or are u guys trying to get a girl for me as my christmas or birthday present lol... And i think the funniest thing is that almost everyone gave the same comment/remarks when i told them my "desired" girlfren...okie they'll like "wah, aizhi you got very high standard leh" and one of them even commented that, my girlfren should have a plasma tv head or look like a plasma tv, so i'll be so in love with her and watch her everyday rather than my 24 inch tv... But, i dun wan to have my girlfren looking like a PLASMA TV.. so rectangular and flat... no volume at all.. cannot make it!!!! And to make it clear,i dun watch tv.. i watch tv programme hahaa.. and my tv programme muz have nice nice casts or interesting storylines for me to continue watching it.. so.. if u wanna put that tv theory into finding a girlfriend for me.. i would suggest u look out for interesting and pretty girls and not someone who looks like PLASMA TV!!! Hmmm in case, if you are helping to find one for me, i would be gladful if you find someone like Jessica Hsuan, Jennifer Aniston, Kate Hudson, Song Hae Gyo, Son Ye Jin.. lol

Alrt.. enuff say.. coz i'm always not fated to be with those girls i like.. sian... Nvm.. i still have another wish.. if no girls, give me sugar daddy or mummy..but i think the best present wil be a lifetime of bling bling... ok drifting too much... Yst went to run with tas alumni peeps.. the route was super long... run til i wanna die.. i realli cant believe after the marathon i become so WEAK while others are becoming FITTER.. Amran is definitely an example.. i think he lose a lot of weight and damn fit now... i wan to be like HIM!!!

Nxt year March or April there's a biathalon... swim duno how long den run 10k.. wanna try.. but need to pick up swimming real real real soon...PK and Amran say they gonna teach me haha.. hope i can make it lah.. so long nv swim already.. dun even noe wats my first reaction when any part of my body touch da water... gosh!!! i wan to learn to be a sea and land person haha i wish to be an air person too.. but damn my ht.. wasted... when can i fly my own plane.. mayb someday i shall invent chopper or fighter plane juz for short ppl..so those short ppl who has pilot dream like me can get a chance..

This two week will be having break!!! But i think no difference... coz i have to rush assignments and projects.. super sian.. first day of skool many many things need to hand in.. and presentation all following up.. wanna die seriously.. why cant the skool juz spare us or give us some privilege.. we're 3rd years already...=( Like wat Aud says.. i must make full use of my holiday!!!

Aizhi need to train a lot a lot.. i cant see myself as a weakling.. damn--

"My Christmas List":

Santa is coming tonight

And I want a bike, and I want a life

And I want a first class trip to Hawaii

I want a lifetime supply Of skittles & slurpees and Eskimo pies

I want a DVD, A big screen TV

Just bring me things that I don't need

[Chorus:]'Cuz now it's Christmas

And I want everything

I just can't wait Christmas

So don't stop spending

I want a million gifts, that's right

Don't forget my Christmas list tonight

'Cuz now it's Christmas

Somebody take me away

Or give me a time machine

To take me straight to midnight

I'll be alright

I want a girl in my bed

Who knows what to do

A PlayStation 2

I want a shopping spree

In New York City

Just bring me things that I don't need

[Chorus]I wish I could take this day

And make it last forever

And no matter what I get tonight

I want more

It's Christmas and I want everything

I just can't wait

It's Christmas and I want everything now

My dream house:

Sometimes mirror can be deceiving...

Maggie as the communist!!!

Point of dying... but big lung still look super good... seriously.. i wan to open her up and see wat her lung is made of...power

Nearly fainted by the odor given off by those runners...

-> Big lung u owe me a treat for ur 7 dollars new balance jacket!!!

I wish to do this to my lecturers too!!!

Those were the days...

Yea.. we are grow...

Okie.. at this point i think Felicia will be damn happy...i can hear her laughter!!!

Yup.. presenting her brillant art pieces, sorry delayed so long den posted up alrt.. but here it is lah!!!

Finally a norm photo haha... cc, yiqian and me=)

May the force be with me!!!

2006-12-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

Haiya!!! Today's BTN paper kill me for good.. not enuff time and all da question darn diff.. mayb i've not study hard enuff.. GoSH-- I think i lost a good whole 30 or more marks.. forgot to draw diagram, misinterpret the question.. writing rubbish for the last 10 mark question and still feeling confident abt it.. I guess.. Lord realli want me to know how to spell the word DIE!!!

Now i juz hope and pray hard that i can PASS OH PASS alrt.. Juz a pass will do i guess.. i cant realli expect much now..Coz is like either all or nth that kinda feeling.. Tmr will be proteo.. worst of all.. i have got 7 Chap to Piang.. Now i'm still at Chap 2!!! How great... And the sleep monster is realli getting on my nerves!!! Pls teach me a way to kill it,Lord!!! I feel like singing "raise me up". Alrt.. i juz cant wait for tmr to pass yea.. but b4 today come to an end.. i realli need to finish watever i need to study and squeeze all the facts and info Dr Koh has highlighted and gone thru... How i wish my brain is made of sponge... or better.. my brain function like the comp.. having usb port for transfer of data and info...

Damn.. super stress... and here i'm ranting... arrghhh... I muz love PROTEO notes!!!

*cross my fingers and down on my knees, pls lord, let tmr's proteo paper be managable and EASY!!!

Time to MUG!!!!

How i wish i was the one standing beside her lah!!!

overloaded...need some desserts!!!

2006-12-02T01:37:00.000+08:00

At this hr shld be already sleeping.. am surprise my eyes are still wake open and awake, though my brain is already logging off and shutting down...and i'm supposed to do my work.. but am not doing my assignments or pract report .. or even revision.. am actually still watching my shows and chatting on msn.. i duno where the old days discipline aizhi have gone to... realli feel overloaded.. so overloaded tat i juz wanna call a QUIT to everything i'm doing...

Last sem already.. i realli wish to give it my all and my very best, seriously.. but days are getting tougher to live.. so many things to cope with and prioritise.. my poor time management is realli setting in.. juggling with db, skool and bike pract.. realli not easy.. have like disappeared from muay thai training damn damn long already.. realli very jia lat ar!!! Everyday is like dragging my heavy body that weight like a thousand tons to skool... damn... how come the skool and society has become so demanding.. they are realli squeezing all my juice out like the sugar canes... Arrgghhh i wanna scream and shout and roar!!!!

I'm lazy to type a whole long assay haha so here are the events that took place this week:
- Went to watch Happy Feet with TAS peeps.. damn fun.. its was realli a destressing session for me... i'm loving it=)
- Have shopping session with Cap Aud.. yay!!!
- Have my taiwan xiang cang, ramily burger and jalan at pasar malam!!!
- DB training.. xiong but fun =)
- Have bazzar at LSCT block.. thanks to all who came and support us!!! all ur help are appreciated!!! THANKS!!!

Sigh.. today grand opening of VIVO city.. didnt able to meet up with Dawn and Jaslin and mayb the rest to catch the fireworks.. kinda wasted lah.. i miss fireworks!!! Ikea at Tamp finally open.. so happy.. nxt time no need go all da way to the damn far Queensway haha.. Candy Bar at clarke quay also open today.. i hope i can go there someday..

This sun will be my very first standard chartered half marathon.. i think i'm so going to die of super horrible and terrible death...i realli think too highly of myself..i'm like sending myself to a death penalty... nv train den wanna go run already.. think i'm juz so going to die.. though i keep telling myself.. i can do it.. all da way.. but is super contradicting.. i duno if i can even motivate myself on tat very day.. i'm realli doubting all my ability and capability of running.. haiya... i'm juz feel tat i'm juz so gonna screw it all... but i do pray tat i can complete it.. and not let myself down... RUN... DUN WALK!!! Anyhow, Anyone wanna come support me.. 3rd Dec.. bring some rollers and strings.. so if i die-ed the first 10k.. u guys can pull me along all the way for the nxt 11k lol!!!

Ha.. have a chat with Sok.. see wat she say abt my business skills/attitude...
I'm actually nice.. thank her for buying the shirt from me.. so she also very nice and polite...
>>>quality of life says:
welcome.
quality of life says:
i just feedback to ur in charge abt ur service.
quality of life says:
1. correct customer when she is looking at guys shirt. who says i cant buy mans shirt.
2. tell me shirt will shrink
3.tell other the shirt will expand.
4.scold customer
Ok.. so according to her statements, i cant work in customer service or sales departments.. coz she says i cheat on my customers... but i BIO student lah, lecturers nv teach business skills so i'm consider very good already okie.. and the shirt u brought is realli nice okie.. so THANK ME lol!!!

Alrt.. after some debate which i shall save the details and paste the main points ha
>>>
quality of life sent 12/2/2006 1:35 AM:
dirty shirt
quality of life sent 12/2/2006 1:35 AM:
lol
AiiZHiii:this is a test for ur detergent okie..
quality of life says:
yayaya
AiiZHiii`:
if u wash le the stain stil there means is time to change a new one
quality of life says:
u can get best seller award!
AiiZHiii:
haha TNK YOU!!!!
quality of life says:
welcome!
Sok very nice alrt.. she actually drew me this...

From skool email.. received lotsa interesting news.. like visiting the Kelong, going for cable skii and the one i most interested in is Le Parkour!!! I hope there's still vacancy.. i wanna go for a try.. it is always cool to see ppl do street stunts and walk side-walls..jump from one building to another like spiderman or flash...just wanna be a one-day-Jackie chan or Spiderman haha Oh..
i saw the sea-hawk girl today hahaha

Gosh.. looking at the assignments, presentations, reports and tasks-to-be-done staring back at me...it realli makes me feel like eating monster!!! I realli doubt if i can finish all my necessary assignments in 48 hrs...i need some superpowers!!!!

stop imagining is to stop thinking, stop thinking is to stop seeing

wiped me out

discharged

2006-11-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

Both my grandma and dad have been discharged from hospital.. Grandma dun seem too well still.. her face is like bloated.. water is like retaining inside her.. And the pills/medicines that once seems to help her dun seems like working anymore.. And i swear.. when i last visit her at the hospital, i realli wanna cry... seeing her gasping for oxygen... i realli wish i could help her in some way or another.. but den again.. i'm juz standing there looking at her helplessly... If not oxygen can be donated like blood...

Right.. dad juz came home in the noon today... sista and i went to fetch him.. he still doing pretty fine.. but his leg is in kinda bad condition... he can walk.. but due to some drug allergy.. his leg is damn reddish...my father and all of us dun even noe tat he actually has allergy against some drugs.. coz my dad has always been fit and healthy.. and two years back he had the same operation but he didnt experience such a bad rash dat it took sleep away from him... I juz hope both of them recover soon... i think tats all i wish for the upcoming christmas.. And i hope to learn to take more responsibility in helping ard the house..

Yst was kinda disappointing.. duno how to explain.. but was nice to get to see everyone again.. coz its been realli long that all of us gather... i juz love the presence of everyone.. be it i tok much to them or not.. coz i guess they all make a difference in my life.. Mayb i may say i hated them or dislike them or mayb condemn them, but they still do live footprints in the journey of my life and living those memories in the fragile filaments of my brain... And now.. i'm looking forward for christmas.. coz when christmas time, is always a day for gathering.. and i love it.. so Shurong.. u better not PS this time haha

This morning went for some trial run for my cc inter-con thingy.. wake up like ard 6 plus.. realli can die.. deprive of slp like nobody business.. i hope nxt time they can arrange it later.. AIZHI NEEDS TO SLP!!!!
Yst walk along suntec.. saw lotsa SALES tag hanging ard...arrgh...super Kian... Aud... when are we going to shop tog again!!!! I miss shopping with u haha=)

I want the orange timberland sweater!!! $129.. izzt worth it?!?!

I duno if i still misses you...

coz my heart juz feels so jumble up..

is so complicated that it feels like all my arteries and veins are intertwine..

but i've already made up my mind, like what you have done long ago...

no more dwelling over you and those sad love songs...

you are so gonna be out of my mind...

I just dun worth a cents of love from anybody...

ugly but true to the heart xxx

slow dance... how true...

2006-11-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done !
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

Yup.. a very nice poem indeed.. realli reflects how many of us lead our life... overlooking all those small little things happening ard us.. taking things for granted... And no wonder, as we grow older true frens get fewer...we make aquaintances rather than true frens... we lose good friendships along the way juz becoz of the lousiest excuse we are too busy to say "hi".

I agree life is definitely not a race.. but like what its being stated, time is short and life is unpredictable... we are all actually racing against time... we are all greedy in nature... wanting to gain a lot in a short period of time... and when we try to see the big pictures we miss out the smallest details... we only notice it when they are juz gonna be gone...are we careless or are we juz too arrogant

We may say that we are all happy and content with our state of living.. but who dun yearn for more and yearn for a better live... And here i highlight.. humans are all self-fish, no matter what we do, it always definitely based on our own interest and goals.. we'll nv learn to see the sorrows of others.. coz we're all juz too engage loving and focusing on the way we want to live our life...

I realli wish i could slow down the pace of the way i live... but even if one can stop the clock from ticking, one cant stop the world from turning...Yup.. how ironic life can gets... I juz wish i could have more time spend with my family and frens... i realli miss those days where i juz chill out with my sec skool or even db frens at some cafe or void deck.. and slack thru out from noon till nite...having to talk and gossips about everything under the sun till moonlight...was realli cool ha

Really looking for my two weeks break in Dec... And i wan more DB circuit training.. i'm LOVING IT!!! SHIOK=)

solo

2006-11-20T17:31:00.000+08:00

How great.. today solo presentation for Proteo term paper... it was realli a surprising one alrt... for that moment of time, i swear i realli miss Maggie standing beside me and both of us presenting together. Unfortunately, on this important morning, Maggie was on MC... coz we're both too "QIANG" already.. chiong the proteo presentation within 2 days, overnight somemore... And i muz say.. this presentation was not an easy one, coz we're not only required to analyse the journals but also compare and understand why certain reagents or buffers are used...

And i muz realli thank Maggie for all the hard work she has put in and the midnight oil she burns.. i think i didnt do as much as her as usual... I juz hope Dr Koh can give both of us a decent grading.. coz today supposed to have 3 grps presenting.. den in the end only turn out to be only me.. realli sian diao lah... But it was definitely an nerve cracking experience presenting alone infront of Dr Koh and mates...is was like back to yr1 Ocomm days...was realli lucky that Dr Koh did not shoot me too many diff questions.. still manage to ans him.. Phew.. i realli count myself lucky today... mayb he noes that diff question i sure cant ans, so perhaps he dont even bother ha But watever... is OVER!!!! and so what if i did a lousy job today...cheers for Maggie and Me still... One down.. but many more pro to go still... darn....(can someone give me a break)

Oh well. i muz realli get the chance to thank shilin and mingli... thanks for their support at that critical time.. i guess without u guys showing your support and concern.. i would be a dead meat by now.. i wont be able to present the ppt... Thanks girls=)realli appreciate it

I'm left with stage 8.01 and TP test for my bike.. is kinda fast.. but i cant say that i'm a competent rider... i mean getting the license seem so near but still yet so far.. coz the ciruit evaluation and road evaluation is not easy.. muz get less then 18 points.. i somehow realli doubt my ability and capability... coz seeing the people infront of me repeating realli make me damn scare lah... I think i realli gotto go for more practise and get it through!!!! I want to get my bike license soon!!!! *pray

Dicey Business airing in HK today...Arrgh cant wait to watch it....my laopo!!!

slow pace of living needed...

2006-11-18T10:48:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. am finally here to rant again... its been really long since i last log into the blogger...as usual, my undergrad life is being entertained by lecturer's notes, projects and unending assignments... Seriously i need a slow pace of life.. is getting realli hectic nowadays.. term papers and submission of like so many projects within the coming week, i'm like so going to kill myself... CHIONG AND XIONG are the words frequently used and mentioned in my dictionary and vocab now...

What can i say... Year 3 life realli sux... i bet before i graduate, i'll hv my hair all turning white or perhaps i'll turn bald due to stress.. darn... To add on to our academic stress, NAPFA test is also coming (date: 17 Jan 2007).. and yes.. i seriously damn panic and scared, though there is 2 mths to train.. coz its been realli long that i last run and train muay thai.. darn screwed!! And standard chartered run also ard the corner.. and yes, dear aizhi is still slacking... not training hard for endurance and strength.. everyday still slack and eat like a monster/hungry ghost... Arrgh.. i'm realli so going to DIE-- =(

Nxt week, Dragon boat training resume.. and i'm realli happy lah... at least i'm getting back to some exercising... after my terrible cough i realli feel damn weak.. like i've juz recover from some deadly illness... realli need to re-build my stamina and strength...

And i muz thank Sok.. Sun accompanied me to eat the FEI FEI WANTON haha.. is always fun to go foodhunt with u.. getting lost and doing stupid things... N if you are reading this post.. pls kindly leave a link of urs behind.. so i can go kapo at ur blog and see wat good food u recommend, so i wont be so lag...thanks NTUC AUNTY!!!

Alrt.. here are the race photos... this time manage to get into Semi finals.. but not the finals... kinda disappointed and sad though.. but i'm happy that as time passes, we're all improving and doing better at each coming race.. realli have faith tat we can get into the finals in the upcoming one... Yes, watch out.. we're coming up!!!*roar--

The ladies team... I realli love this photo=) sweet--

The mix inter-con team...

The spirit of ROWING...

During the race interval...
hardworking me learning Ballet with Teacher Avril Hong
*reply to Aud: Ha of coz aizhi dun belong to the zoo...

Hmmm mayb i should join my skool dancesport... they say i'm better in tango or izzt cha cha

Yea, they just so want to pull me thru that gap...

Re-charging for nxt race...

Once Chipmunks, forever Chipmunks=p

Big booty

Alrt eating time after the race...

One day of musician... *Hmmm can i melt a woman heart with these instruments ha...

One day as neck factured patient

One day with that big hat on my head with Slow eating Felicia Kang!!!

Retreat at Coach's hse and phototaking session with future rowers lol... Kids are so cute lah=)

Though we didnt win medals to beautify our room, but certainly i agree with Penguin that we won the Consolation price which was the yummilicious food at Coach's place and the fantastic friends i've made!

Puggol CSC Rocks=)

Arrgh.. i muz realli comment tat Sea Hawk has a darn cute drumer lah.. how i wish she's in my team haha...i bet we sure have the motivation to row harder.. (ok mayb not we.. but at least i'll lol) But she's not the reason that we lost to them in the finals yea.. Anw.. she's realli sweet looking=)

2006-11-04T01:49:00.000+08:00

What a timing.. when the haze problem is almost gone.. I'm sick!!!! How ridiculous! Damn... the sick feeling realli sux coz it realli makes you wanna slp 24/7 alrt...Mon and tues i almost die-ed... Duno if Aud and I have telepathy... we fall ill almost the same day.. and now we're still suffering from bad sore throats and cough...*croak-- save us!!! Skipped lotsa trainings and running dates..sigh!!! i realli duno how i can manage the upcoming 2nd link run and the standard chartered half marathon.. so little time yet so much training i need to make up to maintain my fitness and stamina... arrgh.. Aizhi is gonna be so dead=x One week no running already.. tmr i shall go for a run.. if not i think i may juz forget how to run.. realli jia lat...*train hard ah.. Aizhi!!!

Anyhow.. for halloween, Amran is so sweet.. send hallmark e-card to all of us... and the characters in the card is damn cute lah... Thanks Penguin.. Bet you are enjoying urself so much at Bali rite.. while all of us here are missing ur cakes and bread like crazy!!! Faster come back.. you are missed badly for training ha

As usual.. i lead a busy poly student life.. rushing projects and engage in db... of coz not forgetting to add some spices into my life haha.. Here are some activities over the past few weeks and some are kinda recent ha...
Alrt let me start with today...
The following photos are taken during LSSS.. the speaker is realli boring and uninteresting..mayb not to others.. but to me and mag.. we're totally knock out by him... coz the entire talk is about philosophy, entrepreneurship and investment...

When boredom sets in.. thats what you do lol, sketch on someone's hand

After the class.. went for db training though supposed to run with big lung and jel.. but all like busy with their stuff.. so yea.. running date cancel.. And here presenting u all the convent girls in my team haha

And we took like almost 5 photos b4 a good quality one come out... Thanks to Cap aud.. she always like to cut ppl head or face off the cam haha

THANKS FELICIA FOR THE KINDER SURPRISE!!!! U're realli a SLOW EATER lol

Yst went Chinatown with Shilin and Mag for Chong Qing Steamboat... the tom yam soup almost burn up my oesophagus... it was realli damn spicy alrt.. i teared and choke like nobody business...and left me LS for a good 2 days... but the buffet definitely filled us to our brim or it had already got us overflow, but i am so full that i cant even keep my body upright.. i was like hunching.. the fullness was realli damn bad...but was shiok somehow ha After that, we went walk walk so that we can digest our intake.. as the nite is still young.. we decided to go K... Yup.. and we went to this wu-lu karaoke lounge that we once pass by weeks or izzt months before and made a promise to each other that we'll go there sing one day.. so we actually did it yst ha..

The very wu-lu karaoke lounge signboard... Retro rite haha

We'll entirely shocked when we first stepped in.. coz there will no one.. and the interior is super old(like in the 80s or 90s), it doesnt give u a spaceship feeling alrt though the title claim to be so haha... Anyway, i was lock in the toilet by some bastard... at tat lock-in moment.. i tot i'll have to spider my way to the 1st storey thru the window... Lucky i bang the door hard enuff and the boss saves me... lucky the door is made of wood and not steel.. cant imagine i'm like stuck in there thru the nite=X
After the 4 hrs K-ing.. all of us officially lost our voice yea.. and Mag nearly missed her train ha.. we realli went all out yst sia.. but it was realli fun.. Thanks girls, u gals make great company=)

1 week ago... ...
Shurong, Sok and me... dining at the restaurant strongly recommended by shurong for tian ji zou...

The damn cute and funny toothpick holder we spotted...

The dishes we ordered...when we'll ordering the uncle keep on going is more than enuff... is more den enuff.. i think he's realli afraid that we cant finish.. coz onli three of us.. somemore all girls haha

Uncle.. dont you underestimate us.. look.. plates all cleared!!!

I think we can be good survivors.. we can eat coconut til is so clean haha..

The swollen lips cause by the ultra spicy tian ji.. all thanks to shurong.. keep calling the uncle add chilli add chilli...
After the whole eating.. we'll of coz very full... wanna explode already... so decided to walk all the way from kallang to bugis... pit-stop at Raffles hospital for toilet.. den decided to visit the nursery see if we can spot any cute babies... but unfortunately we'll too late.. coz visiting hrs was over.. kinda sad lah...

Japanese doll haha

Since we cannot afford to do cosplay.. we went toy'r'us instead...

When the pink lady meets the devil.. she act cutes and fakes a smile ha

Get extinguish or get suck.. Choose it...

Awwww that mini skirt haha

"Yan dao" and "chio bu"

If ever one day, my Captain become this.. i'll Run!!!
Sorry cap haha

Dress parade...

Bimbo challenge...

We are kids too=)

I can be Superwoman too!!!!

Resemble XP's brother haha..

I dun wan her to be my girlfren lol

Have this email titled sth to learn being send to me... i think most of the sentences are true.. and there are some questions that realli make me sit down and think...this is all part and parcels of life i guess...
* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? ( even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

My Nets!!!

2006-10-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. super careless like wat the 8 days mag Horoscope section says.. I lost my NETS... how great!!! But lucky there's kind souls out there... they are kind enuff to return my card to the bank... Juz hope i dun lost any of my money... if not i'll sure die of terrible terrible death... =x

Sorry Mag and Shilin tat we again unable to catch Deathnote.. I wanna watch sia.. we muz catch it soon alrt haha... I wan watch The Guardians too.. any takers? Sat will be my RTT.. need to realli study and practise hard... Jia you, aizhi ha... Blood donation tmr too.. And lovely slacking Sat will be burn by going to the career fair doing networking and finding setbacks for future life.. Sun db and rushing for proteo presentation again..wat a life to lead u muz be saying..

Teach me how to lead a better life!!!

Duno Class 95FM played nice love songs at nite.. but it realli sting my heart and ears at this moment of time ha.. I guess, for me...love is not in the air but in the drain...

Cheers.. You've found the one=)

2006-10-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

Happy Hari Raya to all the malays out there... but this year for me is particularly sad coz my malay's neighbour moved in the early june.. if not, i will have yummy kuehs and curry to eat... Hmmm perhaps green packets too haha... Alrt, i sound so cheapo... Hmmm but I think is time for me to get to know my just-moved-in indian's neighbour.. so at least nxt year Deepavali i may get some nice snacks or greeny packet from them instead... Okie.. cheap i am... nvm...

Alrt.. here are the photos i promised to upload... Happy viewing and saving ha

Baby pumpkins... Cute but expensive

Yay.. ready for Halloween celebration =)

Yvonne's porcupine with my sock and jel's hat.. cutie--

Retro!!!

Aint it cool lol

Graffiti rox....

Toy'r'us spree... All geared for Halloween!!!

Starwar IV? Maybe i can take the lead as Dark Vader lol

Next Elvis?

Hmmm...

Here i come.. M.J.

Alrt.. enuff of me...Now...
Here are some snapshots of Angeline aka Xiao Pang that you've nv seen b4 [exclusive]

Take 1: The feminie side

Take 2:The man side haha

Take 3: The beast shouting "where's my Pei Xuan!!"

Take 4: Here comes Spidey!!!
Identity crisis it is... duno male, female, beast or mutant??? hahaha

The Chipmunks first ever Neo-prints LOL...
Yst after skool dead tired..went home and took a short nap.. den went to meet up with xp for gym den Cap Aud for dinner... Hougang gym is realli good.. lotsa facilities as compared to Toa Payoh and the songs they played are nice.. coz drive u to exercise haha And i muz say.. the female gym instructor figure damn good.. her muscles darn lean.. I wan to be like her sia, but i think, it'll take me another 5-10 years... sigh... Nvm.. tmr going gyming again, as db training cancelled.. realli need to burn those extra calories... i think i realli getting fatter and weaker.. need to do more runs too.. slacking again.. shit... skool starts not been attending muay thai regularly again.. jia lat.. i realli gotto manage my time well...

Outing with Xiao pang and Cap Aud, sure bound to have lotsa funny things happening... But is always fun to have them around.. they're always there to cheer me up and make me so hyper haha And they definitely make me behave like some sec skool kids or mayb pri skool... Nonetheless.. i'm realli glad to have them as my chipmunks... Thanks XP AND AUD!!! Thanks for always being there to listen when i need a listening ear... thanks for those shitty days, where i need u guys to tolerate my shitty attitude.. And thanks for all the forgiveness you guys spare, when i did something carelessly or recklessly... I love you two though both of you are not my girlfriends ha Rmb we carry the motto: one for all and all for one ha =)

From now on.. no more sad nor lovey dovey quotes for this blog...
I think you've make it quite clear.. and I'm clear of what path to take now...
Easy come, easy go...
Time will heal all pain...
I can get over you.. *positive

Goodbye my lover, goodbye that emo Aizhi
Live stronger...

Skool?!?!?!

2006-10-22T14:06:00.000+08:00

Weekends is here.. but i'm not enjoying every moment of it.. coz i need to realli cherish each and every moment to complete the tasks and assignments entitled to me.. How great!!! Juz the start of skool terms onli alrt.. tons of project assignments are piling infront of me like nobody business.. we're ask to form groups of 4 or 5 for each and every class modules we go to... I juz hope i can handle it and endure thru yea.. Is my last sem already.. realli have to chiong ar..

Anyhow.. yst went to celebrate big lung and fark machine birthday.. was realli fun yea... i think they're realli touch by wat we have done for them yea haha the "3 figures" dedication... I shall save some of the exciting details as it is not too nice to be blog out haha..

Alrt.. waiting for the slow aunty big lung to upload and send us the photos.. time to head for my db training... *row row row da boat

How i wish skool is juz not abt PROJECTS, PROJECTS and more PROJECTS!!!
Get that feeling out of me.. it killing me slowly..feels like shit!!!
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I'm sittin here blamin myself
Why i'm feeling this way inside,
I misused it, i misused my heart and soul
This time it's all my fault
This time I really wish to let it go
But my head keep dizzy with the thoughts of you
The more i wanna stop thinking about it, the more it attacks me like a seizure
What am i supposed to do to cure myself?
How am I supposed to behave?
Can't let my weaknesses show
Have my fixed fate caused me to miss this first chance at real love

I really wish i could deny every little truth and fact that i want you
but damn... the heart and mind are still not trying its best to get over you
There are too many moments that my heart tremble
and there's too many times when i cant take my eyes off you
but so what if i've got something real
I dont wanna lose it all
Cause the thought of you gone gives me chills

All this time, my heart and deepest apologies
I dont know if its enuff to cover up all my sins...
I seriously feel like shit...
Cheap i am...

not looking forward...

2006-10-13T15:32:00.000+08:00

Sad to say skool will be starting nxt mon... am totally not looking forward.. i still have not slack and play enuff alrt.. And worst of all.. this sem is gonna be my last chiong-ing and killer sem.. and yes.. time realli flies.. with the blink of an eye we'll all be graduating and going our separate ways=(.. Friends around me are already thinking and planning for their future route..However, the road ahead of me is like still so uncertain and blurry..i realli duno wat i can do for a living after poly..

Though, i've officially sold myself to SAF..but i'm not certain if i wanna spend the rest of my life working for them.. there's so much in life i wanna try and do.. But, somehow i dun even realli noe wat i'm capable of doing... I wanna be a gynaecologist but i think tats a dream tat is not realistic ... Coz base on my results i dun think i can even make it to the local uni and into NUS medical skool.. and most importantly.. being a doc is not easy..Hmmm come again.. i'm interested in forensic science.. but again i duno if my results are good enuff to get me into the course of study..and that the future prospect in Singapore is still doubtful.. I duno... my last resort will be becoming a PE teacher.. at least is not like working 0800-1700 everyday and sitting in the office accumulating fats under ur ass and abdominal.. but i guess anything could juz happen.. mayb i'll be working in da office Eeee.. i cant imagine... Sigh.. If only being an adventurer can be a career too... it would be realli damn cool to scale mountains, travel round the world and also being paid ha.. Mayb getting to work with National Geographic would be cool ha..

Alrt.. enuff say of all my shit.. i guess all the ans will soon come my way.. wat will be will be ...yst was realli a duper tiring and draining day for me.. chiong report on wed from noon to thurs 0330... den catch a 2 hrs plus sleep den went to skool to prepare media.. fyp can realli turn me into a zombie.. Anyhow we're lucky to have Dr Koh as our supervisor, cancelling the point whereby being a man living in this era he has no hp and gentle soft spoken, at least he's understanding..coz to him yielding results was not important.. but the experience that each of us gain during the experiement process.. and he's nice to listen to our problems and give us advices... so i think mag and i are rather gladful for that ha...

And yay.. finally we've our explants responding to our treatments.. it like over 12 weeks already.. grow mutica grow!!!

After the tiring preparation of 240 tubes of media.. mag and i went to meet shilin at Kallang for dinner at DA CHANG JIN.. anyway that da chang jin is the China version one.. coz the shop actually has more China national visitors rather den Korean visitors.. And u dont expect them to greet you with Korean when u enter the shop.. but nonetheless, the shop attendants are still nice and friendly people... We ate like nobody business yst... and we took so much food (thanks to maggie lol) at the end, we'll thinking of ways to clear those food so we'll not be fine for wasting 100grams of food ha...

After the meal.. was realli too full to board a train or bus to go home.. coz i think we'll all be puking our way back.. ha So went walk walk at Bugis, Bugis street and den Chinatown...

Shilin and Mag with the snowice green tea dessert.. Nice
And the meeting was supposed to be U4(Usual 4: Shilin, shuwen, Mag and Me)but turn out to be U3 ha.. coz shuwen is sick... but anyhow.. the outing was fun.. have lotsa laughters haha.. More outings like this please=) Lets go watch movie and K soon!!!!

Alrt.. for the few days left before skool starts.. i would realli wish to go vivo city and exhibition at agnes b., raffles city shopping centre... any takers? ha

The renovation going on above my flat is driving me nuts!!! When will it stop...
And when will i just stop thinking of you?!?!

caught red-handed

2006-10-11T15:21:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. my dad found out tat i actually went to take bike license..And till now my sister and i have still yet to come out with a conclusion of how my dad actually found out abt my helmet.. coz i think i hide it very well.. Anyway it was realli sudden and unexpected, lucky i do not have a weak heart.. if not guess by now i'll be dead or in da ICU ha.. Alrt, it happened like tat->he called home yst and saying who gave him a miss call.. den i was the one who was answering the bloody damn call, i was like "huh, no one called you!" Den he started asking me: "Aizhi why u have a bike helmet at hm? " Okie i admit.. i was totally dumb-founded and stood rooted to the ground for tat very moment, when i heard those sentence.. juz like kanna shock by high voltage or freeze by an iceman...

Duno how to react, but my brain just send a msg to my mouth and i go on with the respond.. "No.. i didnt, that helmet belongs to my fren" Of coz my dad is smart.. he wouldnt believe in this kind of lousy story i made it up ha.. so he was like" dun bluff me" so i go on lying... "you said that i cant learn wat... so i didnt" He was like "Ok... but if u are going to take bike license let me noe alrt.. i'm ur dad" So i was like " ok ok" faster end the phone conversation... He was realli nice over the phone lah.. he actually didnt interrogate me like a prisoner or shout till my ear-drum burst.. and tat make things worst for me.. coz if he's nasty i dun feel guilty in hiding the truth from him.. but he's like nice and understanding..it makes me feel damn guilty if i continue to hide the truth.. After like 1/2 hrs of thinking and consideration.. decided to be honest with my dad... i mean am already 19 going 20.. shld realli learn to stand up and tell the truth and accept all the consequences rather den hiding in da dark and running away all the time... And i think if i continue lying.. i'll betray my dad's trust again.. So i gave him a called when i'm on my way to my bike pract... and indeed i felt much better after getting it all out.. no more hidings.. now at least i can go hm with tat helmet openly hanging over my shoulders.. ha..

But today i think i'm gonna see him face to face as training is cancelled sian.. duno wat will he going to be saying to me... Anyhow, yst was realli lucky lah.. heng heng 12 demerit points and yay i pass my circuit evaluation and going to apply PDL once i pass my RTT den 6.01 bleh bleh.. so now realli gotto practise and study hard for RTT.. if not muz re-take circuit evaluation again coz it onli valid 1 mth.. N saw Fatilah at bbdc too.. she too, took up bike and going for circuit evaluation soon.. she was even more anxious den me, if i pass my evaluation ha.. But she realli slims down alot.. slim till i almost cant recognise her ha.. mayb i shld start fasting too sia.. my double chin is like poping out already.. sian... i muz learn the value of eat to live and not live to eat...

Enuff of my ranting.. time to work on my FYP project updates.. I'm freaking a dead meat right now.. tmr submission how great!!!

ordinary

2006-10-10T12:22:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. over the weekends, went to a 2 day 1 night camp at Senai by i camper.. Hav lotsa eye opening events... Basically, we'll there to help out in cleaning the main office. And during the clearing and cleaning up process, it was the first time that the others and i saw billions or izzt zillions of ants and termites.. and it realli gave me a yucky creppy crawler feeling..totally gross out, if you cant picture the image, juz imagine ur room with billions/zillions of ants crawling ard.. Ok the so-gross-out scene definitely made me think of the CSI New York last season episode whereby this Crime Scene Investigator-Nick Strokes is buried underground and was attacked by billions of big ass ants.. and i mean it, they are freaking big, big ass and big head most yucky, they have sharp teeth... Nick almost wanted to shoot himself to death... i think if i'm in his position.. i'll juz shoot myself to death.. at least it is a quick death rather den slowly bitten to death by those irritating creepy crawlers...

Anyhow, all of us successfully evacuate those bloody ants and termites with our very own insecticides formula.. i think we did an equally good job as compared to the pest control company ha But feel kinda bad lah.. seeing the sight of Andy spraying the formula on those ants and termites, reminds me of Ant bully... sorry but i guess is better to have them removed though.. is hard to co-exist with billions/zillions of them.. they've a population like India and China or mayb even larger ha... After all the ants and termites evacuation, we did some Banglah job.. which is painting and sealing the cracks of the wall with cement.. this is to prevent those survivor ants in finding their home and creating a home haha.. okie.. i sound evil..

Sun rush back for training.. very tired and hungry.. gave a duper grouchy face.. think i scare off a lot of my teammates..realli sorry guys ha... I was glad that i still can tong the power training though i'm realli dead tired.. And the good news that i've long awaited for has finally come... we are gonna have new paddles and life vests sponsored.. Yay.. cant wait.. Now to regatta is like gonna be weeks of interval only.. we realli gonna train extra hard and give it all out.. cannot face any failure again i think.. da last race 0.01s sure has awaken all of us and make all of us realise our weaknesses and strengths... For now is realli gonna be all da way even if it takes our life, we'll all gonna row till the end!!!

To Aud: Thanks for helping me to get the women's weekly mag.. though i wanted was the woman's health haha.. do remind me to pay ya back alrt.. Regarding ur blog entry too.. "the ugly gets the hot chick and beauty" i agree with wat ur cousin says.. But are they not hot enuff for us.. or are we not ugly enuff for them lol... But pal.. u definitely dun have an ugly personality alrt.. u are a nice dude yea.. though i duno u for a very long time.. but i can truely see the sincerity u gave in our friendship... u have been lending a listening ear, without any complaints or grumbles and also you've been my cycling, running and supper mate haha... Thanks for all tat yea!!! So dun doubt ur personality or character... u're who u are =) The "intended" girl thats meant for ya will soon come ur way...

Everybody wants your time
I am just dreaming out loud,
I cant have you for mine and I know it for sure
I'm happy and content to have you as my friend
Yeah, I'm so elated
Cross my heart and hope to die
I dont think about you every night

I can walk around with a happy face, even when i'm black and blue
But every sight of them makes my head pound
Unsaid words that i'm trying to hold back with my tougue, seems to be tripping all over the place
And I cant seem to trace anymore what i wanted to say
Everyday i try to put the feeling for you far behind
But it keep rushing back to me again and again
Praying and wishing that all the thoughts of you would just be wash or bleach away
And what's the point in telling everybody and even myself
I'm actually over you
When hey, i still misses you

I just wish that there's a way I could make you see
Without ruining everything
Even if it takes me to drag an old guitar that I can't even play and spell it out in a song, singing every word for you, I would
I know i'm sly
Always faking it doesnt matter
Fading into your background like a piece of yesterday
But for all god knows, you matter...

Sad the way we always seem to pass by one another
Hiding, so afraid of the things we might discover
Caught up in a moment that only you can live in
You never know who's giving the air that you might breathe in

Love doesn’t need a rhyme or a reason to be

But will you and i have a chance to start a story of our own...

Happy moon cake festival

2006-10-06T15:53:00.000+08:00

Finally able to get myself log into blogger.. took me like forever... damn-- Lately life been almost the same.. living like a King ha... Yea.. just wake up, eat, nap, watch tv, eat, play com games, watch tv and slp... is super routine alrt... cant believe i'm living this kinda unhealthy life... I'm gonna turn into a FAT king/ass in no time ha..

Anw.. i've been exercising lately still though.. meet Cap Aud to run in da evening, did cycling on my own and going for muay thai... but my in-take of food like getting larger or should i say enormous... my mama watch me ate this morning and she was like "Aizhi, your appetite is like a guy"... gosh.. wats wrong with me!!! Mayb i dun feel guilty when i eat coz i noe i did exercise and run.. budden i think i can nv get rid of my fats with the habit of eating so much always..yes and i mean always.. i'm juz behave and react like cookie monster when i see food i like.. Aud also cant stand me.. arrgh.. i realli eat alot!!! Aizhi needs to control her diet and take small intake of food each time!!!

Alrt.. been rather blur and distracted lately.. is bad i noe, but there's like no doc or pills available to cure this kinda deadly illness. Arrgh.. mayb i shld take more naps haha okie, watever.. getting crappy.. today is moon cake festival..Yay... i'm gonna play lantern and eat moon cake.. later gonna meet Cap Aud and mayb xiao pang after some cycling and run..

----------------------------Part 2 of da day---------------------------
Here to share some photos b4 i share my little accident haha...

The sperm on my hand aha... got it from the exchange of some num goody bag during SAVA sprint! Ok.. dun ask me where's the egg alrt ha

Cute Vespa i saw at BBDC.. sweet--

Today the sun at Puggol end looks nice.. aint it look heavenly...

Alrt.. b4 meeting Cap Aud and Xp.. went cycling.. cycle to my beloved place->Puggol end.. Some day i shall start running there soon too..yea muz train hard for the half marathon.. cannot die halfway sia.. Okie.. after spending almost half hr at Puggol end, watching the police on duty, seeing the teens playing soccer at the beach, seeing ppl fishing as well as enjoying the breeze and absorbing vitamin D.. And is time to set off for another destination (Hougang stadium to run).. So cycle from Puggol end to Hougang..

Took a flyover route tat i've nv taken b4 in my entire life... At first saw an Ah Pek cyclist.. From his face, he looks like he's cycling to some places very interesting like tat.. so i followed.. den ended up he cycle to some wu-lu HDB block.. so is like nothing interesting.. den i find myself ending up near some kinda flyover.. so just anyhow anyhow take tat route and see where it brings me haha..Is fun to get lost with ya bike sometimes.. Okie.. think i'm born with some street smart.. i ended up at Hougang haha.. Truely, Singapore is juz such a Small and tiny island.. just too hard for you to get lost sia.. i think u seriously needs lotsa effort to be lost here!

Ok.. my accident part...
Below is the photo on the route i took into the canal i wanna cycle (is a very short trail only...nth exciting, lotsa mosquitos i muz say... itchy scratchy!)

Okie..here's the pic of my Lao-ya bike.. can u believe it.. only have till 3rd gear only.. lousy haha.. but this little red bike is still my one and only.. coz my dad sold off my silver one.. and he didnt removed tat bike stand i installed.. idiot!!!
VS
Can u spot the difference of the two photos?!?!
I hope u see it... is the seat of my bike den went wrong... If u still cant see.. read down to the nxt line and view the photos below..(an enlarge version of my seat!)
VS
I bet, anyone can just spot the diff lah... The seat is spoilt thanks to the smart dude tat is ranting here. Smart Alex.. anyhow take the lao-ya bike to do trail den down slope the spring of the seat came off.. still didnt realise till she reach the pathway... den one uncle came and ask: "u okie"..I was like yea, am fine.. think he's in utter shock..coz i'm like came dashing out with my bike from some bushes.. coz usually for tat route, ppl will juz come down and push their bike.. i act smart go cycle, but was damn thrilling and fun.. lucky didnt fall or fly.. dun wan to end up like Siow How lol..*Oops.. den check my bike coz when i keep cycling den my seat keep tilting backwards.. so i decided to stop at the side of the cycling track.. den a second uncle came along:"Hey, you alrt..", Me: "Yes uncle.. but i think my seat spoil.." and i was like trying to stuff my running towel under the seat to prevent it from going downwards.. den he says.."aiyo, your spring gone already..", "me: huh.." den he laugh and cycle away.. i was like what da Hell!!! Wat an unhelpful uncle!!!

Anyway.. the towel didnt help.. my seat still keep dropping like nobody business.. but at least i still manage to cycle with it for 4 hrs haha...

Okie.. den cycle to hougang stadium for a run.. did onli 11 rounds..gonna run longer and more... saw my sec skool junior.. i think she always go for evening run.. very consistent with her running.. Mayb Aud and I will see her again nxt week haha...

Went to eat with Aud after my run at the Kopitiam opp Puggol park.. saw Julia along the wat haha den met with Xiao pang and her girl as well as her 2 beloved bros - Alvin and Aron.. Have lotsa fun playing sprakles haha.. Somehow.. i wish u'll there too..nvm

Nice bike that Aud and i saw at the SHELL Kiosk...

I'm sorry to say that i still misses you,
Is never a day i dont wonder and think about how you do...
I know, i've gotto surrender and stop the long pretending,
I'll make myself believe that we're the pieces that dont fit.
I hope i can make it thru... Bless me!

-ve

2006-10-01T17:06:00.000+08:00

Well, I badly want to hear from you if you've been seeing that someone
So, at least I could end the battle in my head
And just stop wondering if you like me too and,
just how to say things right
and continue hiding the truth from you.
Or could someone just tell me I was wrong to love you or even think of chasing after you.

I feel bad and seriously dying inside
We've been friends for so long
Any wrong steps that i take, can just ruin it all
So what if everyone come telling me love is a risk, just give that one shot that you've got and dont let it slipped away from you.
So what if it is true about this lyrics:
What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?

Many unanswered questions are still heavily chained inside my heart
Can a friend become a lover?
Can a girl who kept the honest truth inside, be too late for you?
But what if i'm that everything you never dream of being with?
Or will you just step out of my life forever once you learn how i feel...

If only I could tell what you've been thinking about me all along
'Cause I know this much is true-> You're needed in my life

Perhaps, its all that
All that i can say...

you look a little destructed... just hope u are doing well in ur life...
Seeing you smile is important.

I think my neighbour is having some r/s pro too.. he's playing Edward Chun- Give My Love almost days and nights... What a month.. everyone seems heartbroken... Where is da love?

Sorry Cap!!!

2006-09-28T12:56:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. firstly have to sincerely apologise to Cap Aud for ps-ing her over at JB and nearly made her lost as well as making her walk the whole afternoon-evening and wasting the cab fares and transport fees.. Realli sorry... Hope the cheap dinner did help to repay my guilt a little!!!! aiya.. all thanks to the bloody network.. duno why did not auto-roam for me.. idiot!!! Again.. i'm realli SORRY!!!

Benjamin send this link to me-->http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryCTIigaloQ clip on (Can ) Father-son bond of Dick and Rick Hoyt...it is indeed inspiring as well as touching.. It brought tears to my eyes when i was watching it last night.. from the clip you can realli see how great is a father's love to the son... N the clip reminded me on the tues episode of Criminal Minds.. it was abt a mother who was imprisoned for 15 yrs and in the end prosecuted for the crime she did not commit juz to protect and free her son from being his father's victim.. she was forced to disowned her son too.. sigh All becoz of her psychotic husband.. her husband actually have a workshop tat used to torture people whom he abducted.. and he well deserved to be executed by high power treatment.. Okie.. and i conclude tat any parents love for their child can be so powerful and great. The extra miles they go just to protect their offsprings or to bring the best for them.. i bet is not easy..And i'm truely greatful and blessed to have both my parents by my side as well as a fit and healthy body to carry out sports or activities that i like..

Oh yay.. saw the poster for deathnote.. is gonna be screening on 19 Oct.. cant wait alrt.. thats my fav manga.. and now is gonna be in theater YESSSS!! CSI miami is coming back on tues night too.. Yippe yay!!!

I think i need a change in the bloody blog skin.. is giving me hell lots of pro!!! Darn!!!

watever...

2006-09-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

Okie dokie.. today is like an exercising day for me.. good good.. went muay thai and being trained by shijie and jimmy.. and is good..at least i've improved my kicks in terms of accuracy and strength.. and thanks jimmy for taking ur time and patience to train me in my punches.. hope to see ya ard again... And i muz realli say, ur body is damn flexi.. cannot take it.. ha

Anyhow, need to train harder.. coz everyone seems to be so good.. so yupp muz jia you and go down for training faithfully.. Alrt.. after muay thai, met up with Aud for nite jogging(yup 2 loners jogging in da nite ha).. was cool..anyway ran to puggol park from her place (seng kang actually, ha)... is realli quiet and breezy over there.. it can be a little scary and creepy too i guess esp when ya alone.. coz too quiet haha.. Anyhow, saw a handful of faithful runners training and running in the nite.. not bad not bad.. Oh and the cafe at puggol park have nice ambience.. play nice love songs and a totally ideal place for couples or even frens to chill out.. nice i muz say.. Oh, Aud and i will like saying mayb puggol park lake or izzt river can convert for the use of wakeboarding activities.. and i think if so, it'll be damn cool.. coz u get to not only see wakeboarder hunks but also the babes lol... but overall i like their stunts.. i hope one day i can take up tat sports too hee.. (yup.. sugamama and sugapapa.. give me the money$!$!)
P.S. Anyway, anyone interested in the waterfeast wakeboarding event this coming Sat?!?! i feel like going to watch their stunts...

And Yay.. i finally trimmed my hair.. no more helmet hair hee.. feel duper light now too yea, with fewer strands of hair above my head haha... oh, and the salon i went for is called Hairy.. overall the service and cutting skills is not bad.. except.. they realli cut very slow.. i think worst den just4hair.. i was like going to leak any moment.. but luckily my bladder is strong=x.. So juz take my advice.. if you are going to try out tat salon.. go empty ur bucket first if not dun drink so much water.. Oh and the waiting time is kinda long too.. get urself some entertainment.. They are lotsa FHM mags over there ha.. but i guess.. i'm too young for it lol..

Sigh.. guess things are like getting out of hand lately.. Now seeing u online can even make me feeling darn nervous.. i dun realli noe wats wrong with me... perhaps something wrong with my brain nerves? izzt starting to malfunction due to overeating or izzt a warning sign telling me to go for a heart check-up... irregular beating and aching... damn.. mayb i'm juz gonna die soon!!! Arrgh Anyhow.. thanks Sok for the song u sent me as well as the mv u told me to view over at youtube->http://youtube.com/watch?v=qikM4O7Ekbs(here's the url, anyone interested can juz view it, i hope u do..) Eh wat can i say after watching it.. i think the lyrics speaks it all.. some words are better left unsaid i guess...

I hope you find whatever you've been lookin' for.
But if you ever lose your way, I'll be right here for you.
I promise.

wasted

2006-09-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. after training for weeks... still didnt manage to make it to the finals... was realli upsetting.. coz only missed by an aching timing of 0.01s... Arrgh... realli super shitty.. anyhow.. juz hope Albert (13th council) of the tamp or izzt the pasir ris GRC team did well today!!! Jia you--Hmmm although didnt get into the finals.. but i can say that our team realli improved a lot a lot already as compared to the first June regetta race.. this time, we'll not 1 boat length behind from the rest of the boat.. but in fact we'll all neck to neck.. it was realli a close and a tough fight yea.. Now gonna train harder for the upcoming regetta race in NOV 11 and 12, esp in the maintainence part.. think we are all good in our 10-30 already but in da middle we all lost the energy and strength.. so realli need to train harder for that... Cannot let our coach down again.. gotto realli win sth back for him!!! Go PUGGOL CENTRAL!!! Oh to Su... thanks for the Muffins u made!! is realli tasty ha.. and is realli nice to have good bakers in the team, coz every week after training you get to eat nice bake cakes and bread haha, all thanks to Penguin(Amran) too!!!

Thanks Weiyi, Jel and those ex-councils who'll there on fri-sat night in helping out in the photo scanning session... Sorry didnt help/do much... Thanks Yvonne for taking the trouble to loop over my place to pass me my helmet tat i left at skool...

For now juz hope TAS book production can go on smoothly.. and that i'll train harder for all my upcoming events and races... Gambatte!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YI QIAN!!!

Now and then I confess you cross my mind
Now and then I guess I have a little too much time
Now and then I've changed my way of thinking
I know you'll be better off with him
I know i'll never cross your mind
I know you'll never feel the same way as i do
But still, i'm stupidly holding out for you

Would you go with me if we rolled down streets of fire

Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea

Would you hold on to me tighter as the summer sun got higher

Would you go with me if we were lost in fields of clover

Would we walk even closer until the trip was over

And would it be okay if I didn't know the way

If I gave you my hand would you take it

And make me the happiest girl in the world

Faithfully, i trace your name while you sleep

It's the the only true comfort i feel

Recalls

2006-09-19T01:21:00.000+08:00

Recent recalls:
1) Received result slips... i've a drop in GPA of 0.098 as compared to last sem.. Sigh.. I've got myself a C+ but is realli a blessing tat i passed... Really Thank god for that...

2) Went Mustafa on Fri with Captain Aud.. have a nice dinner and great fun.. we're thinking of holding a retro party haha... Look out for it Dragon teammates!!!
Anyway we are supposed to look for running shoes.. in the end it turn out to be trying out ah pek clothings haha

Duno wat she's trying to do lol...

Haha.. Captain Aud in da TOOT outfit and Toot look...

3) Celebrate Sok's birthday but is a pity we did not have a group photo or sth... we shall meet up soon, PEEPS!!!

4) Yisan and I gotten a remarkable and unbelievable 2nd place for the GRC vertical challenge lol... didnt expected it at all alrt.. it was supposed to be fun climb.. in the end we are in for the grand finals on 29 OCT in the hope to win 1000 bucks... and we are gonna train hard rite?

5) Spot the future Rick on da train hm on Sun after training lol

Rick's predicted 10 years later looks
*Rick our dragon boat teammate, sorry dun have his current photo but he's 15 this year lol

6) Went with Captain Aud to Runners' Lab today.. love their shoes, shirts over there.. (Big Lung i bet u'll love the place too.. sells a lot of stuff for triathlon hee) Aud and i both love the pajamas of the "life if good" brand but dun have our sizes..*pout.. its darn cute alrt.. sadded and yay i finally brought a new running shoes.. Aud faster go buy too yea.. den we can wear the same hee=)

Past Past Past recalls:

-->Hey!!! Can you see me!!!! *wave wave
*Photo Taken like weeks ago.. finally uploaded it ha.. Okie.. i look damn mini in da middle of da stadium...

Singapore's Future National Dragon Boaters!!!

Row Row Row da Boat...

Competition time!!!

Ok Shurong wants to be a high-class farmer...
(take note.. her farmer hat is rip curl branded ha)

Ok..shurong decided to become a fashion icon of da week...
(take note of the guy in da pic.. he's warning us not to take photos in da shop)

Nice aint it... quiet and serene

The people-less training ground

On our way to Suntec.. saw this CAUTION sign juz lying on the ground so XP and I decided to be helpful and bring it back to its original upright position ha...
Now let us show u the proper way/steps:

Step 1

Step 2

Step 3
Yay we did it haha (teamwork do wonders!)

Proud to see the Caution sign up again lol

>>>>>>>>Just when you have so much time to waste..u write...<<<<<<<<
Is it too little for me to do anything or is it all just too late to wish it will happen
Have my chances come and gone or
Liking you is just too wrong
I dont even know what's expected of me...

So what im getting my daily dosage of laughters and fun
Dont you know when night falls, everything falls back into place
While next morning again, I have to pretend
I wish all the emptiness would end
Though I know that you're still single
But girl, I'm scared
Sometimes i feel that I'm almost paralyzed
Paralyzed and overwhelm by the emotions that's growing inside
When I start to take a look around me
and I see you everywhere and anywhere

So long, still I wonder why
So long, and my river runs dry
But still I don't know where to go, what to do
Life must go on
Though things may not have the ending or closure that you wanted the most
But still I wish I had known what you feel about me

I may say the words that you may not feel right
But you are really special to me
I wish to give you everything
But I guess it wasn't enough
I dont want to get you twisted
I dont wish to see you living in the moment counting all the sins

But so much so... does it really matter when I say:
I dream of your face
I want take your hand and hold you in my arms

But then again sometimes you just make me wanna hide the fact that damn 'it's you, I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye and let it go
girl I swear i tried,
I tried a million times to get you off my mind
its not that easy no
dont you know how hard it is for me
The more i see them...
they make me believe that we could get together

I really wish I could have just one day where I can finally tell you how special you are to me...

To me,
you are a sunshine
i like watching you..
but you are hard to reach..
too high...
maybe i'll keep on trying..and wait..
till maybe one day you come close...
would you?
would you give us a chance?

Leaving on a JET plane...

2006-09-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

Okie dokie.. send Moses (my TASIC 16 PTI and 30TH Council President) off to UK for his further studies... Gonna miss him i guess.. though seldom tok or meet up.. but yea.. i realli do respect him as my PTI, President as well as my BIOTECHNOLOGY senior haha Study hard and all da best to u over there, dude... See you after 2 years... Will i see u coming back with two person also lol...

Anyhow.. is nice to see most 30th Councils who went to send him off today.. its been really long since most of us see one another yea... I dun wish to be like today.. a gathering only when someone is leaving ha... Hope we can all meet up soon or have a 30th councils gathering!!!*looking forward... wave to welfare officers haha

Hmmm juz wondering if i ever have a chance like momo to go overseas to study... but i guess if able to, of coz i wan to get into a local Uni first... coz is realli hard to leave ur pals and family and juz simply go aboard for like 2 years or so.. I duno.. think perhaps i'll juz die over there and return in body pack lol... And thinking of my bmt in Tekong is like enuff to kill me already.. though it may be simply a short 3 mths training... darn...think i'll suffer terrible home-sick over there.. but my dad and bro assured me tat, i'll have got no energy and strength to suffer from any home-sickness...and for their oh-sound-so-sweet comment, i think the bmt life is gonna be quite freaking XIONG and TIRING!!! Nvm.. Aizhi can do it!!! Ai-zai ar!!!

Damn... today ate like a monster again... have my turkey double bacon over at the airport.. am still not satisfied..reach home still have mee-gorang.. sinful sinful... Mama.. pls stop feeding me.. if not i think my BMI gonna be over expected range when the nxt time round i take it yea... Guess i have got to start eating plain porriage everyday from now ha...*control diet!!!

Oh and seriously.. i think i realli need to trim my bloody thick hair...but... come again.. my fringe is like damn bloody short.. thanks to tat Aunty who cut my hair previously.. wat a cool recommendation.. have ur fringe cut off... =( And believe it or not.. my hair is so thick tat i cant even feel da darn bloody 20 cent coin when Big Lung (duno when) slot it into my hair.. God... i dun wanna look like a bush man... and pls fringe.. if u can ever hear me say... pls faster grow long.. so i can go for a nice haircut and look a little better den wat i'm now ha...total shit-tation...

I wanna be the wind that fills your sail
Be the hand that lifts your veil
Be the moon that moves your tides
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheel that never rusts
Be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more,
so much more
I wanna be more than just your man
I wanna be your everything

When will i stop dreaming... wake me up when last September ends....

lucky day? Happy day...

2006-09-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

Okie.. today is a good day for me overall hee... First round pass my 3.01 and promote to 3.02...no repeats... YAY haha Okie.. i shadnt be so ya-ya.. coz the other upcoming levels and courses will be damn tough for me.. N i noe by then i sure have to repeat.. Nvm.. Aizhi shall not think so much.. juz stay focus and go...

And i'm realli greatful to Kerk and Aud for sharing with me their experiences when they'll taking riding and driving pract... and their words of encouragement.. U guys realli bring me to a greater height.. dun kan cheong.. slow and steady win the race... Yea.. the tortise spirit...way to go!!!

Aud: Ability is what you're capable of doing.
Motivation determines what you do.
Attitude determines how well you do it.
THANKS!!!

Hmmm today 3.01 only 4 ppl.. so mayb lucky lucky all passed haha.. usually if a lot of ppl sure only a few passers.. Anyhow today pract was super fun.. ride across narrow plank and u muz maintain low speed and u muz keep ur balance on tat plank for more den 7 seconds.. my best record is only 7.80s haha Den did the course for manoeuvring thru slalom course without touching the pylons and boundaries in less den 6 secs..and i muz say it is realli tough.. 100x TOUGHER den the narrow plank.. coz if u not realli steady.. u can see ur pylons starts to take flight...but once u get the hand of it and technique is damn fun lah haha Initally, tot i cant pass lah.. though i think i did not bad today=), coz i was caught speeding by another instructor.. and he actually reported my no. tag to my instructor-in-charge thru walkie-talkie.... and he was darn piss when he saw me return for my practise.. so i was like shit lah...But heng.. he's not tat kind of petty guy... and he says if wanna speed check for instructors first haha.. so yea.. nxt time i shall be caution when i speed.. learn to check for eyes.. =x

Today after pract rush for muay thai training.. cab all the way from bbdc.. cost me like 12.50.. darn.. damn broke already... i think i'm gonna live a life of a cow.. eat grass from tmr... shijie wants to see me for training.. she's been complainting tat i didnt train much lately.. so did Victor..and i realli didnt lah haha.. skipped and pon so many lessons... Is realli time i muz get back to my training again.. anyhow realli glad to see the shifu, and other old-bies and some new-bies too.. lucky still can skipped if not darn throw face infront of those newbies=p

Thanks to the guy(i duno wats his name though i pretended i noe ha) help me to take pac and train me today(shijie was supposed to help me take pac and train me though, coz she promised to ha but she's busy training..nvm.. so there come this guy ha)..Anyway, i realli learn a lot from him.. and is cool to train with him.. dun feel realli tired.. coz he teach me lotsa stuff... and juz realise he's kinda nice lah.. coz first time saw him tot he's quite cocky.. but not bad.. his technique is good.. i hope i can fight like him someday... Okie.. Aizhi needs to be a regular for muay thai training!!!

After training chiong hm to watch Kim San Soon.. though have already watched it once.. but is always nice to see Henry haha and the jokes Kim San Soon makes out of herself and Zhen Xian.. the show is juz duper nice lah.. N i'm a happy kid coz mama brought my fav korean cup cup noodles...and yea.. i ate like a monster or izzt a hungry ghost.. anyhow daisy hi-low milk brighten my nite haha.. Oh.. saw Nirana today.. hope to bump into her again soon.. Everybody has changed?? and why i'm still da same?

YI LU SUN FENG MR PRESIDENT MOSES!!!
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Everybody's looking for true love.
Some wait their whole life,
And it never comes around.
So should I not hold back now and just let it out,
On all that you ever need to know: Can you put your hand in mine?

Letting go may be an excuse, an escape... but wat more can i do... learn it the hard way...

PATIENCE!!!

2006-09-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

Alrty.. today was actually a bad day for me.. coz i failed my 2.02 pract.. yup am not ashame to say it out loud anymore... Think i'm used to re-taking at every stage... Nvm.. i'll be zai soon haha... (self-consolation) But i cant deny today both instructors are realli good lah.. detailed and patience.. mayb i juz didnt perform well or am not at my top-most condition..mayb i juz being too eager to pass today's pract den cannot focus very much...

But anyhow, been rather distracted lately too duno why.. dazing like everywhere almost everytime esp when i'm alone.. is like i'm getting senile soon... Eeew better not.. am still too young to be senile.. hmm or mayb my brain is developing a brain tumour from the mercury or colour paper i eat when i was young?!?!? Ok.. i'm being cynical now haha i think i better not think so much.. if not wat Sok says may come true or will come true... Sok says"I'll get into a depression if i think too much" ha

Nonetheless, thank you Sok for taking ur precious slacking time out yst to meet up and listen to my problems.. so to ensure that i dun get into a depression and get involve in some life or death matter haha Thanks a lot... I realli feel much better when i spill my troubles to you.. Coz i think i bottle too much already.. my neck not enuff storage haha(too short cannot be blame, so have to vomit out so u can help me store a little.. since ur neck's longer haha)

Okie.. today supposed to go muay thai after pract.. but didnt went again.. :( think i'm like dying soon lah.. all my kicks and punches sure siao liao...my stamina too.. *sian face... but i didnt slack today.. meet up with Captain Audrey to run.. Ran from Sengkang to Hougang haha.. Okie, though is rather short distance but not bad.. at least i dun feel so sinful as to stay hm and slack and watch tv or playing comp games.. Alrt.. after reach hougang mall our destination.. i ate like a pig... coz got Basar malam!!! haha i love TAIWAN XIANG CANG and RAMILY BURGERS!!!.. come to think of it.. mayb i'm the recarnation of a pig of my previous life.. Hmmm or maybe an elephant, a sausage dog, a Hippo... duno... or juz mayb any animal that realli eats a lot.. haiz.. with the huge eating capacity i have, i duno when i can have the abs, lean muscles and build like audrey.... *Aizhi needs to control her eating!!!

Thanks to Audrey and Kerk today too... taking their time out to listen to this old dude here nagging and winding abt how pity and bitter her bike pract session will haha Thanks guys for showing me some understanding and sympathy.. i realli appreciate it.. sorry to taking up so much so much time of u guys lah.. feeling super bad now ha... I wont let u guys down.. will listen to u all.. endure, persevere, patience.. dun rush... I think u guys built some confidence in me.. the tips and re-assurance.. i realli realli appreciate it very very much.. I love you all hee=)

During the msn chat with sissy.. he suddenly ask me wats overeat.. and send me the definition:
Overeating- It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power. Hmmm so maybe my recent distraction and brain malfunctioning is due to overeating.. so i better better control how much i eat... damn.. i'm screwed!!!

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
but
Aizhi is learning to let go and move on...

Love today.. yay

2006-09-01T19:49:00.000+08:00

Okie.. today is a slacking day for me again.. suppose to be helping out at mei see's company but she hired sissy instead coz evening got appointment... sorry mei see... suppose to spend my noon job hunting but in the end turning down job offers and having movie marathon haha

Papa is nice.. brought lotsa new dvds back.. watch snakes on the plane(very thrilling and the movie realli succeed in making me scare of snakes now..gee), now and forever(very sad story... think pal will love it... i'll pass it to u soon when i get to see ya...), the break up(ha watch it again.. coz i juz cant get over the jennifer fever) and too fast too furious(wat can i say.. car racing is always cool.. but iF they have got jessica alba casting in it.. it would be PERFECT!)... so overall nice nice nice... enjoy my noon haha..

Aunt is nice to buy all the delicious food up for me and ah ma... and tats why i dun like to stay home.. coz i'll be fed by them till i become a PIG!!! And i duno why.. they juz love to see me eating.. sigh... okie.. they dote me and pamper me i noe.. but i think i dun deserve that kind of treatment.. coz if so.. i feel like i'll nv grow up.. coz ppl are always there to take care of me.. and i feel useless..And i think my behaviour at hm is always very bad... especially towards my Aunt today, though she brought nice food up for me.. she trys to tok to me.. but u noe.. when i'm watching shows i dun like to be distracted.. so i juz tried to ignore her as well as her conversation.. damn.. i'm feeling realli guilty now... Ah ma is hospitalise again.. sigh.. juz hope she's gonna be fine.. i should learn to care more for the others.. esp my family members.. not to take them for granted...

Okie.. today finally go for a run.. thank god that today is a SUNNY day.. yay... but i feel damn weak alrt.. onli ran from my place to puggol park.. i'm like dead tired already.. and it juz feels like its beem so darn long since i put on my running shoes to run.. i realli need to run more often now.. so lord pls bless each evening to not POUR please... thanks=) Hmmm and i tink i realli need to mantain my weight lah.. my body feel so heavy alrt even though i still shit regularly damnation-- mayb i need to build up the strength of my knees... haiya.. AIZHI NEED TO KEEP FIT!!!! AND LEARN TO BE NICE=)

Here to wish XIAO PANG TO HAVE A GREAT TRIP TO INDIA.. MAKE SURE U COOK GOOD CURRY AFTER THE VISIT HA DUN BUSY FLIRTING AND DATING THOSE INDIAN BABES.. WE'LL MISS YA BUT NOT AS MUCH AS LAWRENCE DOES HAHA=)

Ever spend ya time thinking,
How tides control the sea
How infinite is space
How little things can slip out of your hand
How often people change

How to avoid defeat
And who decides your fate
Why everything will dissolve into sand
Where truth and fiction meet
Why things don't always turn out as you planned or should i say nothing ever turns out as you planned

So dont ask me why i dont speak the truth or express my love to you.. Cause there's just so much going on.. and i dont think i am strong to handle and fix a broken heart...

not quite my day lately...

2006-09-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. been living a pig life lately... weathers been bad for exercising.. rain almost the entire day.. realli mood spoiling... Now.. i feel like a duper weak person.. dun even think i can run already... body like so heavy and legs so weak.. Arrrrgghhhh Better not rain tmr.. so i can RUN RUN RUN...

Okie... lately realli not my day.. or should i say.. this week is a bad week for me... things juz not going my way...but i duno izzt a blessing in disguise?!?! coz my other plans turn out to be quite good ha
1st - re-do media for FYP twice... tues get a chance to finally tok to dr koh abt our fyp progression...but our damn plant take 4-6mths to grow.. arrrgh.. can u ever believe it.. and we onli like have 9 mths for FYP...god save us!!!

2nd - Wed supposed to hav training due to the bloody heavy rain, no training... went eating instead.. how sinful.. *damnation Oh.. and i still cant find my tofu man... sad

3rd - supposed to go for bike 2.02 pract but blur fren book wrong date... went to watch the break-up instead how great ha...

4th - The person whom Maggie and i called for job employment say wanted to call us but didnt... feel so cheated...

Alrt.. till now still cant stop thinking of Jennifer Aniston hot body.. though onli get to see her naked backview.. i'm content i guess lol... I bet the break-up sure made her the fantasy of every guy in this earth...or is she already the fantasy of all guys ha... watever.. she's sure my fantasy!!! Awww...

Without hesitation.. taking on Jennifer Aniston side

Aye.. she's juz so gorgeous... girl of my dream, it is...

Now i realli dun understand how can a guy like BRAD PITT give her up like tat.. total bastard and idiot!!!

Besides the great main and supporting casts..the break-up is definitely a funny, heart-wrenching and entertaining romantic comedy, realli worth watching.. though the ending was a little unexpected ha... Vince Vaughn's character and definitely make me feel like i'm looking in a mirror or should i say he sure makes the other dudes out there feel the same way too... he's like the reflection of our self centered, heck care, take ur love one's for granted and dress like a pig behaviour...

Signed up for standard chartered run already.. and now realli gotto train real hard for it so to make sure i wont die after 10KM... damn... I need to clock distance and timing soon... checked my real run timing.. kinda bad.. didnt manage to complete it b4 1hr *disappointing [Aizhi need to train hard!!!]

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
But first, will you give me the chance to...

everyday just passed by asking myself,
do you see me?
do you feel me?
do you miss me?
do you like me?
If only loving someone and saying i love you was easy..
should i stay or should i just go... ...

wat a day!!!

2006-08-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. Yst went cycling with sissy, ah hao, jel, weiyi and shurong... very very fun.. though is realli tiring too.. up-slope, down-slope and into all the darn cool and rocky trails!!! I wanna be back again...i swear!!! hee

Ok.. shall let the photos do the talking...

Cyclists of da DAY!!! (Part 1)

Cyclists of da day!!! (Part 2)

Setting off...(p.s. i think i look cool in tat sunglass lol)

At our destination...

First Check point...

To Sok... Lucky u didnt go yst.. if not think we'll be finding u landing inside there haha...

Sok.. where are u???

We trespass into the quary

Jel and da coconuts!!!

At the Eng Mo Cottage Jetty(3rd check point)

Sissy trying to lift tat big brick and Jel.. (MISSION IMPOSSIBLE) ha

Mayb i can help them with this haha

The YELLOW Team haha

Tat was what we're trying to show for tat previous pic...

The way to HEAVEN!?!?!

Siow How feeding his buddy (*not to be mean.. but they belong to the same family)

Last check point... Nodin beach... Saw two gays too... how sweet...

On da Way...

2 happy kids!!!

Lonely Elmo on tat baby swing...

Fans of sesame street and banny haha

Ok... today met up with Anna, Woei chyi, Serene and Amelia.. ate over at Marina Square-> Kenny Roger.. its been realli long since i last ate there.. and its been kinda long since i last see Anna.. She always assume i'm busy.. so always dont bother to ask me out.. but u noe.. i'm a super free dude waiting for ppl to date me out lol...

After the dinner, we went over to Ben and Jerry for ice cream and also find a place for chilling out... was nice to have such great companion... Anyhow.. on our way back.. saw lotsa people wearing green shirt.. Anna and i tot today might be some environmental day or sth.. why most ppl wearing green coz Amelia and her mama both wear green haha... Anyhow, We should meet up soon!!!

Its just the effect you have I dont quite understand myself but
I just somehow wanted to put it on your mind
I think that you are one of a kind

You make me laugh one thousand ways
And I am enchanted by your smile
I must admit it took a while for me to see it
But seriously, I hope to god you feel the way I feel

You really got a way that I just cant deny
You be on my mind from night to sunrise 24/7, 365
And even if I try to fake it, I know i will never shake it

It was quite disappointing... i thought i will get to see ya today...

It's more than just words

2006-08-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

WE'RE THE BEST OF FRIENDS
AND WE SHARE OUR SECRETS
SHE KNOWS EVERYTHING THAT IS ON MY MIND
LATELY SOMETHINGS CHANGED AS I LIE AWAKE IN MY BED
A VOICE HERE INSIDE MY HEAD SOFTLY SAYS......

WHY DONT YOU KISS HER?
WHY DONT YOU TELL HER?
WHY DONT YOU LET HER SEE THE FEELINGS THAT YOU HIDE?
'CAUSE SHE'LL NEVER KNOW IF YOU NEVER SHOW THE WAY YOU FEEL INSIDE

OH,
I'M SO AFRAID TO MAKE THAT FIRST MOVE
JUST A TOUCH AND WE COULD CROSS THE LINE
EVERYTIME SHE'S NEAR I WANNA NEVER LET HER GO
CONFESS TO HER WHAT MY HEART KNOWS
HOLD HER CLOSE

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY?
I WONDER
WOULD SHE JUST TURN AWAY?
OR WOULD SHE PROMISE ME THAT SHE'S HERE TO STAY?
IT HURTS ME TO WAIT I KEEP ASKING MYSELF

WHY DONT YOU KISS HER?
WHY DONT YOU LET HER SEE THE FEELINGS THAT YOU HIDE?
'CAUSE SHE'LL NEVER KNOW IF YOU NEVER SHOW THE WAY YOU FEEL INSIDE

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

AGAIN!!!

2006-08-22T12:54:00.000+08:00

Haiz... super sian lah.. think i juz cant break the curse alrt.. for each bike pract i muz repeat at least twice... super MALU lah.. but i duno.. yst i tot i did well lah.. my stopping was good i tot.. i didnt lane with my right foot yea.. but mayb i juz dun satisfied that bloody stringent instructor tat taken me b4.. And yst everyone in my grp FAILED all rite.. we are all made to come back for the 2.01 lesson again...

But i think most of us did well lah.. is juz tat bloody freaking instructor.. keep yelling and and putting so much pressure on us... can pass also let him scream till FAIL!!! I realli feel like yelling and screaming at him.. if ya are not happy den dun teach.. realli na bei!!!!

Okie.. Thurs gonna try to clear my 2.01.. hopefully i wont get back the same instructor again lah.. pls give me a nice instructor!!! Anw.. repeating aint tat bad lah.. okie.. not to self-console but i think at least u get more practise and get all ur turning, signaling and stopping all nice nice and zai zai... but i juz hope i can faster move up the stages and pass my bike tats most imprt... Pls do pray hard for me.. and i think i realli need to visit the church more often!!!! Need a lot of blessings...

Sun went real run.. saw Carmon, Bernard, Benjamine (ex-councils of TAS) and Rico.. duno did i run faster as compared to last yrs timing.. hope the results are out soon... and JEL, i wan the photos hee.. and i realli hope the photos of me taken by the crews are nice this time.. coz i actually posed when i see the camera lol.. *watever.. call me a CAM WHORE!!!

Finally!!!

2006-08-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

Alrty... Very Happy and relieve today... finally last paper already.. But is a KILLER paper alrt.. I doubt i can realli do well for this Sem.. realli jia lat.. *shake head vigorously

I noe what's done is done.. and what's over is over.. all i can do now is to pray and pray and pray real hard that i dun repeat my genomics yea... I think i did really bad.. misread question and like somewhat got nth to write for each question..totally like blank out!!! Shit-- And the questions like all so heavy weightage.. and moreover is a 60% PAPER!!! god damn shit lah alrt.. think i'm like duper SCREWED this time.. I cant imagine how my dad will react when he sees that result slip on 15th Sept... Mayb i'll be thrown out of da hse.. sigh... I dun even noe how can i face myself with that lousy result slip i guess.. I realli hope i can pass this time.. *no repeats for me pls..

And.. i'm seriously down with cash recently.. realli need to go find a decent job, so i can feed myself for the nxt 1 1/2 mths or so.. If anyone has lobang.. Pls call me!!! *wave hand

Plans ahead:
-Take basic theory test
- Chiong for bike pract
- FYP...
- Job Search
- Running running and more running...
-Muay Thai!!!

You just simply turn my world around...

2006-08-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. wanted to blog.. but due to my laziness, entries have been like delayed.. so usually my each entry will be like darn long ha..anyway.. i doubt if anyone still reads my blog *shrug

Okie.. as usual.. have a stressful and eventful week... before skool term coming to an end again.. Mag and I of coz have to chiong and finish all our projects... as well as preparing medium for our FYP... and Now all of us are pian-ing for our papers.. damn... i juz hope i wouldnt repeat any modules lah... this sem realli a bad and tough one for me... not been realli focusing and studying hard.. duno why.. grades are dropping like those figures in the stock market.. how much i wish it will raise lah.. damn sian alrt.. I realli gotto buck up... study study.. love my lecture notes and love all the studying moments... i muz study!!!! Mug Mug Mug...

Ok... been running lately with tay big lung(*this is a good sign.. coz at least am training for my upcoming real run ha).. considering of joining standard chartered half maraton.. but this means that every week i muz go clock distance and run at machrichie or sth.. eh...wil i have the discipline and mental?!?! Shurong and i are nice ppl.. we went all the way to east coast early in da morning on sun to support BIG LUNG ha... but dat sun was definitely an eventful one... esp for rong and i lah... Big Lung without fail... did well.. she finish the race b4 rong and i have even reach the finishing line.. so u can see and predict how fast she is alrt... first timer somemore.. ZAI AH...And it is a TRI-Athlon event.. was not easy i muz say.. u swim, run and cycle...for me.. think i'll juz drop dead half way.. i realli salute those young kids and old pek pek as well as aunties tat participated lah.. they are superb i muz say... anyhow.. we'll kanna scolded "get off, idiots" and kanna splashed water by two of the participants.. realli super na bei okie... duno if rong or i am the jinx ha..Rong and i so wanted to throw pebbles at them.. but we exhibit charisma, let them off this time round haha...

Okie.. den during our way home..ended in some place we dun know.. so anyhow approach a bus stop and find a bus that can bring us somewhere that we noe.. it was fun.. and shurong keep claiming tat she has got street smart.. but i guess Singapore is juz too small for one to get lost lah.. and juz a piece of advice.. if u landed somewhere u duno.. juz approach any bus stop and board any bus u see.. so at least u get out of tat freaking unknown place.. and i'm confident.. the bus will sure take u to somewhere u're more familiar and u can work ur way to ur destination already ha...Oh den we went to have wonton mee at Sunshine plaze.. which shurong claim is so darn nice.. and my conclusion is.. Yes is super duper nice ha... Eh.. Sok.. if ya reading this.. i promise to bring ya there to eat for our nxt food hunt or sth haha.. am sure u'll be addicted to the fry wonton like i'm hee.. eh but the filling is so little lah haha Anyhow.. realli thanks Ah rong for coming with me to East Coast.. and always nice to catch up with her.. talking abt our stuff.. and she enlighten me abt the difference of liking and loving someone.. cool ha Thanks Pal!!!

Another good piece of news.. finally move on to 2.01!!! haiz.. think for my entire biking course.. for each level think i muz repeat at least two times lah... Now i realli finally realise that getting a license is not tat easy after all.. and ppl i come to noe say that some levels they even repeated 3 times.. oh god.. i juz realli hope i can do well and one time pass lah.. I muz realli master my stopping and half crutch well.. so i'll be last prone to accident ha.. coz yst.. went for my bike pract.. due to the over-congestion of bikers in the small bloody circuit.. i knock over an instructor alrt.. yes.. i knock him down... and he looks realli angry and piss.. i juz hope he wouldnt be ending up being my instructor.. if not he'll definitely fail me immediately.. but am realli very apologetic over that event.. coz i wanna siam another oncoming bike tat coming into my lane, den w/o realising the instructor infront of me and brake in time..i juz got him knock down.. but lucky he was not injured.. arghhh.. i feel bad still...

Damn.. i'm like procrastinating today again.. I realli need to study.. God pls bless me to study with the right attitude!!! Study please Aizhi!!!Rascal Flatt- what hurts the most is my this week hot pick.. hear it.. but dun do so if u're going thru or healing from a break up...

Oh.. and i so wan to watch the BREAK UP.. Jennifer aniston... Yay!!!

I kept it inside
For the longest time that i can imagine
And I dont know how long more
I can keep this going
Remaining silence and pretending i dont care
Though i do care so much...

All this love that's
Inside of my heart
Maybe it's safer not
To say that I care
Cause maybe those words wont
Lead you to me anyway

But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And then again having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to force that smile
When I see or hear you with another man
and I’m alone
Still Harder again to know that
I just couldnt trade away all the words that I saved in my heart
And that I left unspoken
From the heart
Just wishing you have got yourself a good man
You love and that he loves you too

You may not see,
You're the world to me
But I'm afraid to see,
The way that you feel for me...

emo

2006-08-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

wish i had told you how i felt
maybe you'd be here right now
but instead,
i pretend that you'll nobody special to me
and i'm glad that we'll the best of friends
peaceful walks closin more everyday
Like a clown i put on a show
painting it real
Though nobody knows
but im missing you so much inside

Sometimes i would ask myself, why didnt i say the things i needed to say
how could i let the feeling for you just fade away
sometimes
i just keep thinking about the love that we would have had
And each day
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

I just hope that you might let me know the way your heart feels
So perhaps I would be willing to take the risk and try
Cause I never thought that I'd love someone, That was someone else's dream
I always do enjoyed the little time you spend alone with me,
And though I can say I've never bought you flowers
But you're always here in my heart

I don't know how long more i can keep
Perhaps someday I might call you from my heart
May at that moment it may be a second too late,
And the words I could never say Gonna be a trash anyway

1.03 here i come!!!

2006-08-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. today is the best-est day that i ever had in my life yea.. Finally get over with 1.02 pract moving on to 1.03...Yahoo!!! Okie.. i'm sad to admit that i didnt make it the first time round for my 1.02 pract on Sat yea.. so actually today is my second attempt for my 1.02 class.. but it was realli fun and a fulfilling one as compared to the first class that i've attended.. toally suck like HELL!!!

The Sat pract was damn shitty.. and i learn it the real hard way alrt...realising that one should NEVER take bike pract over the weekends yea.. is not only EXPENSIVE, the traffic super congested and lotsa inexperience riders fighting lanes with ya..their wobbly act makes me wobbles and falls with them too.. damn.. okie.. mayb i'm not zai enuff... and i think leg extension mayb a lot helpful for short ppl who learning bikes like me ha Nonethless... I'm not only blaming myself for the un-zai-ness that i exhibit during Sat pract.. specially at the changing of gear part and stopping part.. but after attending today's lesson.. i feel that the instructor plays a very important role too yea.. The instructor of Sat is realli CMI... all he noes is to smile at us.. and den tell us to come back and attend 1.02 again.. i think he feels that we're target for him to cheat our feelings and money!!! Eeyer...

But.. mayb is a blessing in disguise yea.. today's pract lesson was damn damn damn GOOD... i realli like the instructor lah.. Love him i muz say (XxXxXxoOoOxXXx) Learn a lot from him today.. realli started like from scratch.. a revision from lesson one.. doing main stand, side stand, stopping in a straight line and with the correct rider posture (i.e left leg down)...realli perfecting and brushing up skills pract lesson today... I realli very grateful and thankful to him lah.. he's realli GOOD... how i wish i can have him as my instructor for all the other practs.. N i think i can ride better in the nite as compared in the noon... Today the ride for me was realli swive and smooth.. change gear and stop pretty well.. realli damn HAPPY... I realli love the feeling of riding on the BIKE....

Today get to know two new frens too.. one is the KOVAN guy.. den the other one is an Indonesia girl... Oh and today lesson only like 1 pathetic guy and the rest are all girls lah ha... Oh.. and most of the girls are like ard the same height as me.. or mayb some taller den me by a LITTLE (yes, i muz emphasise, only by a little okie.. ha) den u can see.. we stop in a straight line all tip-toeing.. is realli damn cute lah...ha.. Fri will be my 1.03 pract lesson.. hope it will turn out as well as today.. the KOVAN guy also enrolled the same class as us.. so will be seeing him on that day again..

Alrt.. Fri Project Nuts turns out to be good... Tri-Elite did well.. won the dragon boat team.. after that went to members act... have great fun over there.. enjoy the pizza esp... though i prefer it to be chicken instead of hawaiian.. Nvm.. Seeing all the trips videos that the 31st councils had prepared.. it realli brought all my councilship memories back.. and seriously.. I realli miss those days.. those days where i slack, slp, play, eat in da club hse and the days i get so stress up in juggling skool work and TAS, planning trips, events and TASIC programme.. Somehow i realli wish i'm back to my post again drafting and planning for a trip...But i muz say.. the 31st councils did a real good job.. can realli see that the members enjoy each and every trips very much and they have establish good relationships with the members.. Well done Peeps!!!

Okie dokie.. Sat went to watch Fireworks at Esplanade.. Super duper Wow and Nice!!! Before that met up with Jel, Weiyi, Dora, Kevin and Dawn for dinner at NEW YORK (new restuarant at City Link) Hv a real nice and funny dinner over there...Enjoy the ambience and of coz the service provided by one of da cute and pretty lady working over there.. The story abt her is realli long... she's juz known to me as da 5 cent girl, ha.. I hope to see her again when i have a chance to drop by NEW YORK again..

I muz get this chance to apologise to XIAO PANG AKA ANGELINE.. sorry for dropping ya CREATIVE DIGICAM on SUNDAY training and causing ur filming and interviewing process for ya project to be distrupted.. I realli owe u my LIFE !!! REALLI SORRY!!!

Okie.. Photos time....

Super Long Quene..

i think we look cheesy.. ha

I duno wat they're trying to express.. King and Queen?

My ART piece!!!

Okie.. the 5 cent story...

People waiting for FIREWORKS!!!

Is us.. on da MAT haha

The aunty who took this photo definitely like sissy more than me.. Juz compare the percentage of exposure of sissy and den compare it to me.. ;(

Where's the head and Who's leg is that??

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I was down and my dreams were wearing thin
When you're lost where do you begin
My heart always seemed to drift from day to day
Looking for the love that never came my way
Then you smiled and I thought I could reached out to you
With just one look and then it could all began for you and me
But that's only gonna happen in my dreams
I'll never gather the courage to tell it straight to you: I hope you could be mine

The moment that I thought that there would be
Two less lonely people in the world
And it's gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just can't believe why you're the chosen one for me
In my life where everything was wrong
There came you
And in the world tonight
Just to think what I might have missed
Looking back how did I exist
I dreamed, still I never thought I'd come this far
Realising I still didn't able to let you go

Is there a chance between me and you?

row row row.....

2006-08-03T00:55:00.000+08:00

Dragon boat training yst.. i muz say it was like the official first land training with Coach and teammates over at Kallang.. We used to have land training on Thurs at Seng Kang conducted by Peter Pan.. but it was not as xiong as yst.. coz we only do short jogs... and nth much...And, Our girls' land training always didnt turn out to be a real work out..either the training is last min being cancelled..or we'll turn out playing games like badminton, basketball and den have supper haha...think we realli eat and play more den we train...*Ooops...but i think yst training could be inject with more fun if Penguine and Kok Leong were there.. but they didnt turn up yst.. due to work i guess... But on my way home saw Kok Leong.. he felt sorry coz he promise to give Angeline and all the Seng Kanger a car pool but in the end, due to work constraints (broke down of machines) he didnt able to make it back on time to drive Angeline and Julia over to Kallang..So Xiao Pang if ya reading this Kok Leong actually apologised yea.. so dun be angry with him hee... he realli feels bad.. i can see the sorry-ness written all over his face yea...

But overall yst's training was a lot abt ENDURANCE yea... we did like 100 standard Push-ups, 20 mins run, shuttle run and 3 sets of stationary rowing...I noe it may seems like Nth as compared to the training of my skool DB (NPDB) and association like Safra but i think this kinda training is enuff to kill me.. I seldom do 100 push-ups in a day alrt.. And i muz admit.. i'm weak.. very weak lately..but i'm proud that i actually endure thru yea.. feeling my arm muscles hardening.. wah.. that kinda feeling.. SHIOK... I realli hope i can make it for Pull Up soon alrt...

Den again... think i realli need to maintain my weight...i can feel my fats accumulating under my skin.. damn... the fatty feeling realli sux.. Aizhi realli gotto stop eating so MUCH!!!! arrgh.. CONTROL!!!

Every Sunday rowing is not a routine anymore, it has become a habit
Rowing is no longer about passion but about the love of the sport, the sea, the sun, the boat as well as the team...
Dragon Boat makes me feel good.. for i know i'm nv alone out in da sea, rowing on my own... Everyone plays an important role in taking one another to the finishing line..
Simply.. I love Dragon boating...

Puggol CSC Dragon Boat recruitment drive for ladies rower is still on... Men are welcome too... JOIN US!!!

N i muz comment on the Bioinformatic test.. it realli sux.. i realli did study very hard for it..*i think.. but the paper turn out like SHIT.. is so damn freaking DIFFICULT... Dr Raka, realli dun give chances.. the multiple choice question was so tricky and hard to ans.. damn...and short ans question was like so short dat i dun even understand and dun even have an idea to write wat...seriously..wat the heck with all third yr lecturers?!?!?!Do they realli wan us to repeat the sem or re-take their modules again... This Sem realli damn jia lat*an agony!!!.. Genomics paper die-ed den Bioinformatics also Die-ed.. den always chiong for last min project work... Arrggh.. i duno how long more i can endure thru this kinda way of LIFE!!!!

Tmr having cGMP presentation and by sunday, needa submit the freaking-damn-difficult-to-do Business Plan... arrgh...i think my weekends are burn in working on the project.. though i think most probably i'll get my arse out of da hse and away from the comp...*Oops

Okie.. this sem also turning me into a panda soon.. or at least to a walking Zombie first.. i'm not being exaggerating.. but is seriously true.. YR 3 SUX AR!!!! And i realli need to buck up and double up... think i realli slack a lot after attachment...and this sem is not as smooth sailing as my past two years.. change of a new class, new environment, new lecturers, new modules..i'm somewat still hasnt got myself to adapt to it.. and all my pract results and worksheet was not realli of good grading.. sigh.. So,
Dear lord, here i pray.. pls give me the will and power to study hard and study smart.. i realli need to and have to pass this sem no matter wat... Thank you Lord.. May you hear my prayer.. Amen

Tmr helping big lung team to run the project nuts.. juz hope i wont screw it all up for them.. feeling freaking nervous already... wat if i let the team down!!!! Sigh

Anyone out there to Give me the power to run tmr!!!

Time for project again!! and bless my run tmr!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVINA LING!!!!U're getting OLD!!!

SAVE MONEY!!!

2006-07-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

Alrt.. went to watch The Lake House today with amy, woeichyi and serene... very nice.. i realli dun mind catching it another time... i definitely gonna get the vcd/dvd when its out.. juz love the CASTS... Hmmm storylines.. still not tat bad after all.. at least it has a GOOD ENDING hee... Now i wanna watch NACHO LIBRE... Any takers?

Aizhi realli needs to save money.. spending a lot on eating(sinful, sinful very sinful) and movies lately.. Now wallet big hole.. stomach round round....(Jiaying even commented tat i've crowfeet.. arrgh damn sad lah.. old already!) I think in no time.. i'm gonna join the XIAO PANG club or even the ah pek's club... sigh... Over the weekends i still in hope to get myself a new pair of dunks or sneakers.. arrrghhh but am close to being bankrupt!!!!damn damn.. Pls someone.. donate to the Aizhi's fund...Aizhi needs some money welfare!!!

Anyhow...The Lake House reminds me of this song by Nickelback-Far Away
this time, this place
misused, mistakes
too long, too late
who was i to make you wait
just one chance
just one breath
just in case there's just one left
'cause you know, you know, you know

(chorus)that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
stop breathing if i don't see you anymore
one my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
'cause with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it alli'd give for us
give anything but i won't give up
'cause you know, you know, you know

(chorus)so far away
been far away for far too long
so far awaybeen far away for far too long
but you know, you know, you know i wanted
i wanted you to stay
'cause i needed
i need to hear you say
that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i forgive youfor being away for far too long
so keep breathing
'cause i'm not leaving
hold on to me and, never let me go

And the lyrics as well as The Lake House definitely reminds me of you...

To ever believe the love story of The Lake House, may seems rather naive or stupid..coz many will still agree and believe that.. in reality.. there's nv gonna be a connection btw the past and the future.. and we all noe very well that, we cant turn back time.. and life is live forward and not backward...and wat has passed is gonna be a past forever... but sometimes we juz wish to run away from reality (Mayb not for you.. but definitely for me) Coz to me, at least the show can make me believe that this kinda "sort-of-long-distance" love and the long-waiting-love are worth the wait... I duno..I'm realli loss at words now..but I realli wish tat u'll the one sitting nxt to me during the show... I realli wish that u'll juz here somehow..and yes i noe.. u'll nv be, right...

Perhaps i'll meet someone new..
Perhaps i'll still hold on tight to ya...
Perhaps time will tell it all....

I'M SCREWED!!!

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2006-07-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

One first HEARTY stress ball from my 1st Blood donation at BISHAN CC...
Thanks Sok for jio-ing me along.. Donating blood is realli cool.. No pain at all and is very relaxing.. and moreafter colour bandage, free food and drinks are given and serve after ur donation as well as free stress ball ha.. and most importantly.. u are doing a good deed and saving life of others... Give Blood!!!

I've also received a sticker from them.. but i find the words rather contradicting.. coz it states tat "Be nice to me, this is my first donation" so does it means that if i'm a 2nd time donor u're gonna be nasty to me? or are u gonna treat me nicer? lol And to solve all the misunderstanding.. blood donation do not results to weight gain!!!

Missy Siuling and Me!!! (Yay too the photo with her in uniform and badge.. happy ha)
*damn i think i look FAT!!!! Shit

Obsence but yet interesting haha

Okie.. after the donation went Chinatown dessert hse over at temple street to eat again.. this time we've Siuling's company hee.. ate alot again.. so sinful now.. think tmr i sure cannot run.. jia lat... Okie.. den went Bugis after that, while Siuling rush back KK for work.. and we are cheated by her to wait for the shuttle bus over at KK to Bugis.. we like sitting at the quene for hrs.. but no bus came.. so we decided to take 851 instead.. so stupid.. Siuling why bluff us ha.. Alrt.. am actually going Bugis to get my TOPMAN berms.. but so sad lah.. dun have my size already... damn shitty.. den cant find any berms dat i like too..*moodless And worst till, my levi's jean that i bio-ing for very long is like costing 239 bucks.. [damn.. i need the key to the treasure of gold!!!!]

After the bad shopping.. went to Kino to read books instead and at the same time waiting for Alvina and Audrey to meet us for dinner.. Didnt manage to find the book that i eye-ing for too.. super suay today.. Okie.. den went Parklink to have STEAMBOAT.. Eat till siao.. waste a lot of food.. coz i think we OVERESTIMATED ourselves lol.. Xiao Pang aka Angeline was good.. when everyone has already waved their white flag to the food.. she's still happily stuffing the soup and food down her throat into the stomach ha... *salute her! You are da SHE-MAN!!! Oh and i learn that Angeline Loves HOTDOGS and YI-MEE... ha...

Juz hoping hard that i can run tmr yea.. I can feel my body getting heavier esp during the weekends!!! Nxt week BBQ steamboat at Marina again? *gosh.. I need to feel sinful!!! AIZHI NEED TO EXERCISE!!!!

What is like to love and be love?
What exactly is love?
Will I ever gonna meet someone like you...
I swear i've been waiting all along for the right person to come along..
But somehow i cant seems to see it coming my way..
I'm always doom in loving someone so wrong.. like you...
I need a saviour...

Will you somewhat love me and appreciate me like i do???

F U N & C O O L

2006-07-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

Okie.. juz came home from Dr Ho's House... Have a real fun time over there playing X-box, mingling ard with her kids and eating lotsa junk and nice food... Butttt.. Damn...getting fatter and fatter as each day goes by.. think my daily activities is not enough for me to burn those excess fats that i've taken in..*sadded (Not been training much lately...Mizuno run duno how??? I need to run more often!!!) Oh.. i muz realli comment on Dr Ho's youngest son... so cute lah.. only two weeks old.. so small and delicate..*sweet little thing*... the way he sleeps realli reminds me of my pillow haha Oh.. and Dr Ho's daughter is realli shy... but her son is damn good in x-box games so is GRACE haha...

Aint he cute?!?!

*squeeze haha

Anw.. apologise to Audrey and Alvina for not joining u guys for supper.. make it up to u guys another time.. tmr? haha..Thanks Mag for agree-ing to come with me to Dr Ho's hse.. Thanks for not ps-ing me alrt.. hope u did enjoy as much as i do hee...my besta FYP pal!!!

Wed went for my first Bike practical... Fun and cool i muz say... okie.. i admit that it was kinda tough for me at first to handle the bike yea.. It was heavier den i thought... drop my bike two times during the practising of crutch and brake.. coz i brake too hard ha.. But instructor was realli nice.. always there to correct my mistake and direct me.. so i muz say BBDC is a good driving skool hee.. Oh.. and i seriously feel that Bike is much easier to balance as compared to bicycle ha.. the feeling of riding on a bike is realli cool... though i maybe having a hard time tip-toe-ing and travelling at 10km/hr.. but overall the feeling was shiok..haha... I'm so looking forward for the nxt pract.. anxious and nervous.. but i juz wanna get my bike license soon!!!

Okie.. tmr going blood donation with Sok kim..It's gonna be my first time...hope i wont faint haha...tmr get a chance to see Siuling in her missy uniform too haha.. so looking forward to it.. muz take a photo with her if possible hee.. After the blood donation drive.. gonna go Chinatown and have desserts again.. Alrt.. i noe i'm fat.. but realli.. life's short.. not only need to play hard.. we need to eat hard too lol.. i promise to train hard.. so lord.. pls dun turn me into a fat dude overnight yea.. I'll run and train more, i swear!!! P/s: Gashree.. if you read this.. pls jio me to run more often.. i dun wan to become wu da pang (Goh Ah Fat)!!!

Yay... gotten the Alicia Pan-This Love from Audrey!!! Thanx Audrey!!! I love u.. but i Love ya ABS more!!!! haha Okie.. the song is realli nice.. anyone who wants it can take from me.. i'm willing to share alrt.. she's a local talent dat i realli admire...Alicia Pan Roxxx!!!

Alrty.. finally this weekend can slack a little.. coz all of my project reports have been submitted.. now left all the modules projects, pract tests, online quizzes and upcoming tests that i need to mug on, present and submit.. very sian, very stress.. why muz we do so much still when we're almost going to graduate.. is the lecturers and skool trying to make us rmb THEM forever... Sigh... I realli hate being a year 3 student.. so much work and so little time.. I wan to play!!! I need to destress!!!

Oh.. and this few days been realli suay lah.. duno wat spell i'm under.. keep losing my things lately.. first my helmet cover, 2nd my NIKE dunks and now my voodo doll eye... sian ah!!! Just my luck i guess...=x Roarsss

He thinks he's an act piece... Shot taken in the mrt station...

Shopping list:
Book - Running with Scissors: A memoir
Berms - Topman white stripped berms
Dunks, Sneakers
Levi's Jeans

Always nice to see you again... u filled my little world with smiles=).. Am gonna miss ur presence, though i noe u might not...

Life is wonderful when there's you...

Long Long Long

2006-07-15T13:29:00.000+08:00

Aye!! my lao po zai is here in Singapore again.. this time spending almost 1 month plus for channel 5 sitcom shooting i think.. Yay... But too bad didnt went down to see her today.. hope there'll be a gathering sooonnn... I love her!!!
Arrival to Changi airport...

Ok.. its been rather long since i update my blog.. juz too lazy and too tired.. thanks to the skool again.. for the wonderful projects and never-ending assignments appointed to us, 3rd yrs student!!!! Now wanna enjoy life oso tough.. duno wats the world is turning into.. always chiong chiong chiong..

Past few weeks were kinda exciting and tired, somewhat like a ro-jak or mixed salad kinda week...coz chiong-ing for submission of reports, preparing for the upcoming PDC stem cells cocktail ppt cum presentation and Genomics test, blah blah.. lotsa sleepless nights i muz say... Last Last week Sat went food hunt with Sok... very fun.. and i'm very happy.. coz we go ard trying out lotsa nice cusine.. so shiok.. and i'm like craving for the chinatown desserts already.. The thoughts of juz thinking of it and looking at the photos realli makes me drool...*wipe wipe ha
Here are da delicious food we tried...(sinful but nice food like this i juz cant resist..so i carry the motto of eat first and exercise more tmr haha)
Chinatown desserts!!!

Most impt item, when u're out for food hunt!!!

Geylang Smelly Tou fu + Pi dan porriage*yum

Dinner at AMK S11.. can u see the tao gay they put into my Hokkien mee.. Eeee

Famous Chinatown tian ji porriage.. recommended by Shilin...

The Tian ji club!!!

To regain our childhood memory we went to play see-saw!!! and Sok was like so happy and proud of herself that she could take my weight... duno wats up with her thinking haha

Look at her left knee.. can still see her bruise from the bike fall haha

Thought tat it might help with the digestion.. but is super painful!!! Ouch is the word..Sok again loving the whole process...*something muz be wrong with her nervous system.. she dun feel any pain!!!

The repeatitive sign-board...see carefully.. the name/numbers always repeated thrice

Okie.. i muz say i die-ed for the Sat genomics test alrt.. duno the paper can get so sucky.. but i think i'm again the one to be blame.. coz i didnt put in much affort that i think i shld.. duno wats wrong with me nowadays.. been realli restless.. arrgh.. mayb i'm realli on the verge of giving up on my studies.. but i noe.. cant cant cant.. coz in Singapore.. u need more den juz diploma.. sian ar...i think i should really consider migrating and be a maid or baby-sitter in US orUK.. den not onli i can live in big big houses, i can disturb babies haha..and from wat i heard the pay is gooodddd..

Alrty.. Sun went for Shape run.. realli thank god tat i manage to complete the 10km run.. but i dun like the Shape goody bag.. so girlish... eeeee.. but afterall it worth like 350 bucks.. but the nike towel is definitely niceeee...oh, and again kanna PS by my supervisor and mingli lah.. but heng Gashree went lah.. or else i think i sure give up on the run...Ms Tay oso went for the run.. did the 5km one.. and i think she's the first lecturer that i have seen so sporty and nice to mingle ard with ha.. *sweet.. N i muz congrats Gashree Tay Big Lung.. she gotten top ten for the Shape run.. super zai.. big lung she has haha.. But the Vivien Tan amazed me even more.. once again, without fail.. she's the first lady finisher again.. she completed the 10km run in like 39.90.. can u believe that.. i think she simply fly all da way lah.. Sometime i suspect if she has some firing rocket attached to her shoes or she has the Mr FLASH genes.. she's my idol thats all i can say.. i hope she can train me in running haha Okie.. as usual.. hanging out with Ms Tay Big Lung.. funny things always happen... this time her contact lens came out from her eyes while she was rubbing, i think den she ran to the wrong bus stop to wait for her 190 bus lol.. it was realli funny lah alrt..

Shape goodie bag.. aint it sissy looking..

Okie.. Sun was a xiong day for me.. coz after the run went db training.. den is like the entire day i'm like doing running and running and more running.. my legs realli breaking already.. And Coach is gonna step up our training.. xiong it mayb.. but guess thats the way that we can improve and prove to the other teams that we're not a weak team afterall.. I hope to join Penang dragon boat rowing too... i wan abs like Audrey!!!

Oh.. am looking forward to wed for my first Bike pract.. nervous but till very anxious for it haha.. Juz hope i wouldn't embrassed myself infront of my coach and other students.. if not sure very very pai seh lah..*pray hard for me..and i dun wish to loss any of my limbs, fingers or toes too...

Today went dining at Swesen with my IS mates->Chris, Shilin and Eliza..ate a lot again.. sian.. i guess i'll nv be slim... but it was a pleasant outing.. realli nice to get in touch with ppl u have not seen for very very long.. i like da feeling.. *sweet.. Oh..after dinner, we head to Borders and receive a breaking and damn shocking news from a mag that Eliza has picked up... Brad Pitt is leaving Angelina Jolie!!! Can u believe tat!! Do read up more if u're as KPO and gossipy as me haha *awaiting for tmr straits time and yahoo news update... But i realli dun understand why ppl nowadays (esp da stars of hollywoods) they like to get tog and den break up.. fickle-minded freaks!!!

This is a quiz on Why are you still single? Took the test out of boredom alrt..(send to me by Coco)

My result(perhaps is true)-> Aizhi, you're single because you don't want to slow down
Whether you're working all hours, busy with school, or planning a cross-country move, it sounds like you just don't have time for anyone else in your life...right now, that is. Your timing may be off in other aspects, too. Chances are, you've met that perfect person who just so happens to be married or planning their own cross-country move. So take a step back for a moment. Is there something underlying this? Could it be you're afraid to get involved for some reason or another, and are therefore attracted to people who are simply unavailable?Whether you're secretly sabotaging yourself or not, try a little exercise. Open your mind to those who are around you (and available!) right now. Then let up on your schedule to let that someone in. That is, unless you want to get married to your goals, and not Mr. or Mrs. Right.

I've never seen someone like you
I've never seen someone shine so bright
I have been blind
And I hardly know there's a beauty by my side

I wish there's just nobody here ..It's just you and me
It's where I want to be
I'll never forget the way you look
Are you really the one i want?
Whats love?

not cool

2006-06-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hooray... finally is weekend again.. Yr 3 days are juz so hard to pass alrt..the 15 weeks of attachment is realli not enuff.. it should be extended to perhaps 6 months alrt.. i think skool realli sux.. not a cool place to be at all...So tight schedule and so many things the lecturers expect of us.. Dying.. seriously dying.. Am realli working hard to find my 5 journals for my lit review yea..but... i juz couldnt get any... Lord pls show me some light...

Anyhow, MEERA MOO MOO and i decided to change our plant to TABERNAEMONTANA.. So if there's any kind souls who are free pls do not mind to help us research on the tissue culture on Tabernaemontana... Thanks in advance den hee...

Tmr will be dragon boat race.. am not realli prepared i guess.. but i juz hope i can endure thru and give my best performance.. dun wanna let myself down nor my teammates.. duno if we can make it to the finals.. but nonetheless, juz have gotto do our best and the rest juz leave it to god to decide i guess.. Going for the MILk run on sun.. 8.4km.. duno if i'll die along my way.. another challenge for me.. but heng.. been running lately.. thanx to Jel who wanted to train.. so we can prepare for real run tog.. and there's SHAPE run coming up too.. but i'm still so not prepared.. Sian... run run...

Today went running with TAY BIG LUNG GASHREE.. kanna bluff by the councils.. ran round te campus like kuku.. very stupid.. but nice to see the members.. though is realli a handful of them.. but is nice to see the members enjoying wat they are doing... i think thats realli important-->Enjoying what you are doing.. Damn.. i realli feel like taking up biking license lah.. realli wanna do it behind my dad's back already.. arrgh.. but i realli wonder if the YR 3 schedule allows me to not.. sian..
Bike.. i'm coming!!!!!

Time for my FORENSIC HEROS.. nice show..watch it!!!

My plans...
Walking away
Dont wait
Lay low
dun ask why.. coz i'm effort-less..
I'll nv be the one u wanted me to be...

"S" is the word this week!!!!

2006-06-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

Finally... Finally... got my IAP final report done and ready to get it bind and hand it up... at least i can feel my load over my shoulder getting perhaps a little lighter.. But damn... I think this SEM for me realli suxxxxx..I tink i'm gonna get myself screwed up like nobody business..

Alrt.. i realli need to grumble, rumble and watever u called it to be.. I'm realli stress and irritated right now yea*totally no mood.. coz today Mag (Meera) and I spend like hrs in the library and infront of our lappy.. we still unable to find the journals on our beloved plant-> Pleiocarpa mutica... Super shitty alrt.. our search efforts that proved futile made us realli demoralise and dishearted.. Not only feeling like killing ourselves.. we also like to kill Dr F***** and Dr K** Thanx to them i guess... for allocating to us this kinda project!!!!and setting such a rush deadline to submit our literature review and project management.. Mag and I are realli DYING.... Yes we are alrt!!!!

SAVE ME, SUPERMAN!!! SAVE ME, GOD!!!

Dear Lord, Now i'm trying to be realistic with ya...i dun wish for the sky to drop money anymore! but can you perhaps make the sky drop some journals *at least 10 journals related to my plant!!!

Mag and I are gonna turn into Pleiocarpa Mutica Journals Desperado soon.. while other groups progressing so smoothly and fast damn damn... wats up with our plantttttt... where did all the plant tissue culture on my planty gone too... Dun tell me Qing si wang actually burnt tat...ok i'm realli going crazy!!!!Arrrghhh Okie, one cool thing... if u ever being nice and trying to help me with the Pleiocarpa mutica journal hunt..perhaps when u are typing in Pleiocarpa mutica in the yahoo search, you might get my blog link ha..

PLEIOCARPA MUTICA!!!!

Izzt Human nature or Human Errors... why we always love things that we cant get or have them... Eh, there are days where i wish you will still here...